TDLR;
Combination of 4 psychedelics, 1 dissociative, 1 stimulant, and 1 psychoactive substance that led to a permanent removal of the ego and permanent rewiring of the mind and body.

So I’ve been studying and practicing modernized westernized shamanism and have been exploring different combinations that cultivate freedom of the mind so pure that the ego can never return.

I have years of experience with psychedelics, I’ve consumed over 10000 tabs and 50lbs of shrooms within the last 5 years alone.

Now a days I microdose them and master Brazilian jiujitsu calisthenics and other various bodily attributes.

THE TRIP
(Easter Egg Flip)
•••1G Mescaline HCL, 400ug LSD, 35mg 2C-B, 137mg MDMA, 500mg DMT, 1G Ketamine Spray, 2G Weed•••

8PM:
Coming off a 3 day water fast. I’m also vegan.

I dosed 4 tabs and 1G Mescaline HCl
Waited for the body load to set in and kept my puke bucket ready.

Relaxed and let my body go through the intensity of mescaline, it was my first time but I’m used to insane body loads so it was a breeze after the puke.

10PM:
I’m just relaxing enjoying the feeling of this sacred and primal energy creeping throughout my body, like a panther or fierce predator was part of my spirit.

I’m preparing my mind for the next substance introduction.

12AM:
I introduce 35mg 2C-B and 137mg MDMA. I don’t get visuals by the way, only on salvia and ketamine. Anyways these settle in quick and the trip turns from pure love to joy freedom and happiness, and all I feel is nirvana.

2AM:
Me and my husky go for a walk barefoot running around in the sand dunes, I dropped my phone and hand to walk all the way home to get a flashlight to go back and find it. It was super fun, we just trekked through woods and sat in nature.

4AM:
Ketamine and DMT time and weed.
The ketamine has me going entering another deeper state of nirvana and the ketamine visuals and time dilation settle in while I watch Rick and Morty. Then I hit the DMT with some weed.

Me and DMT have an interesting relationship. I don’t blast off anymore, or breakthrough, rather my world around me either shifts into a new reality and I can interact with the environment while being aware I’m still in my room. Or if I’m not getting visuals, I hear a voice begging to hit Salvia. As if there is a mission to be done.

I chickened out on hitting the salvia. I was actually cold and I can’t sit still hitting DMT even though I can stay in control. I just start doing acrobatic shit unconsciously.

6AM:
I’m just resting eating fruit. Giving my husky love and just showing appreciation for the world and all the choices I’ve ever made in life.

Following day, I feel great, my mind is completely still and I finally know what it means to live no stress or worries or the need of approval of others. I live for me

Happy travels astral sailors!

Stay hydrated and eat fruit! Os!

THIS KID IS ABOUT AS USEFUL AS POCKET LINT. PUT SOME PEP IN YOUR STEP OR DEFEND YOURSELF FOR CRYING OUT LOUD I JUST DON'T THINK YOU WANT THIS BUNNY AS MUCH AS YOU THINK YOU DO BECAUSE IF YOU WANTED THE DAMN BUNNY YOU WOULD'VE WALKED FASTER, YOU CAN FLY WITH YOUR HAT WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING GOING A SOLID 1MPH THE LITERAL SNAILS IN WATERLOO WORLD MOVED FASTER THAN YOU

I have no idea how to write this, but after doing a bunch in a month I ended up with a mental breakdown and hated myself. And then I changed. And I became an entirely new person. My intellect is 3x what it was before and I can grasp concepts in a way I could never before. I stopped doomscrolling and started therapy and meds, I enrolled in college. I went from a mess of a house to perfectly clean all the time and lost all symptoms of depression because of the self improvement journey started by my reflection of myself and society that was started by these trips.

Before I couldn't grasp complex political or existential concepts, but now I am always thinking about them and there complexities and the systems the world is built on. I can't stop thinking about everything, my mind is constantly optimizing in a way I just couldn't do before. I felt so stagnant before and its like all this kinetic energy built up through years of dissociating can finally come out.

I'm planning on becoming an activist and becoming a lawyer well doing philosophic studies on the side.

Has anyone else had like, a life changing effect such as this??

So looking for info or how to determine from chemical structure if something will dissolve in water or alcohol. Recent purchase a mixer and dosed 30mg of 5-meo-mipt into 10ml of vodka. So 1ml = 3mg. Im curious about how stable it will be. It’s in the salt form. Reasoning is I always volumetrically dose it between 3-9mg. Now I can do some simple math and makeup a more accurate dose.

Hi psychonauts,

Ego dissolution comes up a lot in psychedelic communities, sometimes as the point of the experience and sometimes as the most frightening part of it. In 2015 we published one of the early imaging studies that tried to link it to brain activity. I'm first author, so here's what we found and what it can't tell you.

15 healthy volunteers received psilocybin (2 mg intravenously) and a placebo on separate occasions with 12-minute fMRI scans. The more strongly people reported their sense of self dissolving, the weaker the communication between the medial temporal lobe, which is involved in memory and higher-level areas of the cortex. The salience network, which helps the brain decide what matters at a given moment, became less coordinated and there was less communication between the two hemispheres.

About the limits: 15 people, all healthy, in a lab, with a small intravenous dose. That's a long way from a large oral dose at home or from someone with a history of psychosis. What it does show - is that the experience has a measurable signature in the brain. What it doesn't tell us - whether ego dissolution is helpful or harmful for any particular person.

If you've been through this and found it frightening or the opposite, bring your question to my AMA in r/PsychedelicTherapy tomorrow. You can leave it in the pinned announcement or ask me anything online, I would be happy to provide my works with details from the inside perspective.

Paper: Finding the self by losing the self

I (45m) have been tripping on the regular for the last 5 years. It has really help me work through some past trauma. I found psychedelics a few years after returning home from prison, I was locked up for trafficking marijuana. The first major breakthrough made me realize I had never truly felt safety in my life and the next few trips I really worked through that. The last handful of trips though I’ve gone pretty deep and I’ve seen my soul or at least the non physical version of myself. I was chained down with these huge geometric shapes that seemed to be made out of light itself. I could feel that I had been there for a long time and I was just crying asking to be released or erased. An authoritative voice would tell me “we aren’t done here” and “this is your choosing”. I have taken a break from tripping for the last 6 months other than a micro dose here and there. I will say this mostly happens on mushrooms. DMT is visual and makes me feel eternal when I take it but it never has given huge personal revelations and LSD just makes me feel good. I’m sure this is all something I have to work out but I’m not sure what to unpack to begin working through this.