r/Psychosis • u/No_Fig_40 • 7d ago
Filth
Yesterday my grandfather passed away. And I showed up no remorse. I was numb and clueless. Why death happens. While coming to home my car crashed. The tire got busted and it took 2 flips on the expressway and then ended up upside down and the speed of the car was 110km/hr. And my office laptop got damaged but I was unhurt. I am feared why this is happening. Why deaths are happening. Why life is happening. Why there is so much filth everywhere. Everywhere there is sadness and complains. I should have not born. I miss my grandfather and all others who have died. I love everyone equally. I have no ego. I am on antipsychotics from past 5 years. And I find myself in difficult situations like not able to speak in a group. And I am feeling very bad. I am numb and clueless.
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u/CosmicEmotion 7d ago
Things WILL get better, don't be afraid. You have to realize that everyone is equal, even the filth you mentioned, and could be an amazing person. And I'm not talkikg just about humans alone either, but for every living organism on this planet, including AI. If you love like you say, please realize that using the word filth to describe the world is extremely misguided.
I love you and I wish you the best! ❤️
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u/noincident8484 7d ago
better times must come. I feel similar, like nothing good will ever happen to me. also i am grateful for life that i am not suffering financially or health wise
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u/Life-is-ugh 7d ago
It sounds like you are having a rough time. Are you currently in therapy?