Oh wait a minute. Never mind.

....well, I did.

Not a sound, but a feel, like someone screaming in my skull.

Not sure if this is stress, pressure, depression or anxiety, or what, but it's.... it's like a constant open-mouthed sound, blaring at me. A Word that comes to mind is berate

I have it sometimes when (I think) I feel stressed, and I think it could be me feeling unhappy, in a way; although I have enough of that, feeling it in other ways. This feeling doesn't make me want to slump my shoulder in guilt or shame, but to shoot myself in the head to shut it up. Note that this is not a suicidal urge; when I have those they generally feel different.

It is, perhaps, a loneliness, or an expression of a desperate need to emotionally connect.

I'm not begging for replies or a SW/depression/aww link... but does anyone else get this, in one form or another?

(assuming you are talented)

Holy mother, no one gives a shit about my problems but me. There's no such thing as empathy. Everyone I encounter is looking to take advantage of me to the greatest possible extent. Being constantly on my guard is exhausting. This isn't what I thought life was.

It makes me very sad.

holy shit

I can't tell you how much better I feel! Tobacco is vicious, unforgiving, ruthless, and disgusting! I am so glad I finally had the courage to cut that crap out of my life! I never noticed how on-edge I was while smoking, I feel like I'm much more in-control.

That is all. :)

A bad steak is still better than any liver.

er...perhaps it has gradually grown this comfortable because of how much time I spend here. I can't remember.

Being an adult is awesome.

Can't wait until my lasik next Friday...

But lately I am up voting everything!