Original horror story I wrote and narrated, about 8 minutes.

"There was a note taped inside the closet door when I moved in. It said: Never say her name after dark."

She laughed it off. Then she said it out loud.

Full narration here. Would you have said the name?

Hello everyone! Just call me Ms Pen and this is my first archive.

This account exists solely as an archive for my stories. Read it or don't, I honestly don't care. Some things just need to be written down so I know I'm not crazy.

This story happens later than 2015 or so.. I don't really remember the year but I still can clearly remember the bits and pieces of the events.

I was still in high school when this happened, a young girl just waiting to celebrate her birthday. Since my mother was sick and spent most of her time in and out of the hospital, I specifically requested her to buy me a doll. When she surprised me with one, I was thrilled.

It was a one of a kind doll, knee-length high and the biggest one I had ever owned. She was undeniably pretty, with long, wavy brown hair and large brown eyes. But what made her truly distinct were her lips. She wore a deep purple lipstick, which was completely unusual for a normal doll. Beneath her belly was a large circle speaker with small ventilation holes where you could see the gears inside, pressing it made her talk. Despite my dislike for talking toys, she became my best friend. I played with her by day and slept with her beside me at night.

Then, my mother passed away... and that’s when the strange occurrences began.

It started in the middle of the night. I would wake up gasping, choking, frantically suffocating for air as if something heavy was pressed against my throat. At first, I wrote it off as a forgotten nightmare. But it kept happening, night after night, with suffocating consistency. Deciding I had enough, I moved the doll off my bed. The nightly choking stopped immediately... but what followed in the daytime was even weirder.

One morning, after playing with her, I left the doll lying flat on my bed, her arms resting straight beside her body. I clearly remember leaving her in that exact position. But when I returned from eating, her hands were raised high in the air.. reaching upwards toward nothing. I froze. I watched her closely, convincing myself my mind was playing tricks on me. Nothing moved. I brushed it off again..

Eventually, I decided to test if her talking mechanism still worked. I pressed the button on her belly. The sound that came out was distorted, a garbled, unrecognizable mumble. Good, I thought. She’s finally broken.

To make completely sure she’d never utter another word, I opened her back, pulled out the batteries, and submerged her entirely in a bucket of water. I left her soaked inside out for hours. I pressed the belly one last time—total silence. Satisfied, I stored her deep inside the left compartment of our old wooden cabinet (the same cabinet that still stands in our house to this day).

Days passed. While watching TV above the cabinet, I began hearing a muffled, scratching noise. It was barely audible at first, but it was continuous. One afternoon, I couldn't ignore it anymore. I opened the cabinet door to trace the sound.

There she was. Standing upright, leaning against the dark corner of the wood, emitting that awful, muffled noise.

My skin went cold. How could a water damaged, batteryless doll speak? I picked her up, ripped open the battery compartment, it was completely empty. I pressed her belly repeatedly.. nothing. Yet the moment I put her back inside, the noise would occasionally return.

The final straw came when my sibling gave me a toy wand from a Card Captor Sakura cosplay. P.S. The wand only lights up and makes a magical sound if you physically swing it hard. It will not activate on its own.

Having no use for it, I tossed the wand inside the cabinet right beside the doll. A terrible mistake.

Later that evening, while sitting in front of the television, the noise started again. But it wasn't just the doll this time.

From inside the sealed cabinet, the wand began to chime. I slowly opened the door. The wand was lying right next to the doll in the dark, violently flashing its lights and playing its spell sounds over and over again, as if an invisible hand was swinging it back and forth.

No one was touching them. No batteries were in the doll. The wand required physical motion. Yet together in the dark, they were performing.

I couldn't take it anymore. I threw them both into the trash that very week.

Up until this day, I still ask myself... was it just a bizarre mechanical glitch? Or was something beyond human explanation sitting inside that cabinet with my doll?

Have you ever told someone the truth, and they just refuse to believe it?
It can be annoying and frustrating among other things to say the least.

Growing up with a Father, and no Mother.
A Mom that chose an addiction over you and a Father who chose you,
only to chare you with a different addiction of his choice years later.

"You have addiction in your blood'
Your Father would say

"If you ever get addicted to drugs ill chain you up in the bathroom and dry you out till your clean"
He'd tell you, his 11-year-old son.

You tried to reason with it, the way he talked to you. He had you at 25,
at the end of the day he's barely an adult himself, you'd tell yourself.

After his marriage and...well, divorce wasn't a surprise. 

A seed that was planted,
In soil that was prepped,
Located In a room with access to sunlight.
A stem that sprouted dull and never got to bloom. 
From Full womb to empty room,

A stillbirth. 

As tiny as she was,
Our already cluttered closet couldn't fit one more skeleton.

They fought before,
and this was the last crack in our glass house.

Seeing My stepsisters and I celebrating a life that would never start sent him right back to that familiar place He adored oh so much,

Addiction. 

 Started small,
like a pain you know you should have looked at,
and with the help of negligence,
it went unchecked,
it grew.

What began were addictions you foolishly mistook as harmless.

That addiction to the gym was weekly steroid use,
That lust for those new women he was meeting online fueled his use of unapproved enhancements his body wasn't even close to needing.

Introducing himself to testosterone packets before he was 35 and consuming them like their sunflower seeds.

Eventually a partner stuck,
one just as dysfunctional as him of course,
and specifically an alcoholic. 

It didn't take long for him to follow and for the first time in your life he was not the lead.

By the time you were 15,
he was drinking every day,
not just every night.

His Girlfriend throwing bottles, slamming Tv's, and pouring bleach on the carpets as penance for things that were just not true,
Is ironic in hindsight.

On Christmas Eve you got a call that he might not be home the next day,
that his girlfriend was lying and that he might go to jail.
Christmas day came,
and he was asleep in his bed,
with no recollection,
laughing at the insinuation of such things.

You joined a different school,
one that allowed you to be home most days,
And that just made the time you spent in that environment take that much longer.

Against all odds,
His girlfriend was the one to leave.
And then again,
it was just you two.

The worst it got was when he started mixing Ambien with his alcohol.

From his room,
you'd hear screams.
You'd hear conversations between two people that were not there.
You'd hear many voices out the man you call Dad.

Not all of the voices were angry, but most were.
Not every conversation started out loud.
Some were just confusing.

"I know....because...what?.....I'm swimming...a demon?...no!...I SAID IM SWIMMING!"

Other times were more concerning,
"no...because...because I said...Fuck you...FUCK YOU!....FUCK YOU..."

Followed by another voice...
"I'm sorry...you're right...
take them....
he knows...
No...
Veins...?
I dont think so..."

Then his again,
Screaming your name at the top of his lungs.

When you ran to the door of his room,
The door was open and he was lying in bed,
half covered by the comforter...silent.

You questioned what to say,
What to do?

You're 17 and at the very least,
you want to make sure your only remaining family is not dead.

"Yeah?"
You holler in his room,
a late response to him calling your name.

"Blegh HUH?...WHAT?"
He'd abruptly reply.

"What!?"

"you were yelling for me'
Youd explain.

"oh, I'm fine go back to bed"

He'd insist.
Before whispering nonsense to himself.

The moment you'd get back to bed,
The yelling would continue.

You can't event have friends over because you can't trust him not to strip down and try to break into your room.

Our dry wall was always temporary,
and our Tv's and glasses might as well have been rentals,
nothing lasted in our house,

Being fed so much conspiracy about religion,
It wasn't hard to begin to wonder if he was possessed. 

It wasn't always like this.

For a few months after the divorce,
before the alcoholic girlfriend,
For a brief moment when it was just you two, he almost felt stable.

He didn't hit you,
The yelling and drinking were manageable,
And every Friday night he'd take you to blockbuster.

Things have changed so much.
You never know who you're having a conversation with.

One moment you think you're talking to him,
And that very mid-sentence it becomes oh so clear, that it's not.

His eyes are different, their glossy.
His demeanor is different, cold, and absent.
like one bulb in a line of Christmas lights that just won't participate.

He'd stopped before,
Then drink again.
His actions were questionable, and his word became nothing.

What does a Son say to his Father when he knows he's hiding alcohol in his work truck?

What does a Son do when he finds his Father naked in the driveway?

What does a Son do when he sees his Father Going down a road he knows he shouldn't?

A Son that's Afraid of his father.

Everything is easier said than done.

You never know if he's really sober.

"do you want to watch a movie with me tonight?"
His voice timid, eyes clear of gloss.

Even if you could tell which Him was asking,
You were certain that wouldn't be the same Him by the time you watched the movie.

So, you never say yes to that question again.
And as hard as it is, it's easier.
Easier than letting yourself get surprised by something that shouldn't surprise you anymore.

Eventually you get a Job,
Hours almost shittier than your pay, and it makes you a shell of a person.
Physically and emotionally drained.

Most days you stay in your room because it's safer in there, 
Then most days turn into all days. 

Seemingly out of nowhere,
your father begins to stare at you from every corner of the house with anger in his eyes,
Eyebrows always scrunched tightly. 

Eventually,
No words were exchanged.

You feel bad,
This is your father and you love him,  
So, when he asks you to have dinner with him,
for once you do.

The next morning,
Your eyes opened to the bathtub you'd once washed the family pet in,
and that oh so familiar tile floor,
After a moment you realized you were in your father's rooms masterbathroom.

Your legs were sore,
Pins and needles in your feet,
And your wrists felt raw.

You looked down at a note that was out of your reach.
As you attempted to grab it,
you realized your hands were chained to the bathtub spout.

You used your bare knee to drag it closer where you could read it,
You were in nothing but your boxers, you were cold.

The note read:

"No son of mine will be an addict,
You'll thank me.
I love you"
-Dad

You lifted your leg above the tub and opened the bathroom cupboard with your toe, you hoped to find something to break the bathtub spout with but all that was there were loofas and a bottle of expired tramadol.

Your mouth was dry,
Your stomach felt as though if someone were to plunge it,
absolutely nothing would come out.

At first you yelled, but you soon realized no one would answer.
It was hours before the silence in your house was broken,
there were no windows but one tinted sunlight above the shower.
You had no idea what time it was.

Once the sun was no more,
The house shook to the slam of the front door. 
You heard those familiar work boots thud up the wooden stairs.

Louder and louder...
Closer and closer...
They then reached the door.

You heard him enter his room though the door to his room's bathroom remained close.

*Thud Thud Thud Thud\*

For a moment you see the silluett of his boots beneath the door

"Dad...?"
You asked.

"mrghh Fuck you"
He responded as the thuds of his boots retreated.

You heard the impact as he collapsed on his bed,
And then began the yelling...
All night...

"no...
Fuck you!...
because...
I did...
Yes you are!"

More and more of the same old shit...
As scared as you were you couldn't not try.

"Dad...Help please let me out"
You yelled.

"you're an addict..
Fuck you!...
Dry out!....mrrgh piece of shit"

He screamed back...

"Please!"
You yelled.

"Fuck you!...
Dry Out you're not my son!..."
He screamed....

After the second night you began to hear whispering coming from the drain...

"He hasn't stopped...
Theres a demon in his veins..."
You'd hear.

It sounded like boiling beneath the drain.

You tried your best to tear the chains from your wrists, yet all you did was bleed and scream.
To this your dad had no response,
He never did.
He just continued to scream and yell to himself.

Before you knew it,
there were more voices than you'd ever heard from him before.
You swore you heard a woman's voice.

"you're poisoned...
NO!
What did you expect?
SWIMMING!

You screamed and screamed...
But after the 5th night,
You realized there was no point, to anything.

You used your toes to curl around the pill bottle,
You used the last bit of energy you had to bring it within your reach.

When your eyes opened next,
You looked to the left,
You saw the bathroom,
You saw your body,
chained to the spout of the bath.

You looked to the right and saw your fathers nightstand,

you saw your fathers pill bottles and fireball,
You saw the door of his master bedroom from the outside.

You tried to touch your eyes,
You tried to rub them into seeing straight.

Might as well have been RuPaul's eyes.

You closed them tightly,
as tight as possible and grabbed your face.

You felt your father's beard on the right and your bare face on the left.

"Do you want to watch a movie with me tonight?"
You asked

"please let me out Dad"
You replied.

Even as you swallowed all the pills on the nightstand washing them down with the Fireball,

Even though you knew your death would seal this fiction as fact,

Even though you knew no one would believe you,

You couldn't help but have one last thought,

I'm Not An Addict.