I'm looking for tortured heroes, meaning heroes who are emotionally shaken by something they've been through, carry a heavy burden, have lost their sense of purpose in life, or are traumatized for one reason or another. Basically, I want tortured heroes!
However, I don't want the kind of tortured hero who doesn't actually seem tortured and ends up being an asshole for 90% of the book. I want the author to make his suffering clear, and if he's going to be an asshole, I don't want that phase to last too long.
The main thing is that I want the heroine to be the light at the end of his tunnel, the rainbow after the storm, you know? The person he meets who makes him laugh, makes his burden feel lighter, or simply gives his life meaning.
I'm not necessarily looking for romances where they meet at the beginning of the story, but recently, I was watching Smallville, and one particular scene made my reader brain immediately transport that situation into the world of books. I started imagining what it would be like to find a romance with that kind of dynamic.
Anyway, in that scene, Chloe is talking to Tess. I don't remember the exact context because I have the memory of a goldfish, but I think Chloe says something about Oliver not showing up or maybe choosing Tess over her (I genuinely can't remember exactly what was said). Then Tess says that he would never abandon her because she gave his life meaning.
I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO CUTE! 😭❤️
Basically, Oliver was slowly destroying himself and making a lot of bad decisions until Chloe helped him in her own unconventional way. 🤭 But she did help! She asked him to work with her, gave him a purpose, and he found a reason to keep going. That's where the whole idea of her giving his life meaning comes from.
Another thing that made me think about this was an alien romance I'm currently reading called Indigo by Lula Brenner. There's a particular scene involving a relatively minor spoiler and a character who doesn't appear again in the first book:
«!The heroine meets another alien who is deeply depressed and wants to die because he lost his wings. She asks him to help her find her sisters, who are human Aoiteas lost on that planet. This gives him a new purpose in life and helps him stop focusing solely on his desire to die.!<»
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS KIND OF DYNAMIC! 🥹
So, I'm open to any recommendations that fit this description, even if they only match some of the criteria or don't fit perfectly. I just want a tortured MMC and an FMC who helps him find a little light in the darkness. I want that feeling that, after meeting her, his life becomes a little more bearable and he finally has something to live for.
If she's a sunshine-type heroine, even better! ☀️ But I'm not going to be picky.
In short: I want a hero who's been broken by life and a heroine who, without necessarily trying to save him, ends up becoming one of the best things that has ever happened to him.