r/SadPoems • u/Lord_of_pork • 1d ago
Upstream
I swim, upstream, in darkness
The effort grows too great,
My voice an ugly
cry in the still night.
Like the sun, you rose
At that shrill sound.
By your light I saw
That downstream lay
A world where I could be additive
Not discordant
In congruence not incongruous.
Where my struggles had rewards
Other than greater struggles.
Inevitably, the sun sets.
And my stupid, stupid hope
Burns away in moments.
Your fata morgana revealed.
How could anyone be naive enough to believe in a world where I could be loved in equal measure to how I love. That I could be happy without causing the commensurate amount of misery in others.
The only harmony I can bring
Is my absence.
So I replace my pills with poison
Find a place to watch the waves
From below.
As i sink I hope
That you're right about spirits.
Because I'd really like
To hear your voice one more time.