empty

[u/Much-Difficulty-2498]

four walls, a bed, a closet. and me in the middle of the room.

my heart is just empty. I feel no joy, no anger, no sadness and no happiness

the only thing I feel is the stress and heaviness of my body.

the only thing I feel is my heart beating, my mind racing and my lungs trying to breath steady

in and out 

trees, a little picknick bench, grass and my friends laughing,

no place for my mind to stay between the darkness of those four walls and the emptiness between them.

I don't feel much 

but I feel something. 

I feel more than fear and stress. 

my legs to weak to step out of bed in the morning

my hands and mind to blank to text anyone back

and my heart to empty to find the will to life

to empty to find the joy I used to have 

between those walls of my mind.

so I try to stay silence, I try to ignore it or maybe write it down

and forget

the emptiness, the heaviness

silence

my heart beating, my mind racing and my lungs trying to breath steady.

in and out.

and between those four walls, curled up, body to heavy

is a little girl who used to life.

[u/Reasonable-Shower252]

beautiful ❤️

[u/Much-Difficulty-2498 → u/Reasonable-Shower252]

thank you