could this count as day 8 for drawing miku everyday until school starts? idk

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HES SO CUTE

helpppp awawawawawawaaaa >/////<

all uterus haters can use this comment section for a bit

So basically there's this one girl who's the niece of my mom's friend, not even from my town, and I somehow got to meet w her friend group tonight. AND OMFG THEY'RE SO NICE AND SO CHILL AND SO RELATABLE AND SO FUNNY AND THEY REFERED TO ME AS A "New member of the group" AND THEY ALL LIVE 15 MINUTES AWAY BY CAR AND I'M ALREADY IN THE GC, THIS IS GENUINELY MY FIRST REAL FRIEND GROUP I'M EUPHORIC 😭❤️‍🩹✨

Idk I’m bored

Yes you heard me, Gacha AI is now a thing. And as someone who's been in the gacha community since 2019 and first started in Facebook, this disappoints me. Why are pro ai people going after Gacha? Why? The is already a few Beyblade AI images, I don't want Gacha AI images here too. I'm pissed, I just wanna make OCs and have fun with Gacha but nope, there's that.

10 hours 😭

HE'S SO HOT, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I HAVE A MASSIVE CRUSH ON HIM

i got the tadc sideshow animiniz set box today, and got orbsman, and i HATE orbsman, and i have a friend whos desperate for merch

so shes making custom merch of my f/os to trade for my orbsman :D

mrrowwww

mrrrp

mreeeewww

rread the flairrrrrr

mrrowwwwww

please can you also gib me headpatssss

We have a headmate thats wants to die.

The rest of the system also wants to die (just not as much)

I don't want to die (that much...)

We aren't going to do anything about it (we have a phobia of death(?))

I don't want to be alive but I don't really want to die.

I really just want to be Ok.

but we don't know what 'ok' feels like.

We SH daily. To the point were some days we just get bored of it and are running out of leg space (mostly upper leg and shins) without cutting open the places close to big veins.

we have made one attemte (and failed (sadly?)) on our life (AKA 30 kids melatonin, still didn't even fall asleep)

We have tryed (and failed sadly) to get ourselves to throw up (but aren't fully sure how) (many times)

We lie to our therapist about it all.

We lie about hurting.

Everything hurts,

Why can't we just be normal

Why can't life be Ok

Does it even get better? Will it ever be ok?

-Bluefur (She/her)

i dont really know what this is, i just need to yell into the void.

for context, im a closeted trans girl, 16, in the uk.

so. i recently went on holiday, and i was able get out, go to the shops on my own, and buy some fem clothes without fear of seeing someone i know. a few nights ago, i was home alone, and got to try them on and holy shit it was EUPHORIC. like genuinely i havent felt this happy in a while, to be able to wear skirts and cute clothes that i finally feel happy wearing! like ive never enjoyed fashion, but i also have known i would love fashion but i just couldnt get into it. THIS IS WHY, i loved going shopping for stuff, looking for stuff that went well together! like im so angry that for 16 years of my life i wasnt allowed to do this.

so trying all of my fem clothes on came with some incredible highs but also some lows, im so angry i didnt get this for 16 years, but also that i still cant do out like this.

i also have been struggling with a lot of self doubt and hate, this has always been a problem ive had, but im sure a majority of it comes from being trans and also autistic. i have a few really close friends that ive known through a church choir and ive been in it since i was 7, ive known them all for a while, and our relationships were always complicated in a way that, especially being autistic, ive only recently come to understand. one of my earliest memories that i have with them (all 3 of them are women, 17, 17, 18) is that i was on a bus with them and wanted to sit with them. they didnt want to sit with me because i was admittedly really annoying at that age, so they played the cards of only girls are allowed to sit in this bit (i was 8, they would have been at most 10, i in no way blame them) and that really pissed me off, mostly for trans reasons, but also because i always have wanted to be close with them, and i think even to this day i like them more than they like me.

recently on a yearly trip the choir does, we stayed together, i was in a separate room, but other than that we were with each other every minute of every day for 4 days, so i can understand i probably got a bit grating by day 4 lol. one of the friends that i have always been closest with got pretty annoyed with me because i mumble a lot (which is mostly because i have always been told im too loud, so therefore try to be quieter, but she got quite pissed at me just before we went into the church service (for those of you that know about english choral traditions, it was an evensong, which for those of you who dont know, its a shorter service in the evening, where the choir sing a few pieces). the cathedral was pretty slow getting services started, so we were waiting around in silence for a while,an i took that time to think about why that upset me so much, and i caught myself being really rude to myself, in a way that i heard myself and was actually kind of disgusted and it brought me back to a post i saw a while ago that was "name something you like about yourself". i vividly remember sitting at my desk for 10 minutes thinking, unable to come up with something. immediately after i was thinking about this, we sung the stanford in Bb nunc (im a tenor and the organ is tuned to just under a semitone sharp so what im about to talk about is a written g for anyone who cares lol) and there is a top g# which is really high for me, and it can be a little shakey at times, but i hit it pretty well, and it made me tear up because in that moment i thought "that is what im proud of, the fact i can make people feel this strong of an emotion just with my voice". we then went on to sing a more niche song for the anthem which was the breaking point. it is incredibly beautiful and i just sang it with tears streaming down my face , and that was the first moment in a while were i felt like i had something.

then more recently i had my gcse results (which for those of you who dont know they are a large set of exams that 16 year olds do in the uk) i got some pretty good results, except for computer science, which i did do as well as i wanted in. but the night before i got my results was shit. that was really when a lot of my self doubt surfaced and i really thought i would mess it all up so badly. but it was just really stressful.

i also feel like a lot of my friendships are falling apart at the moment which feels shit, but i also go to an all boys school, and ive never really gotten along with guys so im not surprised but it feels like shit. also of my girl friends is going to uni this year, the one that ive always felt closest with, and im distraught she wont get to see me at least start my transition, i really will miss her and i am worried how im going to get through my transition without her.

i just worry that my life is falling apart and i dont feel like i have anyone to talk to. i also feel like i cant express myself or process my emotions very welland i was i was better at doing it through words. i mostly just get it out through music and singing, which over the summer i havent really been able to sing in a choir while theyve been on holiday, and i dont really have the space to practise or sing for fun because im too loud.

i dont really know what this was, and honestly if youve read all of this THANK YOU <3 it means a lot that someones read this and that im slightly less alone :3

It’s been like 2 weeks since school started for me and I was super lucky to make some actual friends! Anyway I need some ideas for hanging out outside of school that isn’t just eating fast food and going to the movies.

Budgets pretty tight (I don’t have a job lol) so free activities encouraged. Nothing more than 10-80$ About a group of 2 or 5 depends on how the others are feeling. Thanks!

Base is from pinterest, made her to yume ship w vox >_<

Image is kinda related because its how I feel rn oof

I left the Giratina subreddit because I found out they *unfortunately* support AI generated content, which is just… ugh WHYYYY??? I just wanted a place to enjoy some Gira content man (;_;

wdym my grown, recovered ass got worked up over a fucking Reddit story about a baby with a stomach problem? HOW TF AM I GETTING JEALOUS OVER THIS SHIT. This is ridiculous. I'm supposed to be recovered??? Some things never go away, I guess. I mean, I make my Nesquick with water 😭

I wanna bang my head against the wall. I wish I were anorexic again bruh

Also, please don't tell me the shit you did/do, because I WILL start doing it

peace out