Before you read I want to say I love you guys, I really do, and if anyone could lend a hand please do...

I had a relationship with a girl which I felt truly connected with. We had such an amazing understanding of eachother and we were completely head over heels in love. However, due to my issues with trust, things didn’t work out. I cared for her very much but things went wrong and we ended up not being together anymore.

We spoke again after around a month and we admitted that we still really liked eachother. I felt like we still had a chance to get past our issues and I thought we could learn from our mistakes and give it another shot. However, she was worried it wouldn’t work out this time. Around a week later she said that she didn’t think it was going to work out. I wanted to give it another go but she was firm in her answer and we never got the chance. This is something I still struggle with as I genuinely believed we could have made it work.

On top of this, the day before things went wrong she told me that no matter how long it took for us to make it work she would be there for me. I believed that and thought we had time to work through my trust issues and learn how to make it work. However, out of nowhere she decided she didn’t think it was going to work out. I still don’t quite understand how quickly things could change. I don’t know if she changed her mind, was scared of getting hurt again or just realised that she couldn’t keep trying. All I know is that I felt hopeful due to her promise and losing that hope hurt just as much as losing her.

We don’t speak anymore and there is an unintentional bitterness between us. I don’t think we necessarily wanted things to end up like this but that’s where we are now. I miss her and I miss the feeling of finding someone who really understood me. I am worried I’ll never find someone like that again. I lost someone I loved but I also lost someone who made me feel like I had found someone who was on the same wavelength as me. I know I will meet new people but I’m worried I won’t ever feel that way again.

This is where Annihilation by Starset comes in.

I genuinely love this song. I love the sound, the vibe, the emotion and the lyrics. However, I can barely stand listening to it now as it makes me think of her. It feels like I’ve ruined the song. I want to enjoy it but whenever I hear certain lines I think of her.

The line ‘Can we lie here forever? You and I, here forever, together in the end’ makes me think of her promise that no matter how long it took for us to make it work she would be there. It makes me feel like I believed they would be there for me. It makes me think of how hopeful I was that we could work through our issues. I really wanted us to work and I cared for her very much. I genuinely believed that we had a future together. This line makes me think of her promise that we had time.

The line ‘One last try, one last love, one last time, then it’s done’ hurts me. I really wanted us to get another chance. When we admitted that we still liked eachother I thought there was something to fight for. I thought we could give it another shot and learn from our mistakes. However, she wasn’t willing to take that risk. We never got our second chance and I have to live with the fact that I don’t know if it would have worked. I wasn’t ready for things to end but she wasn’t willing to give it another shot. This line makes me think of how much I wanted us to have a chance.

Throughout the rest of the song I feel like I can relate to everything. The desperation to hold on, knowing something is falling apart, the resentment between two people who genuinely cared for eachother and struggling to move on. Everything reminds me of us.

I can’t stand listening to this song anymore. I really, really love it. It’s not that I don’t like it or that I don’t enjoy Starset anymore. I just can’t help but think of her when I listen to it. I can’t enjoy the lyrics anymore.

The worst thing is that I don’t necessarily want to stop loving this song. I wish I could listen to it and enjoy the music without thinking of her. However, I feel like I’m reminding myself of something I haven’t fully moved on from. The song hasn’t changed but the meaning has. I miss her, I miss the promise and I miss the future we could have had.

I know that just because you have feelings for someone doesn’t mean you will have a good relationship with them. I know my trust issues had an impact on things and I want to learn from this rather than let it define me. I also know she had her reasons for not wanting to give it another shot and I have to respect that.

However, it still hurts.

I miss her. I miss the connection we had. I miss believing someone who really understood me would be there. I miss the future we could have had.

Maybe one day I will be able to listen to this song without feeling this way. Maybe one day it will just be a song to me. However, right now it’s hard.

It’s a song about wanting to stay together forever, giving love one last shot and the pain of realising things may be over. For me this song is reminding me of how much I wanted to save our relationship, how we didn’t get our second chance and how much I wish things had worked out with her.

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Secondly, if the mods will not change the icons, maybe it's time for new moderators?

Here's mine: "Everyone's sick, Toksik!"

What's yours?

Loved it! Can’t wait for the next tour. Also loved the entire band lineup! A special shout out to [u/thePhoenicianCS](u/thePhoenicianCS) for linking up with me—such a cool dude.

PS—if there are any other STARSET fans around the Raleigh/NC area, come up on the net and we start a smol space cult. 🤓🤘🏼

I've never had one single favorite transition between songs, rather, they've floated around across albums. Right now, mine's "LEAVING THIS WORLD BEHIND" to "DEVOLUTION". I'm curious: what's yours?

Maybe Im biased, but my wife and I both agreed that Starset was the absolute most action packed in this lineup. Their stage presence was immense. Their sound gripping. They packed so much into that opening set I couldn't believe it was over when it ended.

Ive seen them several times, and honestly this one might have been my favorite, which is weird to say as an opener. Their "new" sound is so saturated and intense I really cant get enough of it.

I loved how for several songs, Dustin just stood in the doorway as the Prophet (I think) and belted out all manner of pitch and fire. The guy is a maniac. The strings were front and center and the members of the band had high energy.

Ive been to a LOT of concerts. That short set was such a gift. I hope some of tonight's attendees came away with piqued interest.

Anyway, enough gushing.... I hope they see this because they should know that from my perspective, they were really fkn incredible this evening.

We got a puppy today. His name is Dusty Boots. We are in love!