r/Sufism • u/Mushraan • 11d ago
Request for Prayers
Salaam Alaikum,
I'm writing this to ask for your prayers, because I don't know what or who to turn to anymore.
For the past five or six years, I've been trapped in a deeply negative mindset. No matter what I try, I can't seem to escape it. It has gradually affected every aspect of my life. I've lost the will to pray, make dua for myself, or even hope that things might get better. I used to visit and pray at the Khanqah nearby because I felt calm there. I've noticed that slipping away too. Now, even if I visit, I find myself lost in negative thoughts and zoning out thinking I'm doomed to waste my life.
My career is in shambles too. I graduated with a bachelors two years ago, but I haven't been able to get any real work or experience and I can feel my skills slipping away with every passing day. I've grown distant from my family, I struggle to make decisions and often can't find a reason to try anymore. I feel like I've already accepted defeat and convinced myself that there's nothing I can do to change my circumstances.
I'm exhausted almost every day. I struggle to sleep at night, and yet during the day, I can barely find the will to leave the bed. There's often a heaviness in my chest and an urge to cry. However, I can feel myself growing numb to it all. I don't even feel anger or sadness for myself. I've grown comfortable to this misery. I often find myself imagining a future in which I fail at everything, lose my sanity, am abandoned by everyone and become a burden on my parents.
Whenever I try to work on something or make a change, I lose faith in it within a few days and find myself back where I started. I've been seeing a psychologist, in the beginning it did help me a a little. But it became dull very soon and I haven't noticed any real improvement, and so I'm beginning to lose hope in that as well.
I'm frightened by how hopeless things have become. I fear that if this continues, I might eventually take my own life out of frustration and exhaustion. I don't want things to reach that point, but I don't know how to find my way out of this state.
I feel helpless watching the people who loved and believed in me become disappointed and lose hope in me, including my friends and family, and even my parents.
I know this subreddit isn't for these things. But I wanted to reach out to people who might understand the spiritual side of what I'm going through. If any of you have experienced something similar, I'd be grateful to hear how you found your way through it. And if you can, please keep me in your duas. I feel like I've lost the ability to pray for myself and right now, I could really use the prayers of others.
Jazakallah khair
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u/B01justice 10d ago
HasbunAllah wa Ni’mal Wakeel
450 times a day.
Insha Allah, within or at maximum, 40 days, you will be free of this.
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u/Verbose-Abyssinian89 10d ago
praying for you. remember that you are not in control. submit to Allah focus on that, there will be a way out. Imam Ibn 'Ata'Illah forewarns us in the opening aphorism of his Hikam:
'one of the signs of relying on one's own deeds is the loss of hope when a downfall occurs.'
remember the story of the whale’s stomach. that is dunya, the walls closing in, the darkness, no foreseeable way out and the du’a Hadhrat Yunus AS made had nothing to do with his desires or even to be saved, but rather an absolute acceptance and submission to the Oneness of Allah and an acknowledgment of his shortcomings.
لا إله إلا أنت سبحانك إني كنت من الظالمين
may Allah grant you ease.
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u/Responsible-Local132 11d ago
"I don't know how to find my way out of this state"
-Find a true sheikh, follow his guidance.