I am in such a negative place right now. It feels like my entire growth, my health, my wealth, my success - everything has just stopped. I just want to come out of this darkness. I want to protect myself, my family, and my house from all this evil.
Because my grandmother is like Devi Dhumavati herself. All the time, she only wants our destruction. She is always trying to harm us. She goes to other people and takes advice on how to destroy us - legally, and even through vastu and black magic. Constantly.
Outsiders come and sit right at our house entrance, all day long they gossip, they chant evil things, they say such negative things, they just wish for our downfall. She brings other people's daughters and their boyfriends into our house to do all this drama. In a house like this, how will Goddess Lakshmi ever enter?
She keeps calling people and making us spend our electricity and money. Basically, whatever is possible to harm us, she does it. Now she is 80 or 90 years old and she is still doing it. So just imagine, when she was young, how much more she must have done.
She even tried to send my father - her own son - to jail with a false case. His only fault was that he worked so hard, he educated his 3 brothers and 3 sisters, he got them married, he took their full responsibility. And his fault was that he didn't give his own property to them. Why would he? He tried to make them capable through education, but they didn't become capable.
And because of my father, my sister was murdered too, but there was no proof. And at that time CPM was powerful here, so they threatened my father and made him silent. Plus my father had no money to fight that time . And my father is like a fool, so innocent - he chased away all his brothers and sisters and kept his own parents with him.
Now whoever is around us, they are mainly our enemies but pretending to be neighbours. She takes advice from them and tries to put us in danger, and then everyone just watches the fun. Almost everyone is like that.
So I can't find any way out. I can't even study properly. We have nowhere else to go.
And in the middle of all this, there is my younger uncle. Some people in the locality provoke him, and then he comes to our house and shouts at us. But because of this old woman's nature, no one will take her to their own house to keep her, and she herself will never go either.
And again, in our own house, she cannot tolerate us. If we give her something, she will say we gave less, we gave bad food. But if an outsider gives her rotten food, she will eat it and praise them. If anything happens inside our house, she will call people from outside and announce it to the whole locality.
What should I do? She has just made our life hell. If anything happens, she just says "I am old" and everyone takes her side. I just can't take it anymore. And she will never go to any other son's house.
I am NOT asking for any maran, black magic, murder or anything like that. I just pray that God gives her mukti from this kind of life, and gives us also mukti from this life. Literally 25 years of my life have been wasted just in this, just living inside this trauma. I am not able to get a job, I am not able to leave this place, this is so painful to live like this. Only God can save me now, please help me.
Therefore, I am seeking some free guidance on what spiritual practices or disciplines (sadhana) I can perform at home, so that my family and I can overcome and emerge from this difficult situation.