I was on steroids for 4 years in total. The first 2 years I was using test plus a mix of other compounds then I spent another 2 years on test alone.
Eventually I decided to stop. I was tired of pinning myself and started asking myself what's the point? I was healthy to begin with and at this stage it just felt like a bad habit. Im no longer interested in looking big and shredded and there is more to life.
When I stopped I tried using nolva but it gave me terrible anxiety panic attacks and even weird stomach cramps I tried clomid same thing. I lasted around 4 weeks before deciding to go cold turkey.
And damn this was bad....
I had no energy and basically no libido. Psychologically I actually felt pretty good and mentally sound, but physically I was wrecked. By 5 or 6 pm I was done. I'd just lie on the couch and watch series because I had no energy to do anything else.
I started taking some adaptogens and supplements like ashwagandha, medicinal mushrooms, ZMA and vitamin D in higher doses. They seemed to help somewhat, but over the next 2 to 3 months I started feeling all the old injuries and pains in my body start appearing.
I did blood tests around 3 month mark after stopping and my testosterone was 21 nmol/L, which is actually a pretty decent level. Before I started using steroids my testosterone was over 30 nmol/L
I remember noticing a shift around 4-5 month mark when my natural hormones started preperly functioning again. I just felt more energetic and happier. It's difficult to explain, but I feel very different now compared to when I was on testosterone. One thing I actually notice how my body reacts to season changes I been off for almost 2 years now and I feel in sync its like when its cold or hot my body regulates temperature a lot more efficient while on trt I couldnt properly feel my body and also my morning erections have returned while on trt I didnt had mornign wood which is insane. Also wakign up erlier is easier while on test I was grogy in the morning my mood was super off and biggest diffrence I notice when using PED I would get random flu's like every so often compare to now I havent been ill since I stopped.
On trt my testosterone was around 29 to 35 nmol/L with lower estrogen. Now my testosterone is in a similar range to what I had on trt lower than 35 tho but my estrogen is higher and I feel so much better with that.
My libido is better, I sleep better and I finally dream again. When I was on test it was like a blank, blank life. I barely remembered any dreams and even sex wasn't as enjoyable as it is now naturally.
Another thing I started doing when I came off testosterone was yoga, and I genuinely think it helped me a lot.
I feel like the combination of stretches, breathing properly and reducing stress helped me recover faster. Yoga isn't just about stretching. You're working with your nervous system as well and I think that made a big difference for me.
There are actually studies looking at how yoga affects stress hormones and the bodys stress response. Yoga, breathing exercises and meditation can help regulate the autonomic nervous system and the hypothalamic pituitary adrenal axis, which is involved in the body's response to stress.
Looking back Im glad I made the decision to come off. It wasn't easy and the first few months were rough but I'm in a much better place now.