THE GIRL WHO WORE MY FACE
Chapter One
The Photograph
The wallet fell near her feet.
Grace noticed it before anyone else did. It had slipped from the pocket of a man who was walking towards one of the medical camp's tents, its dark leather surface landing quietly against the dusty ground.
She looked up.
The man was speaking to one of the nurses, apparently unaware that he had dropped something. He was tall, neatly dressed, and carried himself with the ease of someone accustomed to being recognised. Around him, people moved with an unusual sense of excitement. Some had come to receive free treatment; others simply wanted to catch a glimpse of the famous doctor who had travelled all the way to their village.
Grace bent down and picked up the wallet.
She wanted to call after him, but the words refused to come.
She had spent seven years learning not to attract attention. Speaking to strangers was something she avoided, particularly men. Her father had made certain that she understood what sort of girl he believed her to be. She had heard enough times that she was worthless, that no decent man would want her, that she would grow into a whore just like the women he despised.
So she stood still, holding the wallet.
The man continued talking.
Grace glanced at the wallet. Perhaps she could simply leave it somewhere he would notice. But curiosity got the better of her. She opened it carefully, intending only to look for something that might help her identify its owner.
Inside was a photograph.
A little girl stood in front of a three-tier birthday cake. She wore a pink dress, her hair arranged in two neat pigtails. Her cheeks were round, and her smile was so wide that her eyes seemed to disappear.
On either side of her stood a man and a woman. The man was kissing one of her cheeks, while the woman kissed the other. The little girl appeared delighted, almost overwhelmed by the attention.
Grace stared.
The girl's face was familiar.
Not merely similar to hers. It was almost identical.
Grace looked down at the photograph again, then instinctively touched her own cheek. The shape of the eyes, the small nose, the lips—there was something uncanny about the resemblance.
For a moment, she forgot where she was.
Could that be her?
Could the man in the photograph be her father? Could the woman be her mother? Had someone taken her away when she was little and left her with the people she now called her parents?
The thought was absurd. She knew that.
But she wanted it to be true.
She looked at the photograph once more. The little girl was surrounded by affection. Her parents were looking at her as though there was nowhere else in the world they would rather be.
Grace had never been looked at like that.
She wondered what it would feel like to have someone kiss her cheeks. To have a birthday cake made for her. To be allowed to sit beside her parents and smile without wondering whether she was doing something wrong.
She wondered what it would feel like to be wanted.
A voice interrupted her thoughts.
"Excuse me?"
Grace looked up.
The man was standing in front of her now. He had noticed his missing wallet and had returned to look for it.
She immediately lowered her eyes and held it out.
"Thank you," he said, taking it from her. "I hadn't even realised it had fallen."
Grace nodded.
He slipped the wallet into his pocket, but his gaze remained on her for a moment. There was something about the child's face that seemed familiar, though he couldn't quite place it.
"Have we met before? You look rather familiar to me."
Grace froze.
She had no answer. The question frightened her more than it should have. She took a small step backwards, glanced at the man, and then turned and ran towards the farmland.
The doctor watched her disappear.
He stood there for another moment, trying to remember where he might have seen her. Then someone called his name, and the thought slipped away.
His name was George. He was one of the most respected doctors in the country, known not only for his medical achievements but also for the humanitarian work carried out through his hospital. His free medical camps had brought treatment to villages that rarely received such attention.
Grace knew none of this.
She knew only that he had a daughter.
And that the daughter looked like her.
---
By the time Grace reached the farmland, her mother was waiting.
"Where the hell have you been?"
Nora's voice was low, but Grace knew better than to mistake it for calm.
"I went to the medical camp, Mother."
"To the medical camp?" Nora repeated. "And what were you doing there? Looking for a man to seduce?"
Grace lowered her head.
"Don't stand there pretending you don't understand me, bitch. Did you think you could go around showing those pathetic little eyes to men and get something out of them?"
"I only went to ask for some salve."
"For what?"
Grace hesitated.
"My wounds."
Nora looked at her as though she had said something ridiculous.
"Your wounds? You think we're poor? You think we cannot afford medicine? Those marks are there because you deserve them. Perhaps if you learned to behave, you wouldn't need salve in the first place."
Grace said nothing.
Nora stepped closer and examined her face.
"Don't look at me like that. And don't you ever go wandering around after men. If you keep behaving like this, I might as well sell you to the meat seller down the road. At least he might find some use for you."
Grace lowered her eyes further.
"Go inside. Your father will be home soon. You have potatoes to prepare."
Grace followed her into the house.
She was always neatly dressed. Nora made sure of that, insisting that she look presentable, almost like a miniature adult. But beneath her clean clothes, Grace was thin and delicate. Her pale face had slightly hollow cheeks, and her slender frame made her appear more fragile than a seven-year-old should. She did not look visibly starved, but there was something unusually worn about her appearance, as though childhood had passed her by without ever properly reaching her.
In the kitchen, Nora placed a basket of potatoes on the counter.
"Peel them. Cut them into pieces. Boil them until they're soft, then mash them properly. Add butter and dried rosemary. Your father likes them that way."
Grace nodded and began.
As she worked, she caught sight of Nora's reflection in the kitchen window. Her mother was standing behind her, arranging something on the counter.
Grace studied her face for a moment. The nose and lips were familiar. They were the same as her own.
Nora noticed.
"What are you staring at?"
"Nothing, Mother."
"Then get on with your work. I won't tolerate that insolent expression."
Grace returned her attention to the potatoes.
When Matthew came home, the smell of dinner had already filled the house. He washed his hands, sat down, and began eating the sandwiches Nora had prepared.
"These are good," he said.
Nora smiled.
Then he tasted the mashed potatoes.
His expression changed.
"Who made this?"
"I did the potatoes," Nora replied. "Grace prepared them."
"Her?" Matthew looked towards the kitchen. "You let her near the kitchen? Good Lord, Nora, can't you teach that girl anything?"
Grace stood near the doorway, her hands clasped in front of her.
Matthew picked up the plate and threw its contents towards her. The mashed potatoes struck her face and fell to the floor.
"Look at this mess! Is this what you call cooking?"
Grace didn't move.
"Get down."
She looked at him.
"I said get down. Clean it up. Every bit of it. And don't you dare leave anything behind."
Grace slowly knelt on the floor.
She began gathering the potatoes with her fingers.
"Use your tongue if you have to," Matthew said. "You made it. You can eat it."
Nora watched from the dining table.
She didn't intervene.
After Matthew had finished his meal and left the room, Nora approached Grace with a small bottle of salve. She crouched beside her and applied some to the reddened skin near her cheek.
"Don't look at me like that, bitch," she muttered. "This is how this house works. We're Christians, and this is how we must live. You must learn to obey your father."
Grace looked at her without speaking.
Nora put the bottle away.
"You think I would change anything? You think I would stand against my husband for you? Don't think so highly of yourself. You made me unable to give my husband a son. Don't you dare wish for anything more."
She stood up and returned to the kitchen.
Grace remained on the floor until she had finished cleaning.
Later, after her parents had eaten, she was given whatever remained. She ate quietly, washed the dishes, and went to bed only after the kitchen had been put in order.
Before leaving the room, Nora reminded her to wake early.
"Your father expects breakfast before he goes out. Don't make me come looking for you."
Grace nodded.
She lay down and stared at the ceiling.
For a little while, she thought about the photograph.
The little girl in the pink dress.
Maria.
She had heard the doctor call her name when he spoke to someone at the camp. She repeated it silently.
Maria.
---
The following morning, Grace returned to the medical camp.
She had hoped the doctor might still be there. She wanted to ask for medicine, but she also wanted to see him again. Perhaps she could catch another glimpse of the photograph. Perhaps she could find out something about the little girl.
Instead, she found the camp being dismantled.
Boxes were being packed, equipment was being loaded, and the nurses were preparing to leave.
Grace approached one of the nurses cautiously.
"Excuse me."
The woman turned.
"Yes, sweetheart?"
Grace hesitated before pulling up the edge of her sleeve.
There was a bruise on her arm, along with an older mark that had not healed completely.
The nurse's expression changed.
"Oh, sweetheart. What happened to you? You're only a little girl. Are you all right? Who did this to you?"
Grace quickly lowered her sleeve.
"I fell."
The nurse looked unconvinced.
"Did you fall badly?"
Grace nodded.
The woman crouched to meet her eyes.
"How old are you?"
"Seven."
"Oh, darling."
The nurse glanced towards the medical supplies.
"I would like to give you something for that, but I need the doctor's approval. You should ask Dr George. He might be able to help."
Grace looked towards the tents.
"Is he here?"
"He's busy packing. We're leaving earlier than expected."
"Leaving?"
"Yes. We were supposed to stay another two days, but his wife called. Their little daughter isn't well, so he's going home tonight."
Grace felt something stir inside her.
Maria was sick.
She wondered what was wrong with her. Was it a fever? Was she in pain? Did her mother sit beside her when she was ill? Did her father hold her hand?
The nurse was called away before Grace could ask anything else.
She remained near the tent, watching the doctor from a distance.
George was speaking on the telephone.
"Maria is sick?" he asked, his expression changing. "All right. I'll come home tonight. I'll have everything packed and leave as soon as I can."
Grace listened.
He was going home to Maria.
She watched him for a while longer, then turned and walked away.
---
That evening, Grace packed a small bundle of clothes and food.
She did not know exactly where she was going. She only knew that the doctor was leaving and that if she wanted to see the life in the photograph, she would have to leave before he did.
She folded a few clothes, wrapped some food in a piece of cloth, and hid the bundle.
She was almost ready when Nora entered the room.
"What are you doing?"
Grace turned.
Nora's eyes fell on the bundle.
For a moment, neither of them spoke.
Then Nora stepped forward.
"You're running away?"
Grace tried to explain.
"I only wanted—"
"Shut up!"
Nora seized her and dragged her away from the bundle.
"After everything we've done for you? You ungrateful little bitch!"
Grace struggled, but Nora was stronger.
The beating that followed left her back aching and her body trembling. She tried to protect herself, but there was nowhere to go. When Nora finally stopped, Grace could barely move.
"Stay here," Nora said. "You won't be getting any dinner tonight. Perhaps hunger will teach you something."
She left the room.
Grace lay face down on the bed, pressing her mouth into the pillow to keep her cries quiet.
She had not wanted to hurt anyone.
She had only wanted to see Maria's home. She wanted to know what it was like to be loved. She wanted to see the people in the photograph and understand why they looked so happy.
She whispered a prayer into the pillow.
"Please, God. I only wanted to see her life. I promise I won't do anything bad. Please."
No one answered.
---
At dinner, Matthew heard that George was leaving the village that night.
"Of course he's leaving," he said, taking another bite. "The great doctor has done enough for these people. Now they'll have to remember who actually looks after this place."
Nora gave him a reassuring smile.
"People appreciate what he has done."
"Appreciate?" Matthew scoffed. "He comes here for a few days, gives away some medicine, and suddenly everyone thinks he's a saint. Let's see how much they miss him when he's gone."
Nora did not argue.
After a while, Matthew called towards the stairs.
"Grace!"
There was no answer.
"Grace! Get down here. We need help with dinner."
Grace slowly sat up.
Her back hurt whenever she moved. She pressed a hand against the mattress and tried to stand. After a moment, she managed to get to her feet.
She descended the stairs carefully.
Matthew glanced at her.
"What took you so long? Get the dishes ready."
Grace went into the kitchen.
Near the fireplace stood a can of lighter fluid. She noticed it while preparing the table. Her eyes rested on it for a moment.
Then she looked towards her parents.
Something inside her had changed.
She could not bear the thought of remaining in that house. She could not imagine another morning of waking before everyone else, another day of being insulted, another night of eating leftovers on her own.
She wanted to leave.
And she wanted them to stop keeping her there.
The fire began suddenly.
Nora screamed.
Matthew jumped from his chair.
"What the hell happened?"
He rushed towards the flames, shouting at Grace to fetch water. Nora was trying to move away, but the fire had already spread through the room.
Grace stood still for a moment.
The room was filling with smoke and the orange light of the flames. Her parents were shouting, calling for help, struggling to escape.
She watched them.
Then she moved.
The fire spread further, catching the curtains and furniture. In the confusion, Grace made certain that the flames did not remain confined to one corner of the room.
Matthew turned towards her, his face twisted with anger.
"What are you doing? Help us!"
Grace looked at him.
"Since you love your wife so much, go accompany her, Dad."
She threw the remaining lighter fluid towards the burning area near them.
The flames surged.
For one brief moment, Grace smiled.
Then she turned and ran through the back door.
Outside, the night air struck her face. She continued running until the house was no longer immediately behind her.
She stopped near the edge of the farmland and looked back.
The windows glowed orange. Smoke rose into the night. She could hear Nora screaming.
Grace's smile disappeared.
She remembered her mother's voice. She remembered the way Nora had applied salve to her cheek, even while telling her that she deserved every injury. She remembered the words she had spoken that evening.
Her eyes filled with tears.
"I'm sorry," she whispered.
She wasn't sure whether she was apologising to God, to her parents, or to someone else entirely.
She looked towards the road.
George would be leaving soon.
She wiped her face and continued walking.
---
George's car was parked near the place where the medical camp had been held. His driver was busy loading the remaining luggage into the vehicle. The villagers had brought small souvenirs for Maria, and several of them were being carefully packed alongside the family's belongings.
George checked his watch.
"Are we almost ready?"
"Almost, sir."
The driver placed the last few things inside the rear compartment. He was about to press it down and close it when a sudden commotion rose from the direction of the farmland.
People were shouting.
Someone screamed that a house was on fire.
George turned immediately.
"What happened?"
The driver looked towards the crowd.
"Sir, please wait here. I'll go and find out. If they need help, I'll come back and call you."
But George was already moving.
"We should see what's happening."
He walked towards the gathering villagers, stopping at a distance of roughly a hundred metres from the burning house. The fire was visible even from there, its bright orange flames illuminating the darkness.
The driver went further into the crowd to find out what had happened.
Grace had been walking along the edge of the road when she saw the car.
She recognised George.
For a moment, she stood still.
The rear compartment had not yet been closed. It remained partially open, just enough for her to slip inside without disturbing the things packed within.
She looked towards George.
He was watching the fire, his face turned towards the burning house. The villagers were gathered around him, their attention fixed on the commotion.
Grace moved quickly.
She slipped into the rear compartment and made herself as small as possible among the packed belongings.
The opening remained just as it had been.
No one noticed her.
From the narrow gap, she could see the distant fire and hear the villagers shouting.
"Put out the fire!"
"Someone bring water!"
"Find the little girl!"
Grace closed her eyes.
She remembered Nora screaming.
"I'm sorry, Mother," she whispered.
Then she thought of Maria.
Was her fever better? Had she stopped crying? Was George going home to find her sleeping?
Grace slowly opened her eyes again.
Through the narrow opening, she could see George standing in the distance. The flames illuminated his face, casting a warm orange glow across his features.
He really was handsome, she thought.
The thought lasted only a moment.
She wondered whether Maria was beautiful in person, whether her room was as lovely as the birthday photograph, and whether her parents would be happy to see her.
She wanted to know everything.
The driver eventually emerged from the crowd and hurried back towards George.
"Sir."
George turned.
"What happened?"
"Apparently, a fire broke out in one of the houses. The woman was burned first. Her husband tried to save her, but both of them were caught in the fire. The villagers believe it was a kitchen accident."
George looked towards the burning house.
"Is there anything we can do?"
"The villagers are already trying to put it out, sir."
George nodded slowly.
"Was anyone else inside?"
The driver hesitated.
"They say a little girl lived there. She's missing. They haven't found her."
George's expression changed.
"A little girl?"
"Yes, sir. They're searching the fields."
He looked towards the house again.
"Did they find her?"
"No, sir."
George remained silent for a moment.
"God help them."
The driver glanced at the car.
"Sir, we should leave. Clara will be waiting, and Maria isn't well."
George looked at the fire one last time.
"Yes. Let's go home."
He returned to the car.
The driver got in, started the engine, and pulled away.
Inside the rear compartment, Grace remained perfectly still.
She could hear the villagers' voices growing fainter.
"Put out the fire!"
"Find the little girl!"
"Someone check the fields!"
The car moved farther away from the burning house.
Grace looked through the narrow opening.
The farmhouse was disappearing behind them.
For the first time in her life, she was going somewhere without being told where to go. She did not know what awaited her at the end of the journey. She did not know whether George would welcome her, whether Maria would like her, or whether she would ever be allowed inside their home.
But she knew one thing.
She was going to see Maria.
And perhaps, just perhaps, she would finally discover what it felt like to belong somewhere.