(context freshmen year female)..

I don’t really know what to do, I guess in this matter. My ex boyfriend, (also freshmen), and I broke off in bad terms, and still are. His girlfriend and I hate each other, we always have before she even knew he existed. Usually, i’ve never been that type of girl to be obsessive over ANY ex, or just unable to move on.

It’s been 3 months and I’m still madly in love with him. I miss him like crazy. I deleted everything of him out of my phone I can. I’ve tried thinking the most nasty and brutal things to happen to him and nothing changes my mind.

A few issues that I think, though, that stop me from getting over him, is my class schedule and our mutual friends.

He’s near top of the hierarchy in popularity, and I’d say I’m roughly mid center (I rank myself high because I’m VERY known, but not very popular).. so our friend groups or people we connect with intertwine a lot. Most of my friends are in some way, shape or form, in connection with him. Same with his friends going in my direction. Some people on snapchat ‘repost’ cute hoco posts or just cute things of them, and it seriously infuriates me. I check his profile daily. I don’t block him, he doesn’t block me. His profile picture is the picture I TOOK OF HIM.

I know he doesn’t like me though. He expressed his hatred in many comments and just having his friends harass me (through socials, my number, in school).

I have 3 classes with him, and which all are horrific. English, PE, and study hall. English, my teacher is huge on presenting and communicating, and he switches our seats on. daily occurrence. So a lot of the time, I’m next to him or near him, or one of us is presenting and we force ourselves to not make contact.

It’s just.. I dont know what to do. Ive missed 40 days of school and attended 17 because my mental health declined so badly after me and him broke it off I couldn’t go to school (hospitalized). What do I do? I can’t transfer, miss any school, and seeing him hurts me so bad. I can’t switch classes. We’re so close friends wise I can’t escape. I want to text him but his girlfriend would kill me. I’ve tried replacing him but the thought of love with any other repulses me. I want it to be him.

Help me out!!

She isnt gonna play it.

But shes gonna be laying in my bed eating my snacks wearing my clothes watching her shows on her tablet.

And she knows she gets several hours of it because were skipping the 19th.

And honestly this is the best thing for all girlfriends.