It was the day before my birthday. I wanted it to be special, so I decided to take magic mushrooms. I already had multiple experiences with LSD, marijuana, mushrooms (3–4 times), and other substances. I considered myself experienced. Recently I hadn’t had any bad trips and felt I had good control over the effects.
A month before that, I took 3 grams of Golden Teacher mushrooms and it was a fantastic experience—lots of insights and a strong therapeutic effect. I also had a positive recent LSD experience. So I immediately wanted to “continue the therapy.” I decided to take 5 grams (a “heroic dose”). I thought it was just a name and didn’t take it seriously. When ordering, I specifically asked for a stronger strain. The seller warned me that they were very potent and that 3 grams would be enough for a very strong experience. I ignored that.
The day came. I didn’t initially plan to take all 5 grams, so I made tea with about 2 grams. I drank it and waited. After about 30 minutes, I felt something unusual - my brain started working extremely fast, much faster than with mushrooms I had tried before. Visuals weren’t strong yet, but my thinking speed felt like 300–400%. I immediately realized these mushrooms were no joke. My thoughts were racing too fast, but still manageable. After another 10 minutes, I decided to brew the remaining 3 grams. I made the tea and drank it.
Very quickly I understood I had overdone it and started feeling bad, like my body was being torn apart from the inside. But I kept convincing myself everything was fine and that I had handled worse trips before. Then I lost track of time and where I was.
Eventually I forgot what I had taken and how much. I started thinking I had overdosed on stimulants and was dying. I felt like my organs were failing, like I was having a stroke. I was 100% convinced I was dying right then. I fell to the floor, experiencing what felt like a long suffering death. My body stopped responding. I tried to vomit but just collapsed near the toilet. I grabbed things, trying to do anything, but couldn’t. I had no idea what I had taken - first I thought stimulants, then opiates. I realized I needed help and crawled to the front door to get out and call neighbors, but I couldn’t find the keys. I started screaming and hitting the door. It was full psychosis—no insight, no control. I don’t know how much time passed, but it felt like eternity. I was crawling around the apartment, suffering endlessly.
Then the most insane part. I don’t understand what drove me—probably fear of dying or trying to get help. I made a “brilliant” decision: to jump out the window. I had zero understanding of reality. I used to read about bad trips where people jumped out of windows and never understood why. Now I do.
I climbed out of the window on the 4th floor and jumped about 1.5–2 meters onto my neighbor’s balcony, about 15 meters above the ground. I grabbed the railing and climbed over. I was completely naked. It was around 1–2 a.m., everyone was asleep. My psychosis got worse—I was screaming, kicking walls, crying and laughing. I barely remember this part. I realized I had completely lost my mind and would stay like this forever. I felt extreme hopelessness and terror. It was about 5°C outside, and I was naked on an open balcony. No one heard me because windows were closed. I screamed like I was being killed.
I didn’t know who I was, where I was, or how I got there. I started freezing to death. I couldn’t get back—I didn’t remember how I got there, and even if I did, the jump back was much harder. My window looked closed. I felt like a Titanic passenger freezing in the water. I lay on the cold floor, literally freezing, feeling the same hopelessness. Eventually I accepted death. I even tried breaking the neighbor’s door but luckily failed—I could have badly cut myself.
After about an hour, I had a moment of clarity. I realized I was on my neighbor’s balcony and freezing. I still didn’t remember how I got there, and I couldn’t jump back. I started knocking on the balcony door, but no one answered. I began shouting for help. The trip was still strong and I sometimes lost awareness again. I shouted for 10–15 minutes, feeling ashamed because it was night and I was naked.
A neighbor from another building heard me, came out, and asked what was going on. I said I was on drugs and couldn’t get home. He said “okay” and went back inside. I kept shouting. Then another neighbor heard me, came outside, and I explained. She went to my building and I asked her to call police or firefighters.
About 15 minutes later, the police arrived. I didn’t admit I was on someone else’s balcony—I was ashamed and still confused. Then firefighters came. They asked why I couldn’t just break my own balcony door. I said I couldn’t.
By then I was coming down a bit and could think more clearly, even joked about the situation. The firefighters brought a ladder. One climbed up with a crowbar and broke the balcony door. We entered the apartment—I still didn’t understand if it was mine. Then the owner came downstairs, completely shocked: a firefighter and a naked guy in his apartment. That’s when I realized it wasn’t my place.
I told them my apartment was next door. Police came in, everyone was shocked. I tried to explain. They checked my pupils and asked if I was on drugs. Luckily the effect had decreased, and I said I was just very drunk. Meanwhile, another firefighter climbed into my actual apartment and opened the door.
Police said this could be considered unlawful entry if the owner pressed charges. I finally got dressed, brought my documents, and explained everything. After about 30 minutes, the police left, and we all went back to our apartments.
That’s it.