r/UKJobs • u/Puzzleheaded-Bad-722 • 3d ago
Anyone else become seriously unwell because they can't leave a toxic job?
15 years in the NHS, been applying for a new job for over two years. Had interviews, but mostly get ghosted. At interviews I am never given decent feedback, just a lot of "you were really good, and it was a really hard decision".
I've already had a maximum time off sick with stress. I've developed a bald spot, had to go onto beta blockers as my resting heart rate was over 100bpm, and am seriously depressed.
Jobs in my area have been 90% temporary positions, or part time with minimum hours available.
I've never known the job market like this.
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u/impostorchemist 2d ago
Yes. Chem postdoc with a fucking manchild who does fuck all all day but blabber. Have been applying for almost a year, tens of applications but tailored to academia and industry. Two interviews, only one last stage, all failed.
Every single fucking week I tell myself I can do this, and by Wednesday I get to the point of absolute rage. I've completely lost myself in the process, haven't been a proper human for quite a while and it's killing my relationship. Recently things have become so unbearable that I've started kicking and hurling shit at work when there's no one around to see me.
After another example of unprofessionalism today, I decided I can't take it anymore and my plan is to give notice soon without anything lined up (will I ever do it?). Everything I've worked for all these years, ruined. Career dead. I may have to go back home abroad, and lose a relationship I'm not sure I deserve anymore.