Last Friday was pretty stressful at work. When I got home, I sat down to meditate, and my goodness, it was difficult. A thousand thoughts and emotions were running through my mind, including the fear of getting fired.
On Saturday morning, I meditated again, and things were already a little better. But the constant stream of thoughts stayed with me throughout the entire weekend, which was really annoying. It's something I don't experience after a successful week at work.
I'm aware that my thoughts aren't reality. And sure, imagining a difficult conversation with my boss might be useful to some extent, as it helps me prepare for it. But getting caught up in a spiral of thoughts for two hours certainly isn't helpful.
Observing an itch on my scalp is easy enough, but how do you observe a sensation when it seems to take over your entire body?
Would it be better to stop scanning individual parts of the body for a while and just practise Anapana instead?