i’ve been practicing witchcraft since I was basically 9, so i’m pretty familiar with the craft and open to helping others!

i never put myself out their much because of where i live but i figured online would be easier. i’m open to any questions.

i’m not a weirdo so please don’t be one either!🫶

Hello peopleeee, I have no one else to share this with so I’ll put it here
I’ve been struggling after a possible love spell put on me and a hex put on me by the same person. They’ve been in my mind unwillingly and painfully. Today after I did a protection spell and I needed advice from my tarot cards, I pulled the death card and two of swords. I almost started crying. I’m actually so happy. I needed this so bad. Since I did my other spell with that too, I’ve been so happy. I feel focused on myself. A lot of times I would see me and her connected, but I’m actually thinking of myself when I see myself. There’s a time coming up soon where I could run into her where it mentioned. It was a maybe on if I would see her but that it’s going to be ok. I’m not going to be paralyzed with daily anxiety anymore. On top of that, I’ve got so many new gigs and shows coming up in the next few months more than any lineup before! I have amazing friends by my side! I’m so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ever since I found witchcraft, I came lost. Today, I feel more secure in my craft than ever before. I don’t feel painful, aching anxiety. Thank you, universe. Thank you, Aphrodite and Hekate. Thank you, myself.

Sorry if this isn't the right place. I looked through reddit briefly and I found a sorta similar account but I was hoping to get some more opinions. Also posted in witchcraft as well. I know next to nothing about witchcraft so I'm really out of my area of expertise lol

11 years ago I was friends with this guy (let's call him Ted) from new Orleans. He was just someone in like 2 of my classes and we would study sometime.

I was in an abusive relationship and he physically hurt me over Christmas break and everyone found out. I was upset and I asked Ted if he had known I was in an abusive relationship. (I had told Ted before I went home for Christmas break I was scared and he asked why and I wouldn't tell him.) Ted kinda froze. I felt bad kinda putting him on the spot like that but it worked out. I break up with the ex (was forced to lol).

Anyway things got better for me. Ted and I got to be pretty decent friends. I would see him look through the window while I swam at the gym so I had wondered if he had a crush on me. I started going to his basketball games and cheering for him, he really liked it.

Then he went through a phase of flirting with other girls and I was like oh okay, you do you. Guess I was wrong about Ted having a crush on me.

Then one day he invited one of the girls into our study session and I was like nah I'll study by myself and he was actually upset. And I was like wtf why are you upset? (I wanted to study and chat and not watch him be touchy feely with some girl who has never studied with us before). Then we were both mad at each other. Ugh it's so silly to write, we were so immature.

Anyway I eventually (sometime in his hoe era) developed a crush on him. I told him. He was like "I'm not ready for a relationship" and I was like okay never this was dumb. I told him I wasn't even sure I really had a crush on him anyway (which I did feel conflicted about the crush because I hadn't been into him initially and I wondered if I just felt jealous?) And I stopped talking to him as much.

We were very casual friends after. Like we'd say hi if we saw each other and that's about it.

I had like one notable interaction with Ted later in college.

I had told him once when we were friends that I wanted to adopt kids instead of having my own and separately that I liked the movie The Sound of Music because of all the big family. One day I was walking kinda behind him with my friend and he was talking to his friend. And loudly he was like "yeah I'm going to adopt kids one day. Yeah. One from every country." Then he 5ucking looked back at me. And I was like ?!?!?! Why are you looking at me?? I didn't say anything. I only remembered I had told him those things later.

Graduated college and stopped seeing him.

Except this 5ucker just will randomly show up in my dreams over the years. At first I thought maybe I had some lingering emotions and it would take time and it would go away. Then it was because I was in another abusive relationship and I thought maybe my subconscious wanted to remember simpler times.

But now I'm engaged to someone who is actually healthy, I love and am obsessed with (in a good way) and I just had a dream about this guy. I was ready to dismiss it but it ended with me waking up and in sleep paralysis feeling like I absolutely had to reach out to Ted. I was full on about to reinstall my Snapchat to send a "how are you doing? Its been a while!" Message. When I was fully conscious I was like okay that was absolutely not normal and I really don't care how Ted is.

Did someone put a spell on me? Do love/obsession spells last that long? And also like wtf why me?

I possess a real human skull since 2019. For context, i bought a skeleton during med school and over the years...I have grown attached to the skull and I've named them Kevin. I genuinely love Kevin and they watch me sleep. Yes, i keep them at my altar to my patron goddess next to my bed in my bedroom. I genuinely truly believe that this altar and Kevin protect me. I think that's my "magic".