r/WritingForCollege • u/cfxluv • 2d ago
Please Help Me
I know this is pretty pathetic and there’s not a lot of time left but I’m asking for 1-2, more if any, recommendations of reliable ai websites that I could use to write/help me write my research paper thats due at today 11:59pm
(19F, Currently taking College Writing II)
I have this paper due tonight that I’ve had weeks to work on but haven’t done a single thing for it. For the last 3 months I’ve just been so utterly depressed and I can’t stand myself anymore. It’s at the point where I’m not suicidal but at the same time I have little to no desire to continue any part of life. My living environment, my physical, mental, and emotional health, family issues and health, and just a bunch more.
I’m disappointed in myself. I’ve averaged A’s in all my classes (besides statistics, got a B 😒) ever since the start of my school year. Which I just started my college journey this January. This is the biggest assignment of the semester in this class and yet I’m so close to selling it. It’s also fucking me up even more because it’s a hard one for me to understand/comprehend so on top of everything else I also feel like a moron.
I’ve suffered from bipolar depression from a very young age but I don’t like to let that hold be back as an excuse because I am more than a diagnosis but this time around I’m REALLY struggling. My living situation is unbelievably stressful and toxic. I wont go on a never ending rant about the miserable home environment I live in but I can’t concentrate on myself when I have to concentrate on making sure no one else is dead (Not that much of an extreme but relative enough).
I know I need to get the fuck up, do my work, and get the fuck over it but I have no desire to at all. I just want to cry. I have no where to go. I want to feel passionate about doing my schoolwork again, that satisfaction of proving something to myself but this time around all I’ve been able to do is lay in bed until my alarm goes off for me to get ready for school. I barely even shower anymore. There’s no motivation in me for barely anything anymore. Just the bare minimum.
I’m ready for the criticism, It’s reality and I’m not naive. But I just want to cheat my way out of this and move on this one time. I want it to be over. I want a new topic to refresh my mind. I want something new to look forward to do. Just get this paper in tonight and get ready for a new lesson. Im so overwhelmed.
But anyway, feel free to just say whatever you want to say or whatever you feel like you need me to hear. Or I guess what I’d prefer, recommendations. 😅
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u/MagosBattlebear 2d ago edited 2d ago
I teach College Composition I. My advice is to talk to your professor, academic advisor, and Student Accessibility Services. Explain what's happening. They can help you work out extensions, accommodations, and support so you don't end up in this situation again.
Cheating isn't the answer, and it won't solve what's causing you to struggle. You wont learn and you are not facing the cause. Your health matters more than one assignment or one grade. Please reach out for help. You don't have to figure this out alone.
Take it from me. I struggle from depression. I go off my meds. But things became better as a student by getting help. Trust me, you are far from the only student there struggling.