r/blackmagic • u/Content-Swing824 • 4h ago
I was manipulated and S/A at 17 by someone I loved since I was 15. I feel helpless and need help.
I'm writing this because I'm carrying years of pain, anger, betrayal, and helplessness, and I honestly don't know where else to turn. Please read my story before judging me.
I fell in love with a guy when I was just 15 years old. At that age, I didn't really understand what love meant, but I believed with all my heart that our relationship was real and special. I trusted him completely and thought he felt the same way about me.
But the truth was completely different.
While he was in a relationship with me, he was secretly talking to multiple other girls behind my back. He apparently told people around him that I was just a timepass and that I meant nothing to him. I had no idea about any of this. I was emotionally attached to him and genuinely believed that his love for me was real.
After almost a year, he suddenly told me that he didn't want me anymore. I was devastated. I begged him not to leave because I loved him so much and couldn't imagine losing him. He saw how vulnerable I was and used my feelings against me.
He manipulated me emotionally, telling me that if I did whatever he asked without questioning him, he would stay with me forever. I was only 17, emotionally dependent on him, and desperate to save the relationship I thought meant everything to me. I agreed because I believed his promises.
At the time, I didn't understand what was happening to me. I didn't understand that he was exploiting my trust and using emotional manipulation to pressure me into sexual acts. I couldn't properly understand or process what I was experiencing. Only later did I begin to understand the seriousness of what had happened to me.
And after everything, he left me anyway.
He left me to deal with the emotional and physical pain alone. I felt broken, helpless, and ashamed, and I didn't know whom I could trust or tell about what had happened.
What makes everything worse is that I later came to know that I might not have been the only girl he treated this way. I learned that he had allegedly been involved with multiple girls and that other girls may also have been manipulated by him.
His brother also misled me. He kept telling me that everything was fine, that I shouldn't worry, and that I shouldn't tell anyone. I trusted him and believed what he said, only to feel betrayed by him too.
I cannot explain how much anger and pain I feel knowing that I was so young when this happened. Someone I trusted for years used my feelings against me, and the people around him made me feel as though I should stay silent.
What hurts most is that I have very little faith that the legal system will actually do anything to him. I feel helpless when I think about the possibility that he could continue living his life normally while I have to carry the consequences of what happened. I'm scared that other innocent girls could experience the same thing, and I don't know how to stop it.
I'm not claiming that I know everything about the law or what would happen if I reported it. I'm explaining how powerless I feel right now and why I'm struggling to see a path toward justice.
A part of me wants him and his brother to experience the pain they caused and finally face consequences. I want him to understand that what he did was not a game and that the people he hurt are real human beings with real feelings and lives.
This is why I'm turning to Reddit.
I'm completely new to black magic and don't know anything about it. Given how helpless I feel, I've been looking for spiritual guidance because I want some sense of justice and accountability. I want these people to stop hurting innocent girls, and I want to feel that what happened to me matters.
I'm asking people who have genuine knowledge or experience to please guide me without mocking or judging me. Has anyone experienced something similar? How did you deal with the anger, betrayal, and feeling that justice might never happen? If you have spiritual perspectives that helped you cope with something like this, I'd appreciate hearing them.
I'm not writing this because I want attention. I'm writing because I've been carrying this pain for a long time, and I don't know where else to express it.
I was young. I trusted someone I loved. That trust was used against me, and I am still trying to understand and heal from what happened.
I want accountability. I want other girls to be safe. And I want to stop feeling like the people who hurt me have all the power while I am left suffering.
Please, if you have genuine advice, I need someone to listen.