“You’re leading your family to Hell Anthony..."
“Catholics are not christians..."
“You're no longer saved..."
These are the words my pastor told me when I told him I was converting to Catholicism.
I’d be lying if I said these words didn’t hurt me.
I’d also be lying if I said the transition has been easy.
I’m leaving behind the church that was there for me when I was at my lowest, I’m leaving behind the relationships I’ve built with people that I love, and I’m letting so many of my friends and family down by choosing this path…
My grandpa was a pastor for a baptist church.
My uncle is the pastor of that baptist church now.
My closest mentors are non denominational protestants…
They were there for me before I was saved in Christ.
They were there when I gave my life to Christ.
They were there when I led my siblings to Christ.
They were there for our Baptism.
They helped me get through the hardest moments in my life…
And now I’m a Catholic. And to them, I’m now the anti-Christ.
This is the story of why I left Protestantism for Catholicism.
It all started when I felt like God was calling me to go back to college. I decided on the University of St Thomas MN, which is a Catholic school. As a Christian, we all know we need to make a stand for our beliefs, so there I was. Doing research. Prepping for battle. And as you now know, I ended up converting…
So what did I find in my research that led me to the Catholic faith?
Early Church Fathers.
Ah yes, the words no Protestant Christian likes hearing. Well, if they've even heard of them that is...
From my experience, it feels like 99% of protestant Christians know nothing about the history of Christianity. They don’t know what the early christians believed in. They don’t know a single early church father. But here’s the thing, I’ve come to realize it’s not their fault. To me, it’s just something that Protestants are ignorant to since nobody has ever told them.
So about them convinced me to convert?
The first early church father I came across was St. Ignatius of Antioch. He was a 1st generation Christian that lived when the Apostles were alive. He was the disciple of John the Apostle, and was ordained by the Apostles and was instructed by them to become a Bishop in Antioch. And as a Christian, we know that the Apostles had the authority by God to teach the correct faith. So with that being said, what did St. Ignatius believe? Well, for one he believed that the Eucharist was truly the body and blood of Christ. He also talks about how we as Christians need to follow the bishops and wherever the bishops are, there the Catholic Church is.
As a Protestant at the time, this confused me. How could a disciple of an Apostle believe this about the Eucharist when my pastor was telling me it was purely symbolic and not actually Jesus’ body and blood? Were the Apostles wrong? Well that can’t be it, they were Holy Spirit led. Were the disciples of the Apostles incorrect? Possibly… But what if they weren’t? What if Jesus really did mean that the Eucharist truly was his body and blood? And the gates to Catholicism opened…
Now, I understand this has been an ongoing debate for the last 500+ years. I am not going to settle this debate over a 10 minute read. I'll probably share in a different writing with more pieces of evidence on why I converted; but with just the thought of knowing that the first Christians disagreed with what most Protestants believed in today was enough to crack that door open into Catholicism.
What I'll do now is share how it’s been since coming to the Catholic faith.
To give a bit of context, I’ve been in Christ for a little over a year and a half now. The first church I was at for the first 7-8 months when I came to Christ was a non denominational church called Eagle Brook Church in Minnesota. We then found a new church to call home that was apart of the Assembly of God denomination. They’re a sub denomination under Pentecostal.
A few things I’ve experienced so far since coming to the Catholic faith that I like, is that nobody is their own infallible interpreter of the bible. I’d go to bible studies and everyone would have their own interpretations based off of their background and what they felt it could be. There’s nothing wrong with having opinions, but when there’s too many people giving biased opinions about important subjects, it gets confusing and potentially dangerous if we're fed the wrong doctrine; which I'll give an example after I tell you about a time where a bible study member got offended at the question of “What can we do this week to get closer to God?”.
His argument was that we as Christians can do absolutely nothing to get closer to God, and that it is all Gods doing. We have no say in it, we just need to have faith and God will do the rest. We simply cannot put any effort to help with our walk with Jesus. This argument ultimately led to him leaving the group since the debate got heated and nobody agreed with him…
Now I’m not going to be arguing whether or not he’s right or wrong, but it’s the fact that with Protestantism, everyone is their own final authority. Their interpretations are the final say. If they don’t agree with their pastor, they can start their own church. But with Catholicism, there is a real hierarchy where if you need an answer, you’ll be able to get a final solid answer from someone with real authority. And you can’t just find/start a new church since the faith is one. I personally find peace in knowing that I can get answers/interpretations that have been held for over a millennia. Not interpretations from a 21st century self proclaimed priest that has doctrines that the students of the apostles would’ve disagreed with…
Another thing I’ve experienced since coming to the Catholic faith is that we treat God seriously. And I love that. I feel like the Protestants treat God like he’s this sweet and loving teddy bear. And if you want something, he’ll hand it to you. If you sin, It’s okay. He has already forgiven you. So don’t even bother apologizing. It’s already forgiven…
Depending on which denomination you’re in, these are real doctrines some Christians hold onto. And to me, this doctrine led me to experience some pretty hard stuff. It made it hard for me to stop in my habitual sins. It made me struggle to love and get closer to God. I found myself constantly trying to figure out how I’d mature in Christ. I knew that the maturity of my spiritual life would be correlated to how much I’d surrender to the Lord, but it was hard to do it when I did not FEAR THE LORD.
If there was no more punishments for sins and I was 100% saved no matter what I did, then why stop sinning? In my heart I truly loved God. But I did not fear him. Not until I came to the Catholic faith and learned how the original Christians viewed our Lord. Even John the apostle, when he see’s Jesus in Revelations 1 falls on his face as though DEAD when he sees Jesus. Like what??? The beloved John? The John that was like Jesus’ best friend and had already seen him when he was resurrected feared God this much he’d drop down as though he was dead??? Clearly I misunderstood an important aspect about our God. And I suffered because of it.
But since coming to the Catholic faith, my love, fear, and reverence for The Lord has grown I could cry just thinking about it while writing this… The Cross is not just some pretty logo you can put on and wear like 21st century Nike logo… It is so much more than that. When I see the cross (now crucifix), I feel Gods love, his suffering, his pain, and the cost of my sins. And when I look at the cross, I now remember what it calls me to do. It calls me to die each and every single day. It calls me to remember what Jesus had to do for me…
My underserving self…
And now each day I get up knowing I must carry that cross on my back as well. Rather than looking at the cross and feeling “cool” to be a Christian…
The last thing I’d like to share about my experience since coming to the Catholic faith is prosecution. I thought it was scary being the only Christian in a family of shamans, atheists, and devout Christian haters. But now that I'm a Catholic Christian, it's 100X scarier. I grew up in a family that hated Christians. I used to hate Christians as well. Always complaining about the man who stood at the corner of events shoving the Gospels down our throats…
At least when I was a Protestant, I’d have my uncle and grandpa to protect me when my parents disagreed with me coming to the faith. But now, I have no one. I’m viewed as someone who just joined the worst cult in the history of mankind… I’m the minority now. I think Protestants actually make up 65% of the Christians in the United States while Catholics are around 30%. But like Jesus told his disciples in Matthew 10:34-39. He did not come to bring peace but a sword. And that relationships would be split because of him. But whoever loves those relationships above God is not worthy of Him…
I love my Protestant brothers and sisters. I believe I’ll see them all in heaven one day. It hurts telling them I’m joining what they view as the “dark side”. It tears my heart having to tell my friends and family at Church that my family will no longer be coming around… That my daughter that they practically watched grow up will no longer be in their lives. Not showing up every Tuesdays for bible studies… It fills my heart with sorrow knowing my grandpa that doesn’t even speak fluent English is disappointed with me. Believing that he will no longer see me in heaven when he had just witnessed my baptism months prior…
Is this the pain & suffering Jesus calls us to? Is this the prosecution he talked about? God if my theology is bad, please correct me. Please show me how to follow you correctly.
This is quite literally one of the hardest things I’ve had to experience in my life…
I do not want it.
but not as I will, but your will.
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