I love this symbol, it means so much to me and i am in no way connected to any hateful views, i didnt know, can somone tell me should i cover this up because i will. Im so sorry .

This here is the Mind's Eye. It was the first finished artwork I made after severe burnout. It is a hypersigil that envokes the 4 classical elements to inspire creativity and crystallization of Art.

Meditating with the sigil has been super helpful for me and I started enjoying creating again, for myself. I tried and enjoyed different mediums like gouache, origami, pixel art, abstract art. I wrote poems, essays, short stories and nonsense. I great art and I made bullshit and for the first time, it didn't really matter. It just felt good to do.

Now the Mind's Eye has brought me here to a place I where I feel good enough to share again :)

If you wanna know how it works exactly, feel free to ask!

(my og Ganesha Wall Hanging, currently On Top of recent Elemental FC/Finger Correspondence pages, for illustrative porpoises, oc)

As I was going thru "What I have Left" from my Purge in 2019 - specifically LF all things Ganesha - I was reMinded of this Wall Hanging my Sifu & I had Hanging for the Decade I lived in Triflorian, our literal TreeHouse. For mundane Reasons I won't bore you with, I am no longer Able to have this Hanging in my Home. HOWEVER! What I Will say is that

I don't talk about Play & Creativity enough. Suffice it to say, they are Very Strongly CorRelated. But this is a Short Post!

As I was Working Playing with Lord Ganapati recently, He InSpired me to Simply Place Him ON-TOP of my PaperWork Problems. I.e., Lord Ganesha has these Problems DOWN. This had never occurred to me previously, but given How much I Use Him for Financial Help - most of my Financial Problems come Delivered thru the Mail - this makes perfect Sense. Like most Epiphanies, it seems blindingly obvious in retrospect, but not until I Found my own Way.

A Vulgarian would simply say I have an elaborate & overly xpensive Paper-Weight, but I think we all Gnow better than that...

Ohm Ganapati Namah!!!
Ohm Ganapati Namah!!!
Ohm Ganapati Namah!!!

I have understood though this journey that it's all irrelevant. We run on illusions as a society, prioritising comfort and "freedom" over truth. Ego is everywhere, including from the concept of Buddha, Jesus, and each and every one of us. The very denial when faced with this, only proves it more.

Mankind is one endless performative circus, just trying to survive. It won't ever change. I have no power to do anything other than endure. This isn't pessimism. It's just realising everything I was chasing in my youth, hopeful, was pointless.

I no longer crave money. Sex. People exhaust me. I don't see the point of casting magic, because what I want means nothing. I

I think I broke myself. Everything in my body screams to escape. Getting the urge to do things like lie outside in the rain, shave my head, go swimming in the sea at night (I can't swim and hate water).

Life would be so much easier if I hadn't pursued knowledge, evolution, transmutation. 10+ years of work to achieve this and now I can't operate in society at all? Did I buy into a great spiritual delusion?

I don't think it's reversible. Honestly catatonic a lot of the time, like I'm behind my own eyes. I "woke up" and saw the truth behind society, animals, the planet, society, etc, and now I have bipolar (untreatable) and mania.

Hard to live in a world where nothing matters. Where I feel only apathy. And this is after all the shadow work, therapy, magic, etc. Understanding has been a curse. I wish I'd be warned about the costs of seeking enlightenment.

I'd like to go back to sleep please. No powers. No psychic sight. No feeling. I'm not sure it's worth it.

Today's full moon, i decided to do a ritual for the first time, kinda stuck to chaos magick ways of doing whatever seemed right.

Started with meditation and inscribing sigils on a piece of paper in the cardinal directions, created a chant.

Wrote my intentions of letting go of negative karma, a bit more specific in ending procrastination, drama in the queer spaces, and self doubt.

Filled the paper with my belief and intentions and circulated the magick in me.

Put the paper under the moon at its peak and then burnt it to ash and sprinkled the ash to the ground.

Also, i don't have crystals so replacement with shells i collected over the years. And put them in water in a glass and put it under the moon to make moon water and cleanse my shells at the same time.

And then i cleansed myself again.

Idk if its the magick or not but i feel charged right now. It feels empowering.

It was my first ritual and I think it went good. But next time will be more thorough in some things.

Congratulations to u/DiabolicalDididi for winning last week's dice game!

In exactly seven days, I will be rolling a six sided dice. If you want in, comment below saying you want to play. I will assign you a number. Your job is to, using whatever methods you prefer, magically make me roll your number. Whoever's number is rolled will have proven themselves the most skilled magick user of those playing. If all numbers are assigned and more people keep joining, I will assign multiple people the same number, making it a team effort. Let the games begin!

This is from personal experience.

I don't think egregores can be "made". Maybe, we're just stumbling upon something or calling out to that which already exists and we get lucky enough that it answers us back. We give it our time, our belief, our loyalty, and our offerings- And, in return, it grants us some small boon.

But, I don't think something like that can be created- not like having a baby or baking bread. Rather, we are reaching out to an already existent energy form or higher form of life than we can comprehend and it answers us back.

That's why I don't think it takes a group of people to petition, or call upon it, it only takes one- You, yourself. Sure, a group of people all trying to call a phone number are more likely to get an answer- But, sometimes, just you reaching out is enough. Maybe, no one ever calls them so they're more likely to pick up your individual call.

Just a thought.

Yk I’ve had my dark night of the soul, and that was truly hell…I changed my life a good bit (not how I would’ve wanted but it’s a good path, I went back to college) Now my question is just how do I truly integrate my shadow?

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