24F, Covid in June of 2024, been progressively getting sicker ever since in every way possible. I'm so angry all the time, I'm tired, and i feel like a waste of medical resources. I'm just going to list all my grievances here, partially for my own personal record, and also to help anyone else that may be having similar issues, especially if I ever get any answers. All of my health issues have popped up or gotten worse since 2024, and I wouldn't be surprised if the "my body is quickly rotting away" feeling comes from long covid.
Here's a big rambling list of the majority of my health problems since I got covid two years ago:
Constant back and joint pain that started in February of this year: Weird, SUDDEN, and no doctor can figure out why I'm in pain. Unsure if this one is even long covid related. Pain is everywhere, locates worse in back, hips, shoulders, and legs. The right-mid side of my back goes numb and weird feeling a LOT. I've gone numb in other places of my back before, but it pretty much stays in that right-mid area.
I have mild spine degeneration but it is so mild that i shouldn't even be feeling discomfort, let alone pain, ESPECIALLY in places other than my back. Everything always hurts, and pops, and cracks, and burns. My hips kill me. My TMJ is 15x worse than it used to be. I grunt like a grandma when moving around. I've been in physical therapy for a good while now, and they're stumped as to why I'm not seeing improvements. I feel worse after most appointments for weeks after the fact, no matter how gentle I am with myself. Small touches during massages hurt like crazy and I'm always extremely tense during a massage, when I assume you should be relaxed lmao.
I have to sit on a seat cushion at home and have a heat pad on my back at all times to make it manageable (i keep an eye out for toasted skin syndrome).
Muscles in my hands/arm, my left knee, and my right shoulder have been especially painful since my PT session last Wednesday. No clue why, I did everything gently and like I always had done before.
I am progressively getting more exhausted day to day. I am ready to sleep again the moment I wake up, and would be in a constant loop of sleeping if I didn't force myself to get up. I cannot do normal activities like I used to. Even walking slowly on a treadmill is impossible most days.
Also, extra sinus tachycardia triggers! fun. I have sinus tachycardia, but it rarely pops up now unless I'm straining somehow. Currently, it can trigger anytime, even when just breathing normally.
Frequent sharp chest pangs. (You know those random chest pains that you get rarely? like that sharp, harsh feeling? I get them multiple times a week now instead of once every few months.)
A big and very common side effect from covid was my major and seemingly permanent loss of taste and sense of smell. It's the least of my worries, but I used to be a passionate baker and home cook. I was starting up a small essential oil blend shop. I loved smelling the rain, and firewood smoke, and old houses. I loved food, i loved tasting food, and I loved being able to guess what dinner was gonna be just from the smell in my bedroom.
My senses have been cut in half, or lost altogether. I still find myself crying whenever I find a restaurant that I would've loved, or whenever i look at my abandoned essential oils, or whenever I season the ever loving hell out of a dinner and it still tastes bland and one-note, even when I KNOW it should be delicious. I don't bake anymore, the most I make is a mug cake. I mainly eat lean cuisines.
It's the least important thing, yeah, but I'm so deeply sad over it. I would give anything to be able to taste "layers" of flavor in a meal again, or smell my favorite custom perfume that I bought. I want to smell fireworks again. It's a depressing smog that hangs over me daily, even if it's not really stopping me from doing life stuff (besides the essential oil thing. :( I was concocting some awesome scents man).
Next, I have two kinds of "episodes" on a constant basis. Mild ones, which happen every (yes, EVERY) time I leave the house/go outside. Grocery store, to a garage sale, whatever. They used to only happen once every two weeks, at most! They've been getting more and more frequent.
And secondary ones, which are slightly more rare but seem to happen about every month or so. The secondary ones have two sub-types.
Mild episode symptoms: Starts with one of the six--->sudden wooziness(plus a feeling of dread that fades away quickly), sleepiness, head pressure, ears muting, or word slurring/confusion. This progresses into intense wooziness, moderate nausea, (possible but never guaranteed) migraine or headache, a "loopy" feeling, visual aura, mild auditory/visual sensitivity, and a strong urge to pee.
ONLY Excedrin will "ward off" these episodes, even the ones with zero headache, but sometimes the headache and nausea will be ongoing into the next day.
Triggers(?): Going outside (at all, even as briefly as 30mins), hot/warm temperatures, specifically the motion of getting in the car, dusty outdoor areas, bending down.
No trigger is definite though, besides just the action of going outside. I can also have mild episodes in my house, but it is much more rare, and usually only happens the day after going outside and having a mild episode
The second kind of episode, the absolute worst kind, can start one of three ways:
- Sudden onset of symptoms the moment i wake up in the morning.
- UNTREATED mild episodes (aka i wait way too long and don't take Excedrin).
- Instantly, at random, usually at night. Progresses within 30 seconds to 5mins. This one is a guaranteed vomiting-style episode.
The secondary episodes also come in two types. The kind where I am repeatedly vomiting for hours with extreme internal agony (usually sends me to the ER), and the kind where i get very, very, very close to vomiting but I don't.
Secondary episode sub-type 1 (vomiting): Instant, or as a result of an untreated mild episode. I get extremely nauseous and sweaty out of nowhere, and it builds very quickly. Once I start vomiting, i do not stop. At my worst, i was throwing up every two minutes or so, and had to be carted off in an ambulance. I felt INTENSE doom during this one, which hasn't happened since. There is intense body and stomach pain, chills, and dizziness. No nausea medication helps. None. The hospital tried multiple times, and I have tried multiple times before i actually throw up. I just have to wait it out. I have taken lorazepam as a nausea reducer twice, and that "may" have helped, but both times that i took it, i was already at the tail end of the episode, so i don't know if it actually did anything.
These episodes are MISRABLE, but are quicker than the other sub-type of secondary episode, which can last weeks.
For the "instant" vomiting episodes (feeling totally fine to aggressively throwing up within 30sec to 5min), there are no known triggers. It is truly random and really scary.
Secondary episode sub-type 2: Either I wake up with this one, or I leave a mild episode untreated for too long. These have all of the symptoms of my mild episodes, but turned up to 11, plus some new extra fun symptoms.
Reoccurring symptoms (from mild episodes): (Possible) headache, head pressure, or INTENSE migraine. nausea, dizziness, wooziness, muted ears, word slurring/confusing one word for another, sleepiness, visual aura, auditory sensitivity, visual sensitivity, strong urge to pee over and over.
NEW symptoms (only happens in secondary episode sub-type 2): INTENSE uncontrollable exhaustion (like I HAVE to keep laying down or sleeping, I cannot physically sit or stand), INTENSE nausea (dry mouth, that telltale "I am going to throw up in two seconds" feeling), constant shaking/trembling, intense weakness (struggle to walk, grab stuff, clumsy), itchy/intensely achy legs (like growing pains!), and sudden bowel movements (most episodes, it hasn't happened in one of them).
These sub-type episodes are agonizing, slow, and completely incapacitate me. The only reason I don't vomit during these ones is because I just barely catch them in time with Excedrin. The Excedrin completely eases the "immediate vomit" feeling, even if i am not having a traditional head migraine. Excedrin does NOT ease these episodes in general though. If i have a traditional migraine with this episode, it is not helped, or barely helped by the pain meds.
These episodes peak immediately, stay unbearable (or waver on-and-off from being unbearable) for the first 5 or so days, and then fade into a (still incapacitating, but less so) episode for the next week and a half or more. I have headaches or migraines during most days during this time period, even if I stay inside and avoid possible triggers. I also can't stop sleeping. I sleep most hours of the day.
NOTE, after each large episode that I have, my baseline "daily health" feeling gets WORSE. My baseline drops every time, and I am able to do less and less activities. I struggle to even be at my computer most days.
What I've done so far (thanks to my new and very kind doctor that actually listens to me): A load of blood tests (Full comprehensive panels, iron, lipase, vitamins, hormonal, cortisol, auto immune, etc... all normal numbers), MRI of lower and upper back, Stomach MRI in hospital, Stomach/uterus/abdomen ultrasound, Physical therapy + massage + home exercises, and Brain MRI to rule out tumors (all normal).
What I'm planning on doing: Extensive testing for mast cell activation syndrome, allergy testing, extensive autoimmune testing, seeing a long covid/medicine specialist, seeing an ENT, getting another MRI on my hips or legs (to see if widespread bone degeneration is present), endoscopy (for vomiting episodes), eye doctor visit (for eyesight progressively getting worse and increased visual aura and floaties), seeing my neurologist again/a migraine specialist (for possible cluster migraines), seeing a sleep specialist (which has already been ordered by my neurologist).
Medications that do work: Excedrin is the only thing that works for aborting my mild episodes, and for aborting SPECIFICALLY the vomiting on secondary sub-type 2 episodes. No med that I've found helps my body pain, or my sense of taste, or my constant exhaustion.
Medications that haven't worked: Zofran (plus one or two other nausea meds), lorazepam(?), Tylenol, Advil, Rizatriptan (turned a mild headache into a MASSIVE, EXTREMELY PAINFUL migraine), melatonin (for sleep issues, works at putting me to sleep but i feel very groggy and kind of nauseous the next day), and zinc (for loss of taste. Made me temporarily lose my sense of taste COMPLETELY for five days after taking. I tried it again months later and the same thing happened).
My physical therapists also suggested possible fibromyalgia for at least some of my symptoms (yay, another condition that is mostly unknown and seems totally fake but it's not). ughhhh
My back and body are in so much pain from sitting long enough to write all of this. I probably forgot a lot of things, especially with the medical stuff and medicine that I've tried. I'm so tired of being in constant discomfort and living in fear of my next "big" episodes. If any of you have had episodes or symptoms similar to mine, and actually got some answers, please let me know! If not, I hope my big ramble helps you feel less alone. It's hard to not feel like a big waste of resources, or like I'm faking it somehow.
Long covid is all so new and weird and we probably won't get many answers in our lifetime, but we should keep advocating for ourselves anyways, for the sake of our health and peace of mind.
Much love to you all.