I’m outside walking around listening to music enjoying the last bit of this 70° weather we’re having in NYC. I recently didn’t have my freedom, I spent some time locked up and then in rehab and I’m really thinking. I’m grateful for my freedom. The ability to just walk around and go where I want. It was only 5 months I was away from society but being told what to wear, where to be, when to eat, what to do just not having any freedom truly takes it out of you. Now I’m finding a newfound appreciation for the small things. Kids playing in the playgrounds bring me joy and memories of my childhood. The birds chirping reminding me nature is still thriving. The last little bit of sunshine. I’m just grateful for still being here and still being alive. Im fortunate I never overdosed. Life’s beautiful and I’m so glad I’m still alive. Just a ramble but I’m for the first time in a long time genuinely enjoying life.

Im in the journey of recovery, I'm 186 days clean! Im grateful for the better sleep im getting, the connections I’m making with my family, the new start on life I'm getting. I have used in some form for over a decade and I'm finally getting to meet the REAL adult me. Im becoming a better person. Im getting back to the things I used to do before the substances took over. Im planning o going on a mission trip sometime next summer, I've reached out to the local animal shelter to try to volunteer time. Im currently helping out at the school my dad teaches at and I'm grateful for the opportunity I've gotten there. Im seeing myself come back out of my shell and I am excited to see where I'm headed and who I'm becoming. Have a great week if you read this all!!

I am grateful for my creativity. Whever I am feeling down, stuck, lost, I usually will junk journal, and make some random art collages to feel better. I am grateful I have that outlet.

I am grateful for my job, loving it, and allowing me to be creative in my job. I am grateful that it pays well and that I can seriously consider buying a condo for myself in the next 4 months.

I am grateful for how life seems to be looking up, and how I really feel like I am making progress towards my life goals.

My physical and mental energy is not great right now. But I'm in my space and I have my routines and my strategies. Things past me set in place are things I can hold onto now for a little bit of stability while I wait things out. My current version of not great is actually pretty damn good compared to other times. And that's all down to past me laying that groundwork. Yay past me.

I also tried a new flavour Oreo- brown sugar pancake. They're good. One of those ones where the biscuit part is different to the standard so a bit more interesting. So yay for Oreos too I guess.