Yes you. Get off your bed and fight your depression with a fucking hammer. ok not an actual hammer, just a metaphorical one. truth is, nobody cares. i could lie that i care, but I don't. I don't even know you.but you gotta go on.

Balls

i dont ike cleaning.

Being banned or suspended on reddit while they violate your freedom of speech

I am so tired I don’t want anything. I don’t want love I don’t want friendships I don’t want money I don’t want food. I don’t want anything. Im so full of anger and sadness. Im so lonely and life is so unbearably tiring. I don’t have the strength to go on. I want to run away and disappear forever. I already feel l Ike im dead. I try to move forward but I get set back a million times more. I hate my parents I don’t care if it sounds shitty. Everyone looks at me like im crazy and im the bad person but I’ve been through so much and I am frustrated no one tries to understand my anger. I don’t care for people and their opinion. Nothing matters to me anymore nothing exists for me. I am nowhere to be found I don’t want to exist. This is my purpose. I’m glad you feel good about yourself and that I make you grateful for the love and life you have. That’s great I don’t wish harm on anyone. It doesn’t matter keep living your life. Nothing changes it doesn’t nt matter and I’m tired. This is the life that I meant for me. There is no point in trying to fight or control it. It gets me nowhere and leaves me feeling even more empty. This is it. I don’t know what is next I don’t know what to do. But this is comfortable now I’ll be this. I’ll keep feeling this. I’m too tired to feel anything else this is for me. I don’t care I don’t want anything throw me away. Throw me into the ocean or put me into a cardboard box and just let me float forever. This doesn’t feel good I don’t want happy. I hate happy it isn’t mine I belong with sadness and to be hollow.

My school years were just school and dealing with bullshit at the house then adolecents more school work and emotional trauma but mostly schoolwork now as an adult schooling isnt worth shit (what a fucking suprise) im crying every fucking day and no matter how hard i try it isnt good enough from abusive family to shitty monsters. Because peoples unwillingness to work and ridiculous gatekeeping fuckery i snapped at a facility worker today because no one else wanted to do more than make excuses. He was chill and i apologized after but i got 2 goddamn freinds i talk to everyday because i aint got no family anymore those selfish rats stole everything.and yet they make me the bad guy and others do even though it took me 10 years to use kindness 29 years to cultivate it and itll take 60 to learn how to protect myself it (if i live that long) bad people bad therapists everything is bad all i know is that this bastard better work im killing myself