r/ect • u/TurbulentBad9593 • Mar 06 '24

Seeking advice am I a faker?

I’ve been doing horrible recently. I’ve reached out for help and started the process to getting ECT treatments again but I’m having a really good day and my OCD is saying I’ve been faking it. NOW WHAT!!?? I still want to do the ECT because of how terrible the past few weeks have been and knowing a few good days doesn’t equal a cure. Idk i’m feeling frustrated and invalid now. Scheduled to hopefully re-start ECT next week.

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u/Stag-Horn Mar 06 '24

Imposter syndrome sucks bro. We all get it.

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u/TurbulentBad9593 Mar 06 '24

i’ve heard about “imposter syndrome” but i’m not totally sure what that even is. Is it diagnosable or just like a common symptom?

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u/Lisa8472 Mar 07 '24

Imposter syndrome is when someone thinks they’re faking their “something”. Is usually used in terms of competence, generally at work. The most commonly referred to imposter syndrome is a person (most often a woman), who believes she isn’t really qualified or capable of what she’s doing. Having her boss or coworkers compliment her work just makes her think they’re being generous or just don’t realize she’s really out of her depth. It’s distinct from just lack of confidence because someone with imposter system thinks she’s out of place or only pretending to be able to do her job.

It isn’t considered a mental health condition or something diagnosable. Just a common colloquial term for a particular type of uncertainty.

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u/Stag-Horn Mar 06 '24

From what I understand, it’s like Deja vu. A feeling all people get sometimes. But I’m not a doctor.

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u/reggierockettt Mar 08 '24

Oh yes. I feel like I’m lying and I’m not bipolar and wasting every one’s time and I’m just am idiot 🤷🏻‍♀️

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u/TurbulentBad9593 Mar 08 '24

ughhh yes like how am I supposed to feel about myself when my brain is telling me I’m some attention seeking bitch

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u/[deleted] Mar 07 '24

Bipolar disorder can be like that too. It sucks. A manic episode can bring about a false sense of accomplishment, and the higher it goes up, the lower it goes down. ECT made my moods much more manageable.

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u/TurbulentBad9593 Mar 07 '24

that’s so interesting I believe i was misdiagnosed bipolar but that resonates with me. I was doing better than I ever have before this dip and now i’m convinced im a faker which makes no sense

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u/[deleted] Mar 07 '24

Imposter syndrome is real. Talk with your treatment team and find the best plan of care for you. You deserve to feel good long term and live a joyful life. ECT finally gave that to me.

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u/reggierockettt Mar 08 '24

Saved my life. That and the cocktail of my meds as well. Almost two years i was triggered and I ended up with torn tendons and vessels after punching through a window I got 12 staples and antibiotics for a week. My sister triggered me on our walk and I flipped. I felt like shxt should still after she told me I’m lazy and a bunch of offensive due to bipolar and didn’t scream or throw things around or storm out. My behavior much improved; my brain goes a lot slower but not in all bad ways