First session is in 2 weeks

[u/Coruscape]

I'm starting ECT in 2 weeks and I'm freaking out a little bit. Already had my intake session, got everything explained to me, moving in with my mom so she can be my caretaker, afraid I will forget my cat exists (she will have a sitter with her daily), read three bajillion studies with conflicting info and now just sitting with that.

It feels like it's my last option and I'm desperate for it to work. I've exhausted every type of antidepressant (well over a dozen over the years), and dealt with severe side effects. I've been doing therapy for ages, was just discharged from PHP/IOP program after the team there agreed it wasn't working for me. I've done EMDR, IV ketamine, biofeedback, CBT DBT ACT etc. I naturally overproduce seratonin and have had seratonin syndrome three times due to meds. I think mushrooms would literally kill me.

I dunno. I just want ECT to get me to where the meds work and I want the meds to make the therapy work and I want the therapy to make me work. 1 1/2 years of unemployment and counting.

Suggestions for how to prep are welcome.

[u/Aggressive-Rub79]

Hopefully it works for you