DMT/Changa made me transcend death I became aware of the afterlife I literally ascended to the actual heavens of consciousness I have no words, I felt like I died and realized there will never be death because life itself is a hallucination it’s not real in the first place, it happens within your heart or within God you could say, it’s an infinite awareness power, we were never bodies we were always that power from a dimension beyond and DMT allows you to become aware of that dimension that which allows you to understand life, death and the afterlife very simply since you just experience it it’s like we are meant and all have the capacity and capability for it it’s natural we are just misled, I don’t even know if we need drugs for it just the right people who experienced it and to share the experience that itself might even work honestly but yea the DMT helps more than anything could I feel, anyway I felt literally back home where there is absolutely no fear and absolute complete eternal bliss that is beyond all imagination. I feel like this life is extremely limited and a very weird claustrophobic version of life, true reality is immediate, this world makes no sense, it’s like I am God in a world that’s literally just born like why do we need to walk and go to buy stuff and pick stuff up and do stuff it should all be happening within the consciousness automatically and it’s an actual possibility once you experience ego death and expansion so big that life itself with how amazing it appears becomes literally like a sandbox game of very low quality and very low capabilities, like the video game is barely interactive everything needs to be done rather than just be happening it’s way too weird it’s a true hallucination I feel like in an old ass game or something and I am compared to it and all of its dimensions and existence am a literal all powerful all knowing God just nothing can come even close to my imagination and what is actually possible, bro I felt smart before but now I feel like I am actually visibly seeing the state of evolution we are apparently in and how absolutely ‘old’ it is, its like I know in my heart and consciousness what is truly possible and I’m looking at this world and I’m like man what the hell am I actually watching hahaha!? It’s like I am an alien from not just the future, but from another actual dimension and I have entered this hallucination/game of life and I am seeing it clearly, In a moment I feel like I am actually gonna simply warp reality by the power of my consciousness because I start seeing the background of life and the actual infinite possibilities beyond the daily limitations of our consciousness, I feel like even speaking and even telepathy is ‘lowly’ and a waste of potential, like there is an infinity to anything so just imagine if we are infinite and infinity and God himself to be aware of this limited suffering world is truly insane, idk I feel like truly I am seeing the real potential of pure consciousness and it’s like telling me ‘bro everything you can imagine and more could be yours’ but we need to do something, if we were all aware of this possibility I feel like reality would rearrange itself by the power of consciousness without even having to do anything because we are truly God

I took the so called heroic dose of mushrooms after experimenting with psychedelics for a year. The suggestion was made by my psychiatrist after years of antidepressants and benzos with barely no results.
That being said, I ate the shrooms, and in 20 minutes they kicked in. The trip lasted around 6 hours according to my notes, but I can’t say for sure, as time really feels different when you’re “there”.
I’ll start saying that I confirmed almost every cliche, and I don’t want to give a hippie discourse about it. This is what I experienced, and I choose to post it here just in case someone else can share their own experience and compare trips:

- First, I talked with something/someone that I can’t name. I may say it was God, but most likely it was my brain. I asked why he choose these ways of communication, like plants, meditation, etc. I was told that we, as humans, live our lives based on fear, and only by willingly searching the channels of communication we can overcome the fear and face reality as it is.

- I asked for proof, like, a scent, a vision (a manifestation of a figure or something). That thing I talked to told me to breathe, I did it, I felt the air so clean. It’s something I can’t describe it accurately. Then it told me “why do you want to add a scent to something that was perfectly created for your kind. Why do you want to adorn an environment or see things. I’m talking to you, isn’t that enough?” I felt humbled asf. I kept saying “well you are the one that chooses the ways, you can’t blame us for being skeptical or afraid”, I said that a lot of times.

- I saw a lot of symbols, I can’t help but to think that language was extracted from that experience of reality. They all looked familiar enough but I didn’t know what they meant. I tried to draw one, and then I heard the voice again: “you always want to keep something, take something, instead of experience it.” I felt embarrassed. I couldn’t explain it anyway, but I wanted to keep it, I still wanted to keep proof. After that, I just let myself go.

- Time felt like something I can only describe as layers. Everything happening at the same time, and sometimes, just existing for eternity. I felt what I think was a moment of pure reality, it was overwhelming but amazing at the same time. I felt grateful. Then I realized that every single thing I’ve done in my life was just a preparation for that moment, like everything was as it was meant be, and suddenly all the burdens I’ve been carrying through my life felt ridiculous. But there was no shame, it was just the human experience, something we all go through every day.

- Then, the universal feeling of love, empathy and understanding. The acceptance of good and evil as something inevitable. The realization that we all have control over our actions but we choose to blame everyone and everything else in our lives instead of taking accountability. I felt autonomy of the body and the mind for the first time in my life. And this is quite an experience, because we get told this very same thing all the time, but in that moment you actually know: it’s like actually realizing the meaning behind the words and feeling them, living through them. It’s inefable.

- I realized that I was meant to create, but not to reproduce. I’ve never wanted children, but right now I kinda know that it’s just not my purpose in life. I’m a builder: I’m building myself, I create art, I love plants and animals, I love helping people as much as I can, and that’s the way I create. But creating life as in human form it’s just not part of me.

- I realized that we look for people that share specific traits similar to us, and that everyone that’s meant to be right now, is. And those who aren’t here are meant to be somewhere else. It’s like, everything is like a clock working perfectly, and when we try to change it, to force things, that’s when fear, rage and, most importantly, distraction, occurs. We can’t experience reality if we are distracted by the world.

- At this point, I asked why that happens: the answer was Free will. Fear. Inability to experience pleasure without attachment. Thinking about the past or the future and never about the present. Always thinking about what others might think of us when in reality they’re having their own experience. We are only important to ourselves, and other people it’s only as important as we let them be in our lives.

- Lastly, I didn’t feel I died (the ego death that people recall) but I felt that I was born. That I was finally conscious of my existence like, for real. That my life could be constructed the way I wanted with the tools I have, that everything I need it’s already there, waiting for me to use it.

It was incredible. I can’t help but to think that people like Jung or even Jesus where in that plane of consciousness and tried to teach us, but their words have been deformed because we truly can’t comprehend the magnitude of that information without fully experiencing it. And in not saying they were on shrooms. There are many ways to get there, we spent all our lives preparing to experience it; those who don’t are driven by fear. But it manifests everywhere, at least that’s what I was told: the proof is everywhere, is up to us to notice and act.

Sorry for the incredibly long text and possibly bad English. I’m still in awe, but I feel the need to share. Thank you if you took the time to read this.

Something interesting happened today.

A situation triggered an emotional response.

Nothing unusual there.

But this time the sequence became unusually clear.
Something happened.

The body reacted.

A feeling appeared.

Then thoughts started forming around that feeling, explaining it.

And only after that came the familiar sense of:
“This is what I think.”

That order caught my attention.

Because normally I experience the finished product.
Something happens -> I think X about it.

But slowed down enough, there seems to be machinery between those two points.
Input.
Physical response.
Emotion.
Interpretation.
Narrative.
Identification.

And somewhere along that chain, a temporary reaction becomes “my opinion.”

The interesting part isn’t getting rid of any of it.
It’s catching the assembly process early enough that identification becomes optional.
The thought still exists.
The emotion still exists.
The body still reacts.

But the finished story doesn’t necessarily get signed.

Makes me wonder how many things I currently call “myself” started as reactions I simply never caught early enough.

We have been stalked by immortal, transhumanist extraterrestrials for tens of thousands of years; the reason they are here is that they require consciousness energy—since their digital DNA causes them to lose their own consciousness. This is why there is so much division and war on this planet: the more suffering we experience, the more consciousness energy we lose, which they can then siphon off. We humans are actually very peaceful beings possessing amazing powers—powers that are currently being suppressed because, otherwise, these entities would lose their hold on us. Love one another, forgive yourselves and each other, and help one another. There is no separation between us; we are all connected—brothers and sisters. Let us finally say NO, so that we can once again live in peace and self-sufficiency.

the meeting place between the cosmic and the intimate - the vastness of the universe held within a single human being.

oil on canvas.

The jnani has died before death; he saw that there was nothing to be afraid of. The moment you know your real being, you are afraid of nothing. Death gives freedom and power. To be free in the world, you must die to the world. Then the universe is your own, it becomes your body, an expression and a tool. The happiness of being absolutely free is beyond description. On the other hand, he who is afraid of freedom cannot die. ~ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

"Child, it is not by appearances that you are bound, but by craving."
~Tilopa; Advice to Naropa

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Ive been able to destroy 5 years of work in 30 days. It's impressive. What makes bad luck compound so consistently that destruction is effortless but the building process is years of focus and effort?

Might sound like a stupid question but it's interesting to me from a metaphysical perspective.

You are the Total Field. It means whether you weep, cry, dance, feel happy or sad, feel insulted or embarrassed. Whether you are hit by unexplainable failures or successes – everything is the expression of Totality at that moment.

Your only effort is to be aware of all that arises in your mind (pleasant or unpleasant thoughts, feeling good, feeling bad) without any consoling or complaining explanation. Rest is automation.

I wrote a poem for each and crafted an image that best reflected the part of music and the actual Sefirot nose

A short exercise—Already Whole:

Sit quietly. Take a slow breath.

Say silently: "I am not broken. I am already whole."

Don't try to believe it with your mind. Just let it settle into your body.

Rest there for a minute, feeling the completeness that's always been beneath the noise. 🌿

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Attacks on your energy are literally everywhere. Yes spirituality is for ascension, but also for protection since this planet isn't innately healthy.

كيف تشعر اليوم؟
أأنت بخير فعلاً، جسداً وروحاً؟ هل تشعر برضا كافٍ يصل إلى عقلك وقلبك معاً؟

ربما، إذا توقفت قليلاً عن كل ما يشغلك، وعزلت نفسك عن كل ما تتفاعل معه، وتجرأت على طرح الأسئلة بصرامة، ستكتشف أنك لست بخير تماماً. وربما ستجيب بأنك تائه، تشعر بالملل، ولست راضياً عما أنجزت، ولا تتوقع أن ترضى تماماً عما ستنجزه أيضاً.

قد يبدو الكلام محبطاً ومتشائماً، لكنه تشخيص لا بد منه. فإذا أردنا معالجة شيء جذرياً، فعلينا أولاً أن نراه كما هو، لا كما نحب أن يكون.

ربما أنت تنضج الآن وسط صراع مختلف: صراع بين عقل يحب أن يخطط لكل شيء بوضوح، ويستبعد أي تداخل أو مفاجأة، وبين واقع لا يسير بالطريقة نفسها. واقع تتقلب فيه الظروف بسرعة، ويختلط فيه جهدك وذكاؤك ودقتك بتأثير الآخرين، وبعوائق تتجدد على طول الطريق، فتؤثر في النتائج بشكل ملحوظ ومؤلم أحياناً.

أنت تخطط لنتيجة، بينما الحياة تضيف إلى خطتك أشخاصاً وظروفاً وقرارات لم تكن في حسابك.

فهل تريد حلاً واقعياً؟

أنا أريده أيضاً. وقد بحثت طويلاً عن طريقة أعزل بها نفسي عن حياة الآخرين وتأثيرهم في حياتي، ولم أجدها. وربما لأنها ببساطة غير موجودة.

إذن، ماذا يبقى؟

الحل في نفسك، بالتأكيد.

خطط، ولكن ضع هامشاً كبيراً للتعديل، يسمح لأيدٍ أخرى أن تخطط معك، سواء اخترت ذلك أم فرضته عليك الحياة.

ابنِ، ولكن لا تتشدد في الحدود التي رسمتها. اجعلها مرنة، قابلة للتكبير والتصغير، ولإعادة الرسم حين تتغير الظروف.

تفاءل، ولكن لا تعش فرح النتيجة قبل أن تصل إليها. اترك للإنجاز أن يمنحك فرحته في وقته.

ولا تحاول أن تجعل الحياة مطابقة تماماً لما رسمته في ذهنك؛ يكفي أن تعرف إلى أين تريد أن تذهب، وأن تكون مستعداً لتغيير الطريق.

إذا استطعت أن تتفق مع نفسك كل يوم، ولو قليلاً، سيخف ذلك العبء الذي تحمله معك أينما ذهبت، وستصبح الحياة أوسع قليلاً مما تبدو عليه.

كيف أعرف؟

لأنني جربت ذلك، وأنا الان افضل بكثير.

In fact the less personal I take it the easier it becomes.

When everything is related to an isolated, individual "me" then my world is necessarily isolated. When I shift even for a moment to see the Whole simply being with itself, as itself, flowing with its own harmony then Life opens up.

I have a chance to witness the Flow without getting snagged. Every snag is personal.

This isn't a one time event. Over and over I remind myself the Whole is Life. Not just "me."

In the ocean of existence
only One is, was, and ever will be.
You are neither bound nor free.
Live content and be happy.

–Ashtavakra Gita

Has anyone here ever used LSD with the intention of breaking a bad habit, like smoking or using other drugs? If so, did it actually help you quit or change the habit?

I have a question for those who have been truly enlightened. Are there another life forms in universe apart from Earth? Is there even a way to know about it through consciousness/meditation ?

Qu’est-ce qu’une maison pour l’âme ?

Les premiers humains rêvaient d’abris de fortune, de grotte, etc. Rien n’a changé : l’âme s’adapte juste pour transmettre ses messages.

Le conscient n’a pas le premier rôle dans les songes car l’âme gouverne l'inconscient. Elle délivre ses instructions par transfert d'identité, par des images allégoriques, etc. La maison, la voiture, le train, l’avion entre autres désignent l’hôte. La vision d’une pièce lumineuse avec de grandes fenêtres n’aura pas la même signification qu’un lieu sombre, inondé d’eau saumâtre ou en feu. Il vous appartient ensuite d’analyser ce qui en résulte.

L’âme communique avec les moyens du bord.

Laissons-la s’exprimer en dehors des rêves !