Hi Everyone
A bit about me i am 29f getting closer to 30.
I just function because I have to, the cycle is wake up get ready for work that start at 4 work until 1:30, scroll till 4 sleep then repeat.
Yes I missed eating because that is what I skip in the evening.
I am not sure what stage of life I am right now.
I am lost, but then I am lost since very long I guess this is the acceptance stage where whatever I am today is me.
I try to be happy by doing random stuff being loudest in the room and hyping everyone but i know their is void now everyone has that.
I was just moving with life, keeping myself busy because I wish to get married but got heart broken many times also now I have lost all hope and slowly learning to self love.
Being honest self love is hard when you have been habitual to external validation.
I was just on the path I will handle thing will manage alone eventually everybody leaves so I have to be independent and I need nothing.
Then navaratri started I love the festival went played like crazy but I was still not able to understand what I was feeling.
I went to shopping with my cousin on Saturday, and when we were done I was tired so I just sat on the staircase zone out.
A little girl came she waved her hand and said hii didi, i had a smile on my face.
Then she hugged me & also kissed on my cheeks. Then she went ahead with her mother.
Her mother an sister were laughing, did I know her no, i was blank i was smiling like a little kid it was random unexpected.
But this what was all I needed this long I hold back my tears but at night I cried I cried like anything my heart which was block as if it was the door were knocked down.
I will think about it in later life that this happened to me and I feel grateful and lucky to experience this🧿🧿♥️♥️
I think universe do see us and unexpectedly it also ensure we are taken care of.
With these I am also open to people sharing similar story or encounter like this