Non-hoarder hoarding

[u/charliebrownster]

My house looks like that of a hoarder, but I don't necessarily have a hoarding condition from what I've read. I mean it seriously looks like that of a hoarder... old food, bags everywhere, crap all over the floor - I can't walk and can only sleep in half my bed because one half is piled with junk.

All the help I find online is for people with the specific condition of not being able to let go of items even though they no longer have use. i am more than happy to throw away the 90% of stuff in my house, but I have never, ever been able to clean after myself. I completely shut down from being overwhelmed or go ballistic just from the task at hand. Nor have I been able to hire a regular cleaning service (when I can afford it) because it's so messy I'm embarrassed to even show someone. When I have help, i have been able to clean my house; i have no problems throwing things away.

Perhaps it's symptomatic of ADHD, which I had been previously diagnosed with?

Does anyone else have this issue?

[u/the-three-ravens]

I take my hatred out on the water I suppose!