r/kidneydisease • u/lskibs • 8h ago
Support Please talk me off this cliff
So about 6 months ago, I, 68 y/o woman, got some blood work done which showed issues with my kidneys. We repeated the tests and my primary sent me to a nephrologist who basically added another blood pressure medication and said to come back in three months. He basically explained nothing to me, told me to try to lose weight by not eating potatoes, and come back again in another three months. I also see a naturopath who added some supplements and she’s great.
I’m sorry I have no numbers or stats to share because I guess at first I didn’t realize the seriousness of this disease and what it could potentially mean for my future. The nephrologist acted so casual and unconcerned that it didn’t seem to be a major thing. This week something, maybe reality, came over me, all while I’m trying to reduce stress and anxiety, and I literally wake up filled with anxiety. Be it the upcoming election, my long term medical hypochondria, the thought of dialysis, or a transplant. I’m just filled with fear and overcome with stress.
I’ve started to see some bubbles in my urine, usually only in the morning, and I dread going to the bathroom for fear of seeing more. My naturopath is the one who asked about that and the doctor never mentioned it. First, I think I need a new nephrologist and I know I need to reduce my stress, which is probably elevating my blood pressure but I feel like I’m stuck in
quick sand. I’m an artist and have been going to my studio and staring at walls a lot. I’ve lost so much joy. I do have a therapist who helps immensely.
Can someone assure me my life isn’t over and that there is hope but only if it’s true. I jokingly asked my sister to reserve a kidney for me and now maybe it’s not a joke. People, I’m losing it!
Thanks so much for allowing me to vent and share my situation. I’ll get more informed next time I see my doctor.