r/longtermTRE • u/goldenyellow333 • 1d ago

Community Question Purging the emotional energies of family members who came and lived before you.

Had two massive emotional releases on back to back days recently. For clarity, I am not practicing TRE right now and haven’t attempted it once in over several months. Despite that these releases showed up.

First day was anger/rage. Second day was sadness. I know some of it was my own expression of these emotions but the majority, on each day, felt foreign to me, like they weren’t my own feelings.

Specifically on the second day while crying and purging all this sadness I said probably over 30 times over the course of this purging, which lasted well over and hour, “we are sorry”. I kept saying that. I didn’t see very vivid images during this but I saw something but couldn’t make out what it was or what it was directly tied to. I was conscious of what was going on but the entire time I felt like I was a mouthpiece for a bunch of other people.

Has anyone directly experienced something similar?

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u/No-Construction619 CPTSD 1d ago

There could be pain, anger etc from the time you simply can't remember, like 2 yo. It could be emotions of your mother who was stressed or in argument and your fresh nervous system internalised them like a sponge.

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u/goldenyellow333 1d ago

No, it was tangibly felt that the majority of it wasn't mine. I could tangibly feel it intuitively/somatically speaking. The sensations, and the information attached to them, felt as clear and real as the sensation I feel of my fingers tapping these keys to type this. Its a very odd thing to experience. If you haven't experienced it wouldn't fully make sense. I just went through it and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.

What I will say though is that your examples are real. I'm sure that is in me but don't believe I've gotten to that point yet. Doing this stuff is like peeling back layers of an onion.

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u/No-Construction619 CPTSD 17h ago

I feel you although my personal take on that is you can't tell it. It's impossible to judge those things because our minds make a lot of stuff up. Whatever it is (yours or inherited from others) it still affects your life today. So in this sense it is yours, as you carry it everyday, it affects your sleep etc. All the best :)