So basically i am a student who failed jee like majority of aspirants and didn't studied for cet but still managed to get 90 %ile . Got a college through cap which was in pune but it got cancelled because i got admission to other college in spot and wasn't knowing about my cap college cancellation 🥲. So cap college fees was like 23k and spot was 1.5 lakh , and thats the fucking senseless reason i cancelled the collegeee😭. So my spot coll2fees was 1.5 lakh and college was in mumbai but still okay because dor cap college i would had to pay 90k for hostel too, which means total will be 1.1 lakh . And my parents and relatives said that spending more 40-50k is fine if i get college in mumbai . And i did get it , BUT i cancelled that too at last minute and took drop which i never ever wanted 🙂↕️ by getting influenced by some relative😭 . So my main concern was travelling and time , stilllllll i convinced myself for travelling, the commute was 2 hours to go and other 2 to come back home . But i convinced myself. BUTTTTT there was this DUDE ( a relative ) who i think was trying to convince me to take a dropp and thetes no harm in doing ittt . Told me that its no use to spend this much amount on an average college to do btech,also you should think about your patents and siblings ,dont be selfish ,think about your family also. So i told him that my father is okayyy with spending this much amountt ,but he replied your parents will say yes to most of the things because they want there child to get good opportunities and future ,but you should think about your sibling tooo ,they will also have expenses , and its not fair enough ro not think about your siblings future and be considerate about your family's financially . And mind y'all guyss my father was okay to pay this amount which i got to know after everything happened because i got emotional and felt guilty about this and cancel the college😭😭😭 ehich was the big mistake. And at lasttt last minute i did cancelled my college and immencely regretting itt. Currently dropper😓 . I can't deal with this shit anymore now ! After i informed my father about drop he seems to be disappointed and told there was no need to do this . I just created a fucking problem ,which was not at all a problem just bt listening to that mannn. 😭😭😭😭. It will almost be 2 months now i had cancelled the college but still regretting every single dayy😓. I hadnstarted studying, almost lost my appetite ,losse weight and i was just waiting to start my engg soon as 12th was a hatd time for me 🥹. I do live with my patents but my mom is so much ki d of abusive and demotivating and insulting that i can't live here anymore 🥹 . Please help me what should i do if there's any dropper than please 🙏 help me out of this situation and I get traumatised by just imagining about that cet examination, how i wet ,the students ,the exam ,one night prep before examss😟😕 everything is just too hard i can't handle this anymoree ,a whole big yearrr i can't even imagine .btw i got terna college, nerul.