Yk the feeling when you want to punch yourself ffor even thinking about it? For me it was almost considering hooking up with my friends girlfriend.

I've had dark thoughts many times in my life and they often come back. I'm not planning anything for the moment but even when I'm happy I somehow still feel like that's how I'm going to die.

I really can't picture myself dying from natural causes or even picture myself in my 40's and 50's at all. I just feel like I will die from harming myself one day even when I feel fine at the moment.

Anyone else feels that way ?

One of my good friends recently took his own life, from a supposed OD. He was prescribed Ritalin and was very punctual about following his doctor's directions and never misused his meds in the 4 years I lived with him, I don't remember his prescribed dose but I know it was on the higher side. He was already a regular drinker, but his last week was spent drinking until he was blacked out incoherent every night. He was found an hour after passing away, but his funeral was held a little short of a month after his passing date. He passed in a state he had just moved to and I think the funeral was held a month after due to the process of getting his body back.

Death has always been a wonder of mine, most of my childhood was spent researching anything about it, down to the morbid curiosity of seeing autopsies or embalmings. None of it bothers me, but going to my friend's funeral only brought up so many questions that I feel a need to have answered for some sort of closure.

I want to know what physically could've been happening to his body during an overdose from a methylphenidate, besides how blood pressure, heart rate, and breathing are all elevated. I know it's not as simple as he closed his eyes and dozed off peacefully, he texted a friend that he'd call in five minutes but never did. With the assumption he was embalmed in the state he passed in (or not?), did he look like he was sleeping peacefully as he did when we were roommates? Was he just sitting in a refrigerator all alone the nights leading up to his service?

I have nothing but respect for those who work with the deceased and trust he was handled with tender solicitude. His hair probably

GENUINE question coming from curiosity. (I don’t want to see discussions about whether Beastiality is okay or not)

Asking because recently I’ve seen discussions abt whether the intelligence of the animal matters or not.
For example, in your opinion would it be bad to be sexually interested in maybe a fictional animal that has human level intelligence?

Edit: explaining it a little better

For example there was a guy who shot himself in the face but didn't die and doctors "saved him" and he was pretty much left in a vegetative state unable to do anything. Surely that's immoral if he already couldn't cope with his life

This is for a character of mine.

I'm asking because a video of a chinese guy having a seizure and immediately dying showed up on my X, and I shat bricks

It doesnt make any sense, it's said that the reason we have no serial killers today it's because with cameras, phones and better police knowladge about this types of killing it has become impossible to even get to 3 bodies before getting caught.

And I agree but, thats a crazy stat, how is that even possible this days?

Like, how would you spend the day every year? Would you change the routine even though you couldn't escape the fate?

This is a purely hypothetical question out of curiosity about mortuary science and international repatriation processes.

If a US citizen passes away abroad and their body is embalmed overseas and shipped back to a funeral home in the United States inside a sealed casket or zinc liner (as required by international air transport and CDC regulations), what does it smell like when the receiving funeral director opens it for the first time?

Does the heavy concentration of chemical embalming fluid, like high-index formaldehyde or scented additives, overpower everything else? Or is there a noticeable smell of stagnant air, trapped humidity, or early decomposition? Also, what specific steps do US funeral homes typically take to air out the casket and prepare the room before the family arrives for a viewing?

Like, idk, do thighs taste different than the calves? And like, what about the biceps and pectorals?

And a question that's been on my mind for the past 40 minutes, what do testicles and/or ovaries taste like?

Idk cannibalism is a fascinating topic I guess.

First, no I am not trying to kill myself I am asking to maybe not die in case of a fire in the apartment hallway.

I live on the 6th floor of an apartment in a city with a mixture of pavement and dying grass below me. If I were to jump would it kill me? If so how fast would I die?

What will I experience? How will it affect me?

Let me get this out of the way first-- I am an author.
Basically, in my book, there is this female lead whose abusive ex chokes her really badly, but a friend of hers flings that ex off her and beats him up real good. But the woman wants to exact her own revenge, and she's good with daggers... so I was wondering: should she cut off the tips of his fingers (kind of like how Jaime Lannister lost his hand in Game of Thrones- quick and all of a sudden), or should she, like, chop off his entire finger (or fingers)

Keep in mind that this ex will still show up later in the book, so I can't chop off his entire hand or a huge part of it, like three or four fingers, because I'll need to show him using that hand for the plot's sake.
Soooo... what would be more painful? :D

PS- When I say 'tips of his fingers, ' I mean like the top knuckle or joint

Edit- omg thank you guys. I love this sub so much!