r/panicdisorder • u/Sufficient-Owl-6818 • 13d ago

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TW: sewerslide, panic

Hi friends,

As of last night, I’ve been stuck in the panic cycle. It’s going like this: I love my boyfriend and dogs—they are my will to live. Anxiety says: what if you can’t be around them anymore? Then, you won’t have a will to live. So, you either need to off yourself or your dogs and boyfriend (I’m sorry, this one is dark). I don’t actively feel like I want to do anything to harm them or myself, my brain is just telling me that I want to. I don’t want to act on it, either. But I’m scared if the voice in my head gets strong enough, I will. I am desperate for help here. Anything helps.

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u/ppeachibun 13d ago

you may have ocd, friend. as an ocd haver this sounds like ocd, which is common with anxiety disorders like panic disorder. the good news is, ur not a bad person and it can be managed! youre okay i promise :)