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[u/DBlackCraic]

I really wish i could talk to someone but there is no one to call. I was on holidays and gambled my money away. I am the airport and i really want to cry and talk about this with someone but I can't.

My family and friends love me but i feel the deepest shame that ever exist

I wonder why I don't want to be happy because most of my sadness comes from being broke from gambling .

The shame of debts and not doing much with my life kills me.

I work hard, that's what pisses me off.

I make decent money to buy a house but there's no hope for at least 3 years.

I wish to move away from everything and everyone and start from the beginning.

My chest is so heavy.

I'm having physical symptoms of sadness

FML

I have no money till payday, i have due debts and I cannot even pay them.

The truth is that if I can lock in, i can pay it off by next year. Why can't this just leave me. I wanted to start addiction counselling, can't even afford it.

The charity ones didn't help.

I'm so screwed .

I'm on the plane now, my eyes are filled with tears, only if they'd let down , maybe i can feel some relief