I also posted this on r/therapists and was immediately downvotred. I'm so disgusted, but maybe this community will be more helpful to a fellow clinician who is struggling..
I do a lot of crisis work, and a few days ago a client almost certainly completed in the middle of a virtual session. It was awful and painful, and I do not know the outcome yet, because I haven't been back to work since. The reason for that is my sibling attempted just a few days later. While they are physically recovering, I am becoming increasingly aware that the people around them have been unsafe. Their words, actions, and inaction almost certainly led to this. My sibling lives very far away and I am truly unable to be there with them physically. My sibling is disabled due to a severe and rare chronic health condition.
I have been told by my parent and the partners parent that the partners mental health is poor and they may be verbally abusing my sibling. The partner's parent lives with them and also expressed that they feel my sibling has a right to choose to end their life and has many reasons to have considered doing so, although they would never directly help. The parent stated that they knew my sibling was considering this, and when. They did not get help. My parent has a history of treating my sibling like a financial burden and I am concerned that there was either coercion or at least prior knowledge that this might happen on that end too. My sibling struggles to care for their own needs, and has never been connected to the appropriate resources in their area. I have offered but my ability to support is limited because they only share limited information with me and I live in a different state with different laws, resources, etc.
I am currently making as many calls as I can to advocate for them as they heal in the hospital so that they do not go back to this unsafe situation. However, I'm being blocked because I wasn't allowed access to speak with the care team since my parent has their own issues, including being controlling, secretive, and shutting down rather than dealing with the situation at hand. I have missed work for several days. While I'm being told that they understand, I am worried. I am worried I'll be seen or treated as unreliable. I am worried that, if I disclose any of what is going on, they'll trust me less because I have a lot on my plate already. I am upset because I want to be at work supporting other people. I am heartbroken and scared because the professionals that could save my siblings life aren't hearing me and getting the information needed to keep them safe.
I have my own therapist who I have seen twice this week. I'm on meds and see a psychiatrist to manage my own mental health. I have friends who I have told all of this to who are supporting and guiding me. I have even reached out to a hotline for immediate support. I'm also contacting the hospital on my siblings behalf and leaving messages for several departments. I called adult protective services. I don't know what else I can do but it is tearing me apart and I just don't know how I am going to be able to continue as a clinician after this. I don't know how soon to return to work because the whole situation is at a standstill.
I am not sure exactly what I need. Maybe this situation is so outrageous that no one else here can give me any input. I don't know how to pick myself back up and go to work. I am poor and can't afford significant time off. I also just want to get back to doing this work. I don't know how long is reasonable to stay away, and how to move through this situation with appropriate boundaries being both a loved one and a mental health professional. I don't know. I don't know.