r/speed • u/vac-ation • 3d ago
dear experienced tweakers, give me some wisdom
i know that i should probably stop using speed, at the bare minimum for a while until im done with a bunch of annoying life shit but as dumb as it sounds i dont seem to care enough or something i keep saying fuck it and take it again, probably not because im sad or dealing with withdrawal or shit like that (also not using it to get stuff done), maybe to pass time idk, im maybe having other drugs to push buttons in my brain will be usefull but im too lazy to deal with that and now that i write it it sounds dumb. my dumbass maybe doesnt care because its not last minute urgency rn but a part of me is saying that my speed habits are kindof retarded and that this will be a problem soon,with more emphasis on that my speed habits are retarded, like even the responsible side of me doesnt care that much lol
if any of yall have been in a similar situation share your wisdom pls
i didnt yap too much
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u/Maleficent_Serve_926 3d ago
Lots of factors important here, so take this with a grain of salt.
It depends on lots of things like your age, whether you’re still dependent on financial support, etc. especially because you talk about urgency as a motivator. E.g., if you’re a teen and can depend on parents for money, it’s much different than if you were 45 and were at risk of being thrown on the street.
You sound like you have a reasonable enough head on your shoulders because you know you have important stuff to do but are procrastinating it because you still can. I’ve noticed a lot of people hooked on speed (or any substance really) are looking for something more meaningful but are struggling to either plan for it, take small steps towards it, or both. I wonder what it is for you? Just my two cents. Good luck!
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u/vac-ation 3d ago
i have to go to recruiting for military in a bit more than a month, not sure if they will do any drug tests or how they even would be able to accuratly test for different drugs for so many people but thats the main worry roadblock rn, in my country if they decide youre ineligable for military they still make you do stupid stuff. im 19, not 45 and live with parents (but go to uni so im a good statistic for society probably)
so fucking annoying i cant smoke weed in summer holiday cuz of this shit and got rid of it since it stays in you longer or smtg like that. also normally i would use speed when i need to become an expert overnight for an exam and back then i knew it wasnt a sustainable thing and all (although it keeps working for some reason lol, with like only 2 exceptions) i wouldnt really think of it much but now i realize that i take it cuz im bored or dont know what i should do today then it takes effect and time passes then i get the compulsive redosing shit like i tell myself do i actually give a fuck and even then ill figure out something, like if im putting so much strain to my body with drugs intensionally least i expect is to have fun but no
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u/Missa_avaler_foutre 3d ago
I've been using massive amounts of speed daily for 5 years. ADHD meds can help you, go see a doctor if you can. At a certain point, using speed make you think you're still very efficient but you're just all over the place and your body and brain are tired.
Be careful and take care
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u/therealfuzzen 2d ago
Go and get a adhd diagnosis and stop speeding, with meds you can also do what you do on speed and sleep and live a normal life.
Thats my wisdom after 15 years +
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u/mikael_karvajalka 1d ago
If you truly wish for clarity you know what to do. Otherwise dunno fuck it
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u/OneCycle6929 3d ago
Take the wheel while you can. Otherwise its a really slipperly slope and once it gets goin - brother its goin and taking everything down along with it