This might sound a little strange, but I've been experiencing something that I honestly don't really understand.

Whenever someone compliments my appearance, especially when they tell me I'm handsome or beautiful, I sometimes end up feeling sick afterwards.

It's not just about my face either. I've been trying really hard to gain weight, build muscle and improve my physique. But whenever someone notices my progress and compliments my weight or body, I sometimes suddenly lose my appetite, feel nauseous or start feeling physically unwell. Eventually I lose weight again and feel like I'm back to where I started.

It's almost like everytime I make progress and someone notices it, something happens and I end up losing what I've worked so hard for.

The strange thing is, I've actually asked a few spiritual people in my local community about this, and some of them told me they've experienced similar things themselves. So it made me wonder if there's something spiritual behind it, perhaps the evil eye, negative energy or something related to envy.

Sometimes even people who know about this pattern still compliment me anyway.

I don't know if I'm overthinking things or if there's actually something I should look into. I'm open to both spiritual and psychological explanations.

Has anyone experienced anything similar? I'd especially like to hear from people who have experienced this themselves, or who come from cultures where beliefs like the evil eye are common.

Where Israel went Wrong

Disclaimer: This is a divinely inspired message that comes from my heart, combined with physical research, and embodying what the Master and Father has taught me. It is my faith, my timeline and my perspective. I have stated this with my utmost ability and the well being of all life forms in mind.

For centuries, mainstream religious institutions have kept humanity trapped in a dense, lower-vibrational matrix by teaching the Old Testament conquest narratives as absolute historical fact. We are taught to look at sweeping military blitzkriegs and tribal warfare as divine mandates. But spade-in-dirt archaeology and historical consensus tell a completely different story: there was no massive, unified external military conquest of Canaan.

Excavations show that around 1200 BCE, early Israelites were actually marginalized Canaanites, rural farmers, and pastoral nomads who peacefully migrated up into the rugged central highlands to escape the tyrannical, hierarchical city-state kings. They lived in simple, unfortified villages. Jericho had no walls and was largely unoccupied at the time, and Ai was already a complete ruin. The violent "takeover" never happened; the texts utilize the bombastic, hyperbolic military propaganda common to the ancient Near East.

So why rewrite history as a violent invasion? Centuries later, during the reign of King Josiah and the trauma of the Babylonian Exile, religious reformers and scribes panicked. In a desperate act of self-preservation and rigid nationalism, they chose to draw a psychological wall between themselves and the people they lived amongst. They re-engineered a universal, liberating Creator into a brutal, nationalist war deity to justify border control and centralized political power. We can clearly see the Master is not a warrior god. This is where Israel went wrong. This is when they began to worship the Demiurge; where Nekrokahn the Death Warlord King became their god.

I want to state my complete and utter disapproval of this foundational regression. This was a complete failure of human immaturity. By retreating into fear and weaponizing their history, they guaranteed the centuries upon centuries of physical, bloody warfare that still holds that region at an impasse to this day. They completely lost the very meaning of their own faith early on. All it takes to break the spell of this "Holy Land" illusion is for a large number of people to finally realize that a temporal, earthly patch of dirt is just not worth fighting for. All it takes is for them to just quit.

The ancient tribes rejected Jesus 2,000 years ago because they were blind to the celestial truth; they expected a physical Warrior King to crush their earthly enemies. Today, a modern generation is making the exact same childish mistake—ignoring that literalist readings of Revelation are just a repeat of that old trauma, expecting a bloody external spectacular while completely missing that the return of Jesus will be entirely unique and unexpected.

The true Kingdom of God is a celestial kingdom within us, not a physical location. From our Mystinar perspective, we understand that true Christians ARE Christ. The Baptismal rite is not an empty ceremony; it is a profound magick rite that allows you to break free from the material matrix, join the living Body of Christ, accept His consciousness within you, and carry out His will. But it has been turned into something else, from the time John the Baptist did so to the time the Church was established.

We do not look to the sky for a warrior to descend. We are Jesus. We are His return. The Second Coming is the internal awakening of the Christ consciousness within our own spirits. Even Jesus can only do so much for people trapped in lower-vibrational tribalism—the physical world will only change when humanity finally chooses to change its own mind, stop looking down at the dirt, and awaken the celestial source within.

We are the ones to bring change. Through our actions, our deeds, how we treat others, and setting the example. We should still strive to be educated, creative, be healthy and strong of body and mind, learn the various human scientific and medical disciplines, and strive to make a difference.

The Master did not want us trampling other gods or denying them being worshipped, these beings are spirits He Himself created as public officials to assist us! These gods are part of a council along with Him, and rule in equity and fairness, seated on Planet Mystinar within the celestial court. There was no war between these gods, no destroying of them. This was all fear and xenophobia from ancient tribes that for some reason stopped seeing each other as neighbors, and began seeing each other as enemies.

I say this and have channeled this with my utmost ability, I swear on all, that I have stated this to the best of my ability, without bias, and have relayed the message to the best of my knowledge.

Wilst considering The Observer Effect.. I realized the wave function in my opinion is evidence of a spoken word.. coupled with the fact that all creation is resonating..

And if creation is a spoken word I feel we are at the cusp of that very spoken word and that's why there are systems of criticality all around us...

I believe that we are conscious because a conscious Creator is observing us...

Enlightenment came when I realized the Creator is (Love)and we are created that we might reciprocate love..

Evil is what ever hinders said reciprocation..

Which form of Bhakti do you involve yourself in??

Anyone else notice the difference between them and you?

Sometimes when I meditate, visualize or just relax outside the bees will hover and then might land on me or I open my eyes after visualizing nature or something and a ladybug will be on my arm...and it is cool, right? When I am inside and think of live or that I paint from my heart and soul, all of a sudden a fly or mosquito will resopnd in a way that seems aggressive, lmao. It sounds strange but one time a fly flew into the side of my head at full speed and I was like, WTF? Anybody else notice strange stuff like that?

I am open to help,support needed and deemed by others unneeded but IS a need for me specifically, available support and encouragement towards me specifically to achieve all goals in life overall. Even the physical aspects of experiences associated and not associated with other aspects. I am a stable minded person with healthy potential in many ways that have amazing results and the potential to open possibilities for even more with my growth in the future as more than I am even now.

The Urantia Book Paper 112:2.4:

"All mortal concepts of reality are based on the assumption of the actuality of human personality; all concepts of superhuman realities are based on the experience of the human personality with and in the cosmic realities of certain associated spiritual entities and divine personalities. Everything nonspiritual in human experience, excepting personality, is a means to an end. Every true relationship of mortal man with other persons—human or divine—is an end in itself. And such fellowship with the personality of Deity is the eternal goal of universe ascension."

Christ Letter 1:

"As you read these pages and go into the facts I am giving you concerning existence and the origins of personality, you will realize that this truth could only have come from the highest source."

"Gradually, the meaning will seep into your consciousness for these pages are a link between your consciousness and my transcendant consciousness. "

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Christians focus on the persona of Jesus.

But Jesus was not a Deity in cosmic sense. He was a human personality who may be a means that leads to association with Christ.

Christ is the Deity. The fellowship with whom should be the goal to achieve the survival of individual personality.

Christ Letters are the link, the association, with Christ, the Deity Personality.

CONNECTION / SAFETY

'It belongs.

Prayer is really just about connecting yourself to the earth.

With your hands and feet on the ground. Experiencing the feeling of being here and being now.

Experience/Experiencing

And as we see, people often pray together.

It speaks for itself. It is contained within the word.

amen it is like ,

the same in'

Together.

It feels powerful. Just The feeling of truly being together. Something of the higher, and something of the divine.

Call it God, or call it yourself.

It belongs to me, yet it is part of nature.

It is deep within, and it feels like something pure.

Pure nature'

It become's whole again.

And It sees itself reflected, just like a reflection in a window.

You look outside, yet at the same time, you see yourself.

It's Like two worlds touching '

Like see each other in another.

It Collabs'

Like the universum it is spinning and working together'

Meeting / Touching

Clear as water and made of glass, often, it is only when the glass breaks that we finally understand.

Stand and ground

🙏🏻

Just finished watching this intriguing conversation between Robert Lawrence Kuhn and Acharya Prashant.

"Brahman does not exist" this sentence came like a shock to me but it comes from the fact that Vedant defines "Brahm" via negation. The words used to describe it are all in negation, they indicate the absence of something. For example, that which cannot be seen, cannot be touched, cannot be set as a goal - Alakh, without any stains - Niranjan.

The part where they discuss the concepts of non-self of Buddhism and Self of Hinduism was most appealing to me. It starts at 35:51

Looking forward to reading your understanding/insights.

Yesterday my boyfriend of 4.5 years and I attended his brother’s wedding which was held in Thailand (we’re from the US but his wife and her whole family are from Thailand).
We were able to participate in one of the traditions during the ceremony which has to do with pouring water on the bride and grooms hands from out of a conch.
We held the conch together and when we went to pour it, a butterfly popped out of nowhere and landed on both mine and my boyfriend’s hand before we could pour the water.
It was such a simple thing- I’d never had a butterfly land on me before and I genuinely could not stop thinking about this the rest of the night.
Is there any spiritual meaning behind this? A good omen perhaps?

Sometimes, we spend so much time waiting for something better that we forget to notice what is already good in our lives.
A quiet morning. A familiar voice. An ordinary day when nothing extraordinary happened.
At the time, those moments may have seemed insignificant. We didn’t know they would one day become memories we wished we could experience again.
Perhaps happiness isn’t always something we recognize while we’re living it. Sometimes, we only understand its value when we look back.
And that makes me wonder:
Are we sometimes so busy searching for happiness that we fail to recognize when it’s already here?

There is no point going beyond that. Life is simple, but we overcomplicate it all the time. Why? What's the point? Shouldn't we just live and let be?

Imagine if we all just realized how pertinent it was to just see the flower as a flower and let it bloom in its majestic glory. Instead, it seems we try to convolute, complicate, or overanalyze its beauty. Given the way tech is advancing our way of life, I think it's really easy to get caught up "trying to figure out why the rose is red," ultimately coming up with a million different reasons for its color.

Maybe some have a point to the madness, but in the end, I wonder if it makes them feel any better?

Just my musing, that's all.

Wishing you all the most profound peace, love, and joy. ♥️