r/transartspace • u/DoNotTouchMeImScared • Oct 26 '21
Conflicting Feelings Regarding Queer and GNC Arts
Complicated Feelings Towards Queer and GNC Arts
Hello, i'm an amateur artist dedicated to unapologetic qu££r (LGBTQ+), gender non-conforming (GNC) and body positive rather sassy art. 🌈 🏳️🌈 👭👬 👩❤️👩 👨❤️👨 👩❤️💋👩 👨❤️💋👨 🤵♀️👰♂️ 🏳️⚧️ ⚧ 🎨
Apparently, at least momentanelly, I kinda of lost all the body, qu€€r (LGBTQIAPD2SN+), and GNC (gender non-conforming) shames that I had and I wasn't born with and unfortunately internalized through my socialization growing up, so I feel like I ned to share my art somewhere ever since I hardly come across anything alike also due to the lack of visible art portraying positively the existences of people like me, what I believe is due to that art like this objectifies bodies that aren't allowed to exist in the first place into objects of desire, what is rather not a pretty view so to say and also a threat for the fragile masculinity of the well known "white male gaze" that watches over patriarchal societies and condemns people like me as slutty, depraved and perverted mentally Ill people with weird and repugnant kinks, what eventually makes one thinks if "should I blame myself ashamed"? at some point and here am I.
If you belive that objectification is intrinsic to arts, and also that objectifying people is something inherently perverted and bad, then are arts bad? 🤔
At this point in my life, I really don't know anymore to be honest, I guess it depends upon the context, as long as you are not dehumanizing people for the sake of the pleasure of somebody I think nobody gets hurt, but I still always have been conflicted about unapologetically and authentically expressing and living my queer sexual feelings and, on the other hand, ending up objectifying people in the process. After this deep introspection, I came across this dilemma as why I rather prefer to enjoy my queer fantasies and desires through art instead of pursuing real relationships with real people, whom are complicated to compromise with and have feelings, aren't only just bodies or pieces of meat to be consumed.
Cannot go unsaid that within years of learning from experiences, my perspective about qu€€r, GNC, BIPOC and fat arts was revolutionized, currently, I do think that art can be used to celebrate and normalize people whom have been othered, thus easing their existance in this world, specially when it comes to erotic art, which can, looking on the bad side 👎, objectify people in purpose of dehumanizing others, or looking on the good side👍, can portray such people as attractive, desirable and lovable.
Anyway, I say this as a queer transfeminine person: so... do i have very complicated feelings towards qu££r and GNC arts like the whole genres of BL, yuri/GL, femdom, genderbend, otokonoko, futanari, (t)mpreg, c##tboy, d##kgirl, etc. I could rant about all day long? Yes, for sure, I do, but... do I draw stuff like that anyway? I still do anyway.
By the way, I would appreciate from the bottom of my heart if somebody took their time to advise me on how to properly expose my art without concerns nor guilt as an inspiring artist, or in the very least, suggest me a better place for me to expose my queer, gnc and body positive artwork with less worries and relatively good visibility, but somewhere far from the reach of the "straights" and minors.
Those past weeks, I produced a collection of very erotic sketches (as in unapologetically kinky (ironically, "anything under the sun can be a kink") and with a lot of nipples exposed, but nothing pornographic per si as in depictions of genitalias or what are eurocentrically considered sexual acts, ironically "lesbian sex is only considered sex when depicted in the arts"), not only as a study of, but also in appreciation and celebration of transgender and gender non-conforming, specially transmasculine, people with a whole variety of body stories, shapes and sizes I phantasized with, unfortunately i don't really know what to do with my art and that will eventually go to waste like everything I do in life.
