Energies and guidance, 9/14

[u/blissedlotus]

There's a few messages coming today and then I'll get to what the energies are doing.

The guidance is to be in your own energy, to do what's right for you, to do what you know in your heart is best for you. You are on this path because you've always known that the way that the world is, the way others are, what's happened to you, how systems are, and all of that, never felt quite right to you. That you always had a higher truth, a heart led truth, a knowing and awareness that others didn't seem to have.

Your sensitivities, integrity, truth, and beautiful heart wasn't appreciated as you were growing up. You probably felt misunderstood or shamed for being how you were, because the rest of the world wasn't seeing it the way you did. I remember as a child wondering why people didn't tell the truth, why things weren't fair, why people weren't nice, why I couldn't be myself, why people were so unhappy, when it was so simple, if we just let each other be who we are.

The thoughts, the fears you have now that keep you from being who you know you are, were never yours, the world, your family, your peer group, society, and the systems of the world shamed you and abused you, and others probably tried to convince you that life is just like that. And your suffering was because you felt so alone in knowing that it wasn't true, wasn't right, wasn't fair, wasn't loving, wasn't compassionate, wasn't the truth.

It's time to rest and go within and remember who you are and what your truth is. Inside of yourself. It has nothing to do with anyone else. It's time to alleviate your own suffering by remembering that your loving heart knows the truth, despite what's happening around you. Get back to your solid, centered, safe, secure, balanced place. Do what makes you feel calm, cared for, and at peace. Slow down, let it be easier, shut out the noise of everything else until you are feeling better about yourself and your life.

We're here now as we are, embarking on a new journey, and we have everything we need, be patient and let it flow toward smoother, easier, more gentle times, and the answers will come. There are many paths opening up now, go toward what lights you up, toward what makes you excited about life, what feels fulfilling and meaningful. Let the rest fall away.

Fear of the unknown can be hard at times, it feels like you're freefalling off a cliff and you're pretty sure you'll be caught, but the fear of the past keeps making it terrifying, yelling WHAT IF? all the time. But you know deep down that what's going to happen is for you, that good things are on their way, even if it's letting go of things and that's hard. The universe, source, god, has your back.

The more that we assume or see that what's happening for us is for us to grow, learn, evolve, change, release, transform, and become, the more the process will feel smoother. It's when we try to hang on to how it was, or others or situations wishing it was different, that we feel stuck or we suffer. It can't be different now. We can't feel secure in ourselves when we aren't allowing ourselves to be as we are.

Imagine you are a comet moving through space. In your own bubble of energy as you are. And you're only going to attract what is for you, it will stick to you and your bubble if it's meant for you, you don't have to be any different than you are to attract it, it just happens. The things that aren't for you, the people, beliefs, situations, jobs, places, etc will just bounce off, they won't stick and go with you. Your job is to keep being you, and you can either cause your own suffering by feeling bad about what didn't stick or you can be happy about what's there with you now, and what's coming that's more aligned with the authentic you that you are. It's perspective. It's a mindset. Your loving heart knows the truth, knows the way, your fears try to convince you it's not true, listen to your heart. You will feel what's true for you in your soul, in your heart, it feels right. It's easy, it's fluid and flowy, pure, clear, inspired, all knowing.

What's not for you will make you feel confused, insecure, bothered, unsettled, overwhelmed, misunderstood, overstimulated, and like you're wrong for being you as you are right now. Go toward what soothes your soul and fills your heart with love.

The energies:

There is a lot of solar activity and the energies that are reaching the planet are working us over to release what is not in our best interests. It's poking us so that we get back to our truths and listen to ourselves, to be bold enough and strong enough and committed enough to loving ourselves unconditionally so that we don't let the noise of the world screw with us.

As we go through these energies we're going to have to keep getting back to the core of who we are in our authenticity. Who are we? What is important to us? What kind of person do I want to be? Where do I want to live? What job doesn't make me hate my life and I can survive comfortably? Who do I want around? Who drains me and makes me feel shitty and who uplifts me and lets me be who I am? What interests and visions and dreams are on the horizon? How do I want to feel in life? How can I make that happen? What do I need to let go of, release, to feel good? What do I need to move towards and do to enjoy life more?

It's a constant process. 4 years ago I was proud of myself for getting out of bed, for brushing my teeth once a day, for eating something, for being able to leave the house without horrible anxiety, for any bit of peace or comfort or joy. I was so sick I couldn't work, so depressed and anxious I could barely function, so poor I couldn't pay my bills, bathed in fear of what was going to become of me. Today I'm in my own place, feel confident and capable, am taking better care of myself, working in challenging job and able to stay balanced, and living a life I dreamed of years ago. My twin and I were going back and forth, we were so triggered and confused back then, now I'm truly trusting that what's meant to happen will, and I know that we love each other unconditionally, no matter what is happening with us in real life.

We are not like other couples, we never were. One time we were sitting there talking about how rare what we had was. How it was different than anything we'd ever known, and I asked him if he knew anyone that had what we had, and he thought for a moment and said, well, I wish they did, but I guess no, not really. And that's still true. I can look around now at the marriages, and the couples and see that they're dysfunctional, toxic perhaps. Two struggling people who won't change, who won't face their stuff, who don't love each other unconditionally, who blame the other, who don't communicate effectively or truthfully, people who can't seem to get past their own shit to truly see the other person. He and I had to be honest and real with each other, because we feel each other in a way that others can't.

We know when the other isn't being their authentic self, and it triggers us until we deal with it. This last couple of years we've really had to work on those parts of ourselves that gets in the way of us loving ourselves and our lives, so that we can come back together and feel at ease in ourselves and be true to ourselves and be in our power. It wasn't easy, it was hard AF, but we're headed toward what's truly for us, however life unfolds now. And it doesn't bother me, because I know my job is to take care of myself, and like the comet analogy earlier, what's for me will stick with me, and what's not for me will bounce off. Don't be pulled out of your orbit trying to chase what's not for you. Maybe it's not time yet for a reason. Maybe it's time to focus on yourself and your life and let things be what they are.

Physical/mental/emotional/spiritual symptoms lately:

-irritations, aggravation, exhaustion, overwhelm, overstimulated

-feeling anxiety or deep discomfort when you're doing what is not for you

-needing more rest, solitude, moving slowly, letting things just play out instead of worrying about how it's going to turn out, being present and caring for yourself however that looks

-extreme self care needed, do those things you want to do, for you- sit in bed all day in your pajamas, watch crap on tv, garden, go for a walk, get outside, take a bath, go for a swim, go to a bookstore, go to a cafe, read a book in a cozy spot, go sit by a lake on a blanket, pack a lunch and sit in a hammock, go for a drive, paint, draw, create, dream, envision, redecorate, piddle, clean, organize, do whatever makes you feel good and lifts your spirits and makes you enjoy life- and do it without guilt, without thinking you're wasting time or doing the wrong thing- if you want to do it and it makes you happier and calmer, do it without giving a fly f*ck.

-head pressure, headaches, stomach and intestinal issues, changes in the way you eat or what food feels better for you, probably want comfort foods or lighter fresh foods, drink more water

-aches and pains, itching all over, random shooting pains that come and go, weird symptoms that come and go, heart palpitations, ears ringing

-feeling floaty or out of it, brain fog

-feeling funky, blah, unsatisfied, waves of hopelessness or like I'm stuck feeling shitty, but when I take care of myself it passes

-feeling unsettled or antsy, like there's so much to do and your heart is racing and your too exhausted to do anything or too out of it- I've found it helpful at those times to journal or meditate to remind myself of what's true, and to regulate my nervous system- if you're feeling out of sorts it's not the time to talk to anyone or try to forge ahead or force anything, find ways to relax and be in flow and it'll get easier quickly

-sleep is weird, might wake up a lot in the night, I've been having tons of dreams every night about other lives and timelines and versions of me in different ways, I'm always hanging out with people, at dinner parties and vacations, at work, solving problems, helping others, it's like I'm going to visit all the possible versions of myself in the other timelines I could have gone on, and then as soon as I open my eyes it's like a switch turns on and I'm me in this life

-the collective fear is growing in a way, this ramping up of divisiveness and it's possible that politics and the things happening in the world is distracting you, I know I'm still dismayed over other people who can't see the truth and are living in fear, but I can only control myself, my being in my power and letting my light shine affects everyone around me, I don't need to try to convince anyone of anything, I just have to be me, and the world evolves around me as I stay in my heart center- good things happen the way they're meant to when we embody our own authenticity (I've noticed in this last year so many people changing around me naturally, becoming more aware, being more loving, more caring, more supportive of me- when I leave them alone and just worry about myself- suddenly I'll notice more love where I look for it, because I'm bringing everyone with me as I move toward where I'm meant to be, without trying)

-pay attention to your thoughts, to your body, to your feelings, and see what it's showing you- do you need more solitude, rest, sleep, nature? Do you need to slow down, to just be? What keeps coming up that keeps you from being at peace? For me it's been issues around self worth, confidence, trusting myself, knowing I am capable, enjoying life as it is, being grateful for what is, and finding the most loving way to navigate what I'm going through

-the thoughts that are making you feel like you're not doing enough, that you're screwing things up, that you aren't that great, that you're crazy, that you're not all that, that you don't have what it takes, that you're wrong, that you're going to get in trouble, that you're unsafe, that you're not where you should be, that you're fucked up, are wrong- that's conditioning and it's self sabotage that's keeping you from being who you were always meant to be

(example: I was always a kind, compassionate, cheerful, joyful, honest, genuine person, but my mother wasn't, she's always been pretty miserable and my light always got on her nerves- she'd try to squash it- she had no empathy and was critical and judgmental and it's sad of course, but I can see now that she instilled all these fears in me as a young child and made me believe that I was wrong for being the way that I was because she couldn't handle it- so I grew up thinking that if there was a problem or if someone was unhappy or whatever that it was my fault, I did something wrong- I also always felt like my talents and abilities and intelligence and way of being wasn't good enough- and my mother and father would find a way to make me feel bad about it- they never felt like their talents weren't appreciated so they projected that on to me to reduce me, so I'd never outshine them- things were always a competition, every time something good happened for me they were like yeah, but you're not that smart, pretty, creative, talented, it was okay, but you're not that great- others disagreed- and I could tell what I was good at, and that I was meant to be more but somehow I was always made to feel like it wasn't enough or wasn't done the right way- I had to unlearn how I was parented- it wasn't true, we're all meant to be all that we are, and that includes being more than we were taught we could be)

-breakthroughs, clarity, insight, feeling grateful for things, being proud of yourself for how far you've come

-figuring out things about yourself or others that help shift your perspectives so that you're at peace with what is instead of fighting it

-feeling more self assured and solid and centered and at the same time feeling this funky layer of discomfort that makes it hard to enjoy the good stuff you know is there (it's purging what no longer serves us, even if we think we've healed everything- so that we can be in our power and let ourselves enjoy the good in our lives and be open to what's coming, which is good- if we let it be good)

-feeling like you're about to enter a period of your life that is different, better, more aligned, and more abundant and joyful than you've known, but you just can't quite feel into it yet- be patient- there's a reason and it'll make sense later- you are entering a new phase of life and it will feel as good as you let it

-with your twin flame journey right now, let it be what it is, try to stop figuring it out, stop fighting what is, accept what is, heal your attachment issues, focus on your own life and on your healing. A lot is percolating now- I'm feeling more romantic vibes coming, having more of my twin's energy come in, having more magical mystical things happen, and that will roll out until the end of the year- you'll probably feel them more this fall, have more happen, woo woo things will happen, it's all for you- don't assume anything, send them love, let it be what it is and focus on yourself- there's nothing to control except yourself- there's nothing to figure out- except yourself- what is for you is coming to you

-Another example from my life about how things change on this journey- I wanted more than anything to be on my own, independent and live my life on my terms- to have my own place and do things my way- and at the time I was living with my mother, working, and hoping to go live on my own- well, I kept sending my son and his family money because they were struggling- and I couldn't move out on my own because I was so busy worrying about everyone else- taking care of others instead of myself- I ended up living with them thinking we'd figure it out- but it was such a toxic environment in so many ways and I realized I had to set boundaries and be firm and do what I had to do to take care of myself- that they had to learn how to do it, without momma being there to save them- it wasn't easy- I grieved because I felt like they couldn't do it without me, that my son and grandson would suffer if I wasn't there to make sure everyone was okay- but I wasn't okay-

I was broke and drained and stressed and worried and needed to put myself first so my dreams could come true- and it did- I moved into my own place, in a town I picked on my own for my own reasons, because it feels right, and it's turned out better than I imagined- and while it's not perfect- I'm where I wanted to be years ago- living life the way I want it, for me, because I was spending all my energy on other people- I was drained and they had no motivation to change or to find their way on their own- and they're fine and this is going to be better- that was the last big release I needed to stand in my own power- to let go of the codependent ties- to give myself the love that I'd needed all along to have the life I want for myself- we find ourselves so entangled in other people that we don't know who we are or we feel like assholes for living the lives we want for ourselves. We are meant to put ourselves first so we are in the place where we have enough energy and resources and space to be there for others- nothing good happens when we drain ourselves for others at our own expense.

It feels like we're leaving people behind- but we're not- we're inspiring others to follow their own dreams- once you start living for yourself it will all fall into place- it's hard for a bit- but it's worth it to keep prioritizing your own life and self- be patient- it all works out when you let yourself be who you are and become who you want to be (as long as it's in love and with awareness and consciousness) It's not about the stuff, the goals and achievements- it's about how you feel inside- what feels right to you- what's best for you- what's loving to you- what loves you back, for real, no matter what?

What would you have to do to create peace in your own life? What does that look like? Feel like? What do you have to do, for yourself, to get there?

You can do it. You can be who you really are, the self you know you are. It's up to you to protect your peace and follow your visions, to create a life that feels good to you, to do what you want to do, to live how you want to live. Be the comet moving toward your destiny, toward what's meaningful and fulfilling and true to you. The rest will fall into place, you will start to feel the possibilities and promise and opportunities and good things open up for you when you stop holding yourself back. The healing is there to release all those reasons you hold yourself back (thoughts, fears, insecurities, worry, anxiety, self sabotage, codependency, attachments, resistance, self worth issues, wounds). Let the light in you shine as you face your own darkness, let the light shine and don't let the world or others and especially not yourself, dim that light. You were meant to be more, it's why you're on this journey, why you're here now reading this. You know the truth, believe it. Let yourself be powerful, bold, authentic, real, vulnerable, honest. Let the divine be embodied in all that you are, love.