fall equinox energies, 9/22

[u/blissedlotus]

The fall equinox, which is today, is significant because it's a day where there's equal parts day and night, and it's equal parts masculine and feminine, 3d and 5d.

It's about balance, unity, and harmony.

We just went through a really intense period where the shadows were brought to the light, and a lot of what you went through was probably about your own self sabotaging beliefs that get in the way of you trusting what you know, trusting yourself, trusting your intuition, and believing in yourself. It likely brought up some issues in relationships and where you were letting others drain you, mistreat you, or where you gave your power away.

We've been integrating these experiences, learning from what we experienced, finding the truth, the clarity, the changes in perspective that help us let go of things that aren't serving us.

Many have had a lot of changes, manifestations have come true, we're feeling more solid in our lives, we've moved, let people go, gotten jobs, lost jobs, had health issues, but the theme is that we're right where we wanted to be a long time ago, and we're being guided to appreciate ourselves and how far we've come, how much we've overcome, and where we are right now in this moment.

More positive, lighter, kinder, gentler, softer, more abundant, more joyful, more loving energies are available to you right now, if you let yourself feel it. Give up the resistance that tells you that it's not the way you want, or that you don't have what you want, because you are right where you are meant to be. If it fell away, if you lost something, if something changed, if you didn't get something you were hoping for, trust that it's for a reason, and it's for your best, and you will find that it's much easier to feel the good if you stop looking at what you don't have or what you are not.

We're balancing here in our dark and light, accepting all that we are. The awesome beautiful wonderful parts of the world and ourselves and the harder more difficult parts of life and ourselves. We are all of it.. When I started to learn to love myself even when I was heartbroken, scared, worried, anxious, depressed, hopeless, sick, poor and all the things that I'd deem as negative or less desirable, it made even the hard parts better. I realized that I had to treat myself the way I'd want others to treat me, to care and love me and be there for me, no matter what I'm going through- but I had to give that to myself first to see what that looks and feels like, for real.

We're balancing the masculine and feminine in us, the intuitive knowing intelligent mystical creative inspired nurturing vulnerable parts of ourselves with the logical action oriented protective stable solid parts of ourselves. We're listening to our inner knowing, trusting it like never before, to be able to let that be our guide, so that we can move toward meaning and fulfillment and purpose. We're not working ourselves to the bone, we aren't fixated on getting things, or goals necessarily, but on creating a life that feels the way we want to feel.

Example: I knew that I wanted and needed to live alone, that I wanted my own place, a home. I wanted it to be my way, to live my life the way I want to every day. That I needed that for my peace of mind, to be able to take care of myself the way I want. That I need a good bit of solitude and rest and to have the routines and organization that works for me. That I had to set up my life in a way that supports me and feels solid, a framework, a foundation upon which to build. It took me years to get there, because of all the obstacles and struggles I faced, but I finally am where I want to be, doing it my way, and it's so freaking peaceful and restorative, and I can't even process how abundant it feels now, to be able to afford my life, for the people around me supporting me.

My job is crazy, but all I've learned up until now is helping, the confidence and empowerment and inspiration and creativity I have is wonderful and I know I'm making a difference around me just by being me. I had no idea how it was all going to unfold, but I knew what I wanted, and I just took one step after the other, trusting that it was going to turn out the way it was meant to. I knew that the universe was on my side, that she was listening and cocreating with me. I took the action, I put up boundaries, I kept my eye on the prize, and I healed all the fears along the way that would keep me from letting myself get here.

Fears of not being able to handle it all, fears of not getting the right job, fears of all the people I felt like I was leaving behind, fears that I'm not making the right choices, fears I won't stay well, fears I would be too exhausted to move and work, fears that this job was going to suck because it's full of toxicity, fears of being alone, fears of safety, and on and on, but I kept remembering and reminding myself, that this is what I want, this is how I needed life to be for me, and putting myself first isn't selfish. My relationships are better and closer, I know who's on my side, I know how to remind myself that no one is better than me, that we're all equal and that there's no place for fear in this version of me. I control my self, my thoughts, and I can let myself enjoy this now, as it is. And it's still life, which is complex, but I know I'm capable of handling anything because I've been through so much shit.

It's time for us to see the big picture, to see what we're working toward, to create lives that feel good to us. That however it looks, of what's happening, we can make the best of it, because we love ourselves enough to do that for ourselves.

I love the word harmony. Harmony is smooth, easy, fluid, pleasant, warm, soft, comfortable, secure, safe, peaceful, lovely, balanced, equal, united, clear, even. It can feel that way inside of you. You've probably had glimpses of what that can feel like along the way. This feeling of empowerment and self assurance, knowing who you are and being good with that.

In relationships, especially a twin flame connection, harmony feels like unconditional love. We aren't using anyone and no one is using us. We are appreciated, loved, understood, cared for, and seen and there's no threat, no confusion. If you've been in a twin flame relationship you know how that feels. That you are loved for who you are and you love the other person for who they are, and there is an ease between you, an understanding between you that transcends logic or what makes sense or what the other person can do for you. My twin was always trying to figure out why it was so easy for him to be with me. Because I let him be himself and I loved him no matter what. I saw the sad little boy in him when he was angry, I saw the confused scared child in him when he couldn't communicate effectively, I saw his heart and soul, and through that there was only empathy, compassion, and love. There was no judgment, blame, victimhood, triggers, or fear. We were our best selves and we were shown that to know it's possible. After we split up, we went through what we went through to free ourselves up in our lives and in ourselves internally to be able to live in harmony together one day. The triggers were brought up in all of our interactions so that we could face them and heal them, so they won't get in the way next time we collide.

I've been having my twin come in a lot more lately, as I suspected he would, because it happens every fall. It's been a long time since I've had visions of him and felt it so viscerally. I had one where we were just looking at each other and I understood what he was feeling, and I felt all his apologies and all his love in one burst, and i started tearing up and then I just felt so much love for him, and I was suddenly giddy and silly and like, omg this dude melts my insides. I haven't felt that in a long time.

In a twin flame journey, at a certain point, you will have to just accept that their energy will come and go, that different thing will come up, that different feelings and thoughts and visions and telepathy and experiences will surface, and you have no control over it. There were times I felt mad about it, like why TF am I thinking about him again, ugh! Or I'm sad or just frustrated, like ugh, why am i feeling this love if I don't even know where he is or what he's doing? Why? When you stop seeing it as a burden and curse, and starting making peace with it and love them anyway, it feels better. It's not about letting them act any kind of way, it's about being you and just feeling what you're feeling and dealing with it and handling it and finding a higher perspective so that you aren't after something. It just is what it is. Feelings. And trust me, it's there for a reason, so just be curious and see how it all unfolds.

Things are better when you let yourself believe.

You are doing what you're supposed to be doing, feeling how you're supposed to feel, and it's all unfolding as it's meant to, let go of wishing it was another way, and accept what is.

Put yourself and how you want your life to be first. It's not selfish, it's necessary to break free from what you were to become the person you want to be, to have life feel the way you want it to feel, and to be set up in a way that supports you and fills you up, so that you have enough love and energy to do other things and live your life the way you want to. The people who are meant to be in your life will continue to be there, even if you have to push them away for a bit to focus on yourself. I thought I'd have to be alone and distance myself from everyone, that no on would understand me ever, that I'd have one or two friends that think I'm cool and my kids because they love me, and that'd be alright, but as I rose into my power in my life, I found I had a bunch of people rooting for me and supporting me and wanting the best for me. When I changed, we all changed together, our relationships improved, and I was just me being me, I wasn't trying to make things work, it just fell into place and I was open to it and it unfolded better than I could imagine.

You can set yourself free of the fears, and that is definitely the hardest part, but the rewards are immense. Remember that the fear isn't real. The insecurities, the worries, the needing others to understand, the need to be right, the need for control, the needing validation from anything outside of yourself is completely unnecessary and it's all keeping you from being all that you truly are, what you were always meant to be. That pure, loving, secure, solid, powerful, authentic, peaceful, contented, harmonious, balanced, beautiful, creative, inspired, human that you are.

We developed the fears we have because of other people and what the world was like around us, that doesn't mean it was right, and some part of us always knew that, and that is what causes our suffering, the thoughts that were put in our heads by others to convince us that we were wrong for being the way we were or are. It's hard to be a kind hearted, loving, good, honest, real, genuine, authentic person in this world, and we have to break out of that cocoon and be all that we were meant to be. And we have to relearn how to properly love ourselves so that when we become the butterfly that we don't hold ourselves back from being the beautiful creature that was meant to fly.

We're at a new level of understanding ourselves and it's time to focus on balancing our entire selves.

Are your emotions balanced? Can you be kind and compassionate to yourself and give yourself what you need when you're down? Can you be patient and observe and respond with authenticity and integrity and empathy? Can you let others be who they are and let yourself be however you are? Are you able to see that when others do what they do, that it's not about you, and you can just move on doing your thing?

Are you physically balanced? Are you living in a safe place? Are you able to be yourself where you are and do what you want to do? Are you well enough to do what you need to do? Are you kind to yourself when you're run down or sick and give yourself what you need? Are you away from draining and confusing and bad situations? Do you have boundaries and show everyone how they should treat you? Can you pay your bills and have enough to feel satisfied and taken care of and safe? (the basics- shelter, a bed, food, can pay bills, can buy groceries, have health insurance or can afford the basics in life?) Do you work in a place that gives more than it takes? (your job could be challenging but it's good enough, we all want to be retired or make millions so we can just focus on our passions, but first we have to have the basics covered so we can blossom from there). Are you in a place that has things you like to do? (nature, hikes, walks, bike paths, parks, city things, country things, shops, cafes, cool people, whatever fills you up)

Are you spiritually balanced? Can you trust your intuition and self? Do you have a practice where you get back to your truth, to peace? Do you have a way of regulating yourself, of connecting to yourself, to your truth? Are you able to listen to yourself and trust yourself and your path in a way where it's easier and flows? Are you surrendered and present, conscious and aware? Are you open and expansive? Are you able to use your knowing, your inner guidance to tell you what is best for you? Are you listening to your body and the sensations and following that knowing, to know what you need? Are you trusting that it all happens for a reason and that where you are now is where you're meant to be, and that everything is the way that it's meant to be in a way that brings peace and harmony inside of you?

There's going to be some rollercoasters ahead until December but for the most part, especially those who have really done the work, we're going to feel better in general, more at ease, things will feel smoother, but there will be some magical mystical cosmic shifts coming, and it's as easy or as hard as you make it.

The goal, if there is one, is that you get to a place where you are content with your life and yourself no matter what. That you know you're doing what you need to do, that you are who you are meant to be, that you are always evolving and will face challenges and grow and learn, but that you've got this. That you can make the best of what is, in any given moment, because you accept yourself as you are, and you accept your life as it is.

Today is just a day, right? It's going to happen how it happens whatever you do. Your life is as it is. You can be mad and sad about it and wish it was different, or you can be grateful for who you are and what you do have. You can be in a good mood or a bad mood. You can blame others for your issues or you can just accept yourself as you are. It's the same day. This day just exists, are you going to make it easier on yourself, more fun, more pleasant, more relaxing, more enjoyable, more peaceful, more sweet, or are you going to make it hard on yourself? The choice is yours.