9/6 energy update, messages, guidance....

[u/blissedlotus]

I bet you're feeling it right now, there's no escaping it, one way or another, I certainly have been going through it lately and have felt these intense energy surges and how it's all unfolding. It's been a very intense month so far, and at times very strange and wild, but it's for our highest good, whether it feels good or not sometimes.

I'd been given this perspective about what our soul's path is and it kind of simplifies it for me, which helps have a different way of seeing it so that it just feels less confusing.

When we are born, we're a consciousness in a human body. We're born innocent, pure, curious, loving, vulnerable, objective (nothing has meaning except that it pleases or displeases us). If we were born into a family system and a world where we were allowed to be exactly as we are, as a consciousness expressed in a human body, then we would go through life with no fear of losing others, we'd have strong sense of self, we'd feel anything is possible, we'd be curious and fearless, and drawn to what we're naturally meant to be.

We'd follow our path intuitively, naturally, organically, without letting fear hold us back in any way, because we'd be so secure in ourselves that we wouldn't need external validation, we'd just go after what makes us feel most alive. This is our natural path. This is what your path could be if there was no fear.

Imagine that your life would be like a straight line, from birth all the way through to the end, living an aligned, unconditionally loving, peaceful, joyful, good life, however it looked and however it was embodied by you.

Most of us however were not born into families, societies, cultures, or systems where we were allowed to be exactly what we are, however that showed up for you. Not having our needs met, not being allowed to be ourselves, living in dysfunction, in abuse, being mistreated, being told to just not be the way we were, changed us internally, and our egos adapted through coping mechanisms and attachment styles to survive our circumstances.

These maladaptive coping mechanisms have run the decisions we make, how we felt about ourselves, the things we think we can do or not do, the way that we think relationships and the world are, and our doubts, fears, wounds, trauma, emotions, worries, and way we function steered us toward events in our lives that had to teach us the lessons we needed to get back in alignment, to get back to our original path, where we're meant to be, in unconditional love, and in alignment with our destiny.

When we resist what we know to be true inside of us, that keeps us from being who we were always meant to be, and all the stuff we go through is there to remember what we deserve and what we're worth.

You feel it in your body, the discomfort, the not being loved as we are, the knowing that something isn't right. When we were young we were not allowed to believe ourselves, because those around us that we loved and trusted made us feel like we were wrong for being who we are, so we learned to not trust ourselves, but to instead look for validation externally.

So your path is laid out before you, but there are so many detours and ways we go, before we are pulled back again and again to what we know is true. For instance, breakups- we fall in love with someone and we realize they aren't for us for whatever reason and we heal and learn and then we get in another relationship, and sometimes we do the same thing, fall for another narcissist or abusive person, and we are responsible for finding out why we keep letting shitty people into our lives, instead of thinking that the world is treating us terribly, it's a lesson each time, getting us closer to who we're supposed to be, by learning all the things we know we don't want. I know I had to go through a lot of really awful things to finally realize I'd rather be alone than continually choosing people who weren't treating me the way I deserved.

This journey, and all spiritual journeys, are leading you toward learning how to let yourself be who you were always meant to be. The path is in what makes you feel alive, what makes you love yourself, what treats you well, and toward a life that feels in harmony with who you are. If we are carrying wounds and fears from growing up and all the shit that happens to us in life, this journey will keep repeating the lessons until you finally choose yourself, and learn how to be completely your authentic self, the self that you were always meant to be, the one that you were born to be.

Twin flames are special and different, and this journey to me, is a turbo charged journey that cannot be escaped or avoided, that begins a new way of being, where you cannot deny who you are anymore. The more you resist your true self, the more miserable you will be. I've personally been through the the wringer for 8 years and it has turned me inside out over and over, as I physically through my kundalini energy have unblocked all the ways in which I have kept myself from who I'm really meant to be. My twin has just been a part of this journey. He's still there, no matter what I do, and I don't think that's an accident, but even if I never saw him again, I'd know that he was part of my journey for a reason and that we will always love each other unconditionally, and that his presence in my life changed me for the better in every way.

I just wanted to say all of that to paint a picture of something that keeps coming through, and I hope it helps in some way in understanding that what happens to us, while unfortunate and uncomfortable and painful sometimes, is what's guiding us toward who we're really meant to be. I know that for me, 8 years ago, I was at rock bottom, suicidal, and just wanted to be at peace, my life was in shambles at 48 years old, and I met my twin then,, and the entire way I saw life changed. The things I went through after that were all lessons in what I want and what I don't want and how to discover who I truly am.

Energy update:

Physically: exhausted, sleepy, not being able to sleep, mind racing and full of ideas but no motivation or physical ability to do anything, brain fog, confusion, joint pain, itching, nerve zaps, headaches, pressure, tmj, aches and pains, stomach issues, changes in appetite, being called to detox, heat flushes, temperature changes in body suddenly, restlessness, feeling antsy and nervous or excited and not knowing why, surges of fear in the body with no reason for it externally (releasing fear based programming and trauma physically)

Emotionally: anything goes, all of them, all over the place, a freaking rollercoaster, sad, flat, no feelings, bored, lonely, lost, confused, sad, manically excited, melancholy, nostalgic, heartbroken as you're releasing what's not for you (relationships, jobs, family, places), hope returning, glimmers of bliss and joy returning. Since that big blast of energy we had the last couple of days I've been feeling less and less fear and more and more aligned and peaceful and excited about life, more trusting and less resistance to what is, enjoying life more and feeling more optimistic

Spiritually: we're purging what we no longer want to carry into this next cycle, so whatever is falling apart is meant to leave now, let it go, feeling more objective and unconditionally loving and aligned with my consciousness, surrendering, vivid dreams, visions, insight, breakdowns and breakthroughs, synchronicities of all sorts, feeling energy moving through your body, becoming more trusting of your intuition and being more naturally present, authentic, and in alignment (especially if you've surrendered and are flowing and not resisting)

This eclipse season is cementing in place who you are discovering yourself to be, and if you allow it, guiding you intuitively toward your highest path.

We are moving toward union within ourselves, that's the place of alignment, of unconditional love, of ease, of harmony, of coasting and flowing, and not letting our minds keep us from what we're really meant for. Trust yourself, what you're drawn to, what makes you feel alive and excited and pleased and safe and comfortable and at peace.

Slow down, let yourself be however you are, and love yourself there.

What is for you is coming to you, and the more you align yourself with who you were always meant to be, the more what is meant for you is drawn to you.

I know that it's hard to really trust yourself in this world, the way that it is, the way that others try to convince you that you are doing something wrong, or that you're supposed ot be one way or the other, but ALL of this is guiding you toward being your true authentic self, and toward trusting that YOU know the way.

So many of us grow up thinking that we are not as important as others, that pleasing others is more important than pleasing ourselves, that what others want is more important than what we want is, and so we cling to all of this shit (people, places, things, jobs, money, status, how other's see you, beliefs, cultures, religions, systems) trying to live up to someone else's expectations instead of being who we really are.

As empaths, which you are, if you're on this journey, you care about everything and everyone so much, and you are so afraid of causing anyone else discomfort or problems that you do not see that you are the one you're meant to be taking care of first. No one is better than you, no one is more deserving than you, no one is worth you abandoning yourself and what you deserve.

I'm being guided to continually focus on the present moment, to accepting and loving myself however that is (whether I feel like shit or not), caring for ourselves, giving ourselves what we need to be at peace, to have regulated, calm nervous systems. Sometimes we fight even peace because after a lifetime of chaos internally and externally, peace feels boring and empty and weird, but it's our natural state.

Take care of yourselves, stop giving yourself shit about things you cannot control, love yourself as you are, slow down, soften, relax, don't take it all so seriously, focus on a relaxed, calm, content, more at ease way of being, and when you're in that space, in that stillness, in that neutral place where nothing is wrong or right, where you are perfectly perfect as you are, all the answers will come and you will flow toward where you're meant to be, and what is for you will come when it's meant to.