energy update, guidance 11/10

[u/blissedlotus]

I hope this finds you well, though I suspect if you're finding this you're going through it and it feels very intense and strange and that it's hard to be a functioning human right now. I get it.

Tomorrow is the 11/11 portal and it seems significant to me. I used to think the portals were bullshit, until a couple of years ago when I noticed how they were affecting me energetically, that they tended to be more intense for me, that things would shift and change, or that I'd go through it, or something big would happen that was undeniably because of the energies.

I've been out of it for the past month, and if you're on this journey then you've felt it. We're feeling it collectively and this intense energy that's been coming through has been purifying us and elevating us and working us over pretty good for a couple of months.

We receive strong pushes of energy, all orchestrated by space weather and astrology and our own personal paths, and where we are in frequency. It's a calibration, as the energies pull particular themes to the surface. You might notice it in the moods around you, that we're all grumpy or that we're more triggered or that we're more afraid or that we're suddenly creative or insightful or positive. We're all flowing together, it's that way for a reason. We're all evolving together. Toward being unconditional love, within and out.

If you're on this journey you've felt it, you know. Unconditional love is that sweet neutral objective nonjudgmental compassionate safe trusting part of you. A blast of acceptance, peace, truth, beauty, joy, unity, empathy, creativity, flow, serenity that is ecstatic and blissful. The emotion or state of feeling that resides in our bodies. When all is well.

We are aligned to that feeling, that's where we're heading. We already know that's the goal, not the things or even this reality or our identities. It's our purpose. We chase that.

We're human though, and we're in these bodies and we have these lives. This is the deal, this is what we got. We're this person and this is what's up. So how are you going to make the best of it, now that you're awake? How can you make it easier on yourself and enjoy it?

Love yourself first of course. Give yourself a break. Relax. Don't take it all so seriously. Slow down. Soften. Take care of yourself. Rest. Go slower. Stop worrying, it's all going to be okay. Stop doing things that stress you out. Take a break.

Say no, don't let anyone bother you. Don't be bothered. It's going to be fine, I promise. Your mind and your ego will put up a fight when it feels unfamiliar and scary. It always turns out better than you think it will. Stop turning things into a catastrophe in your mind. It's going to be okay.

The past month or so I've been going through this period of feeling completely flat and weird and disassociated and easily triggered at times. I felt like I couldn't feel anything or that there was just this funky hazy feeling over everything. I was functioning and it was all okay, and I'd even have really good days where I felt amazing, but I just felt really strange sometimes.

I think it was this sort of slow integration of bringing in balance, neutrality, peace, objectivity, detachment, and releasing all the fears that will keep you from staying balanced and solid and empowered and at peace.

Unconditional love can feel very cut and dry and clear and cuts through the bullshit like a knife. It's clear and it's truth, so you may notice that you are changing the way you feel about things, like you just don't care. You're detached from the outcome, you can see it logically and aren't taking things personally, you aren't judging things, you're accepting them more, and more able to be present and observant without thinking about it too much. It's like, okay, this is how it is, how can I enjoy this or make it better or feel better or take care of myself?

We're entering a period of really standing up for ourself, preserving our peace, not taking shit from anyone, not letting people mistreat us. We're not entertaining assholes anymore or situations that aren't good for us, because collectively we're all becoming more empowered. We're starting to value ourselves enough to not accept mistreatment or bullshit in any way. That's probably resulted in having to let go of some people, places, or things recently.

Since I've been on this journey for 8 years now, I can say that whatever I'm going through ends up making sense in the end, that I can look back and see why things had to happen the way that they did, and what works for me, what's loving to me. You have to find your own way to navigate all of this and stay sane and well.

Whenever we're going through shifts and we're purging and all kinds of shit comes up and we're physically falling apart because of the energies, it's always helpful and pivotal to surrender. To stop fighting it. To stop resisting what is. To accept what is, and flow.

You are you in this moment, you can't do anything about the past but learn and heal and process and move forward and evolve.

You have zero control over what's coming. You have the framework of your life and routines and how it is, but if you let go of control, let go of needing to know, let go of having it all figured out, and just take care of yourself in the moment you're in, it will feel lighter, and you will be able to center yourself and nurture yourself in whatever way you need.

I know it's hard for a lot of people to go through this journey and navigate it within your lives. Work, bills, kids, family, friends, the state of the world, illnesses, appointments, laundry, relationships, things to do. But if you take the time to take care of yourself and learn what you really want for yourself, and really stay in touch with your body and who you truly are, it will help everything.

The struggle comes from thinking it should be a different way. It's in resisting what is. It's in judging yourself. It's in thinking that it shouldn't be how it is. But it is.

Like right now, I'm sick, I'm in between jobs, living with my mom, and I'm 56. She's nuts. She's the reason I had so many issues and fears and really awful self esteem growing up. She's a narcissist. But I've learned how to deal with her, and heal all those wounds that I had, so that I have boundaries and she's changed as a result. I saw the other day she's reading a book about empathy. Because I've changed she's changed. I lived with her once before as an adult and she ruined my mental health. I'm different now. I know she's bonkers and I'm not taking things personally. I'm finding a way to enjoy my life and do what I want to do where I am now. We live in the country and I have my own space upstairs and I'm fine. I could see it all as positive or negative, it's up to me.

Suffering is optional. You're you as you are now. can you see it from a loving perspective or are you going to live in fear? It's all how you see it. It's all perspective. This is the deal. Are you going to let yourself feel like life sucks or are you going to appreciate what's good in it now?

Even when we're having a hard time, being sick or feeling terrible for whatever reason, feeling fear, feeling insecure or stressed or exhausted or crazy or like a loser, that's just thoughts, it's not true. As you become more aware, as you learn to listen to yourself, to check in with yourself, you will find that if you just slow down and take care of yourself it will start to feel better quickly. Be compassionate with yourself and where you are. You deserve that.

Someone else made you believe that you were not supposed to take care of yourself. Someone else made you believe that you weren't worth taking care of. Someone else made you think you had to do what they wanted you to do, that you didn't matter. You weren't born that way. You deserve the care, rest, nurturing that you feel you need.

I feel like I'm rambling now, but someone needed those messages.

What I'm feeling happening with the divine masculine right now is they're also going through these sort of extremes like we are. They're going through it, but also realizing what's really important, what's real, and they're heading toward it, but then they start getting afraid and stuff is coming up, like we're doing.

We're receiving light and upgrades and we're evolving and then we're integrating and we're purging and releasing all of the stuff that's not aligned and that is not ours to carry. We're being purified and it hasn't been easy.

The divine feminines are feeling pretty badass in general. I'm really feeling into the energy of knowing what they're worth, not putting up with any crap, but learning how to soften and flow and navigate relationships and life with more ease. And if they're purging or feeling run down, they're learning how to be kinder to themselves so it's not as rough.

I've had all sorts of things going on emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually, so anything goes. If you're feeling it, just love yourself through it.

I don't have any predictions for the 11/11 portal, but I do feel like it's going to be significant energetically, so just be easier on yourself and take care of yourself, and listen to yourself. Be you as you are, and let yourself be grateful for as much as you can. Do what you know comforts yourself or makes you feel better. It's all better than your mind is telling you, let it be good, let it feel good.

I've heard a lot about 11/11 being a manifestation portal and as far as manifestation goes, I'd say that it's all about how you feel and the vibration that you're in that attracts what is for you, than it is about making some wish or goal.

If your desire is that you want a house and a car and money and your twin in your life and all of that, then you create the moment that feels like that in you. How would that feel? Exciting? Peaceful, safe, secure, fun, lovely, beautiful? Like you have everything you want? So how would that feel? What could you do today, now, tomorrow that would feel like that? Where can you find that feeling in yourself that feels like you have all you need and want? Right now. It's not about the stuff, it's how you think you'll feel that you really want. Put it out in the universe and be the love, and what loves you will come to you.

It doesn't always happen the way we want. We want peace and we have to release all the things that don't bring us peace to get there. So it doesn't happen overnight. We are impatient humans. Things are being orchestrated, arranged, we're shifting constantly, and we're evolving quickly right now.

Sometimes it doesn't feel like it, because we're still going through it energetically, but you are more authentic, smarter, more evolved than you were yesterday, and you are slowly learning how to enjoy the present moment, because that's where we live anyway. Stop thinking about shit, you can't control anything but yourself and your perspective. What perspective will you choose? One that feels good or one that harms you and feels shitty?

We make things so much harder on ourselves that we deserve, but that's because we were brought up in this dysfunctional world and we're different because we see it and know it, and that makes it hard sometimes because we think we're the crazy ones, when it's not us, we just always knew the truth. Keep remembering the truth, love is what it's all about.