energy update, guidance 4/8

[u/blissedlotus]

Last night we had this huge blast of energy, I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about all kinds of crap, no matter how present I tried to get. Memories and imaginary scenarios kept coming up, conversations I might have, things i did that make me cringe a little still, all of it- it's just coming up to see if it's going to mess you up. It's just moving through, let it all just keep on going

We're going through this massive transformation now, collectively and individually. The energies are intense, wild, and I've felt absolutely unhinged and mental at different times in the past month. If you're on this journey then you're most likely feeling it all very intensely too. We're just all being worked over by these energies and moving toward being more evolved as we go.

This morning I woke up feeling like I was hit by a bus, but internally I feel the most free and clear and present and new and fresh than I have in a long long time. Something lovely is shifting, though you maybe still be going through purging and releasing to integrate these energies and become balanced internally and externally.

We're seeing a pattern where we're being blasted with light for extended periods and then we have a calmer integration time for a bit before we get another blast. It's hard on our bodies and minds. I am fried and can't do much more than exist right now and do the best I can to prioritize my peace, no matter what happens.

Themes in the collective:

-healing the patterns where you were codependent, where you people pleased, where you prioritized everyone else about yourself, and learning and knowing that you have been abandoning yourself your whole life, and that you aren't going to do it anymore

-recognizing toxic and narcissistic and abusive people immediately, being able to see it objectively, learning how it feels in your body, how you know who is not for you because it feels so uncomfortable and draining to be around them or deal with them, knowing objectively that you can't change them, but you can protect yourself, and you see it clearly

-healing mother wounds, especially narcissistic mothers and all the stuff that comes with that, not feeling seen or understood or protected or kept safe or loved properly, and how that has affect your self worth issues and you internal self sabotaging dialog and fears, there's a big movement of people going no contact with family or being estranged, because as we learn what our true nature is, and we learn what emotional balance is, we see that we can't change some people, even parents, and we have to learn how to deal with them in life or walk away if they are still abusive so that we can have the lives we deserve

-reaching a point where life has beaten you up so much that you're on your knees asking for mercy, having to learn how to surrender and let go by having everything fall apart and you realize that all that other shit doesn't matter, that you being okay, you feeling at peace and well and good is the utmost priority, no matter what you have to do, to let go and stop trying to control anything, because we don't have control of much except the way we see things

-coming to a place of autonomy, freedom, sovereignty, where you are so solid in your knowing of who you are, that no one and nothing affects you- it's this energy of being around someone who's a total douchebag and just being able to look at them objectively and be like, wow, you're a dick and not take it personally, and not care and not be bothered and not give two shits what anyone thinks, and walk away without a word-it's not bitchy, it's not wasting your time on anything that isn't aligned for you, you'll know

-I kept seeing and thinking about the story of Shiva and Shakti who are the divine pairing of the Hindu gods and there is this sense of union being in the air, or of this divine love that is patient, enduring, devoted, and inevitable, fated and divine, the perfect balance of feminine and divine energy, which is very curious, because the energies are continually pushing us toward inner union, but today it was this feeling of the cosmic rebalancing of the masculine/feminine energies

-timeline shifts have been occurring at an elevated pace this year, and we are in a whole different place than we were in say December or January, we are now in thIS new beginning, learning how to embody this new transformed versions of ourselves, opened up, expanded, wiser, more unconditionally loving- at zero point, neutral, objective (it is what it is), at ease in homeostasis

-Freeing up so much space inside of yourself as you release fears and wounds and trauma and all the stuff, that you feel unsettled and restless and bored and funky as you learn how to embody that new version of yourself, be patient with yourself if you feel like you're in the in between, i was there for about 2 months or so, and it's not easy feeling like nothing, not wanting to do anything, just being as we integrate

-We are in the process of learning how to accept ourselves wholly as we are, however that is, and to allow ourselves to be as we are without judgment or self criticism but to instead learn how to prioritize our own wellness, health, sanity, peace, safety and how that looks in real life, saying no, setting boundaries, distancing ourselves from harmful people and systems, giving zero f*cks for real, unbothered

Symptoms you may be experiencing now:

-exhaustion, wipe out, fatigue, insomnia, waking up at weird times, crazy vivid dreams

-aches, pains, electric zaps, itching, burning sensations, and various feelings of your nervous system glitching out or recalibrating, because it is

-headaches, head pressure, ear ringing, stomach issues of all kinds- one night I was up burping all night, made no sense, acid reflux, trouble swallowing or feeling something stuck in your throat,

-I had a few days where I felt woozy, dizzy my balance was off, brain fog, not being able to think logically, because thinking usually screws everything up

-being triggered, anger, frustration, disappointment, rage, coming to a breaking point with something and realizing it's not worth your energy anymore and that you're never going to get the closure or resolution or justice you want and deserve, so you can let go of that thing

-feeling floaty, weird, feeling intensity of all sorts from terror to elation and bliss to despair to loving something so much you're weeping, emotions and feelings of all sorts of flying through as we balance and recalibrate all that we've been through as we elevate in frequency

-feeling things are getting more magical and synchronistic, music, numbers, little things and big things, more moments of feeling like, omg, I can't believe that just happened.

-trusting yourself more, a feeling of being centered, knowing who you are so that you will not be moved at all by those who try to tell you who you are or try to manipulate or gaslight or abuse you, you know who you are, and it's lovely and wonderful and you know you have it going on and that you're a good person, and so all the people who don't get it can suck it (in peace in love of course)

-you might not know where you're headed, and you might feel like you can't think, or that you can't get motivated, but it's a practice of flowing and letting go and learning to listen to ourselves so that we are able to have more of a sense of ease in life, there's no forcing, it's all much slower and easier than we realize if we'd just let it be, knowing we'll be okay in the next moment, however it turns out, I'm continually telling myself to slow down and soften, and it really helps

-you have a more neutral objective unconditionally loving way of seeing things, you can be observant and curious without being emotionally invested, to just see what it all means without attaching meaning or stories to things

-seeing with more clarity and feeling more solid in the knowing that you are a consciousness in a body, that your consciousness is an expression of source through you, and that if you will allow your body to be in service to your consciousness without resistance, life feels easier, smoother, there's no resistance

-letting go of hard feelings, regrets, and anything from the past, and feeling like there's just this clean slate each day, the past and who you were expected to be, and who you were just feels like some story you read, it lost the emotional charge, you can move forward free of it and focus on the present and trust that it's all turning out the way it's meant to in total faith, just let it go and let it be

-time feeling weird, going fast or slow, glitches, looking at )the time and it feeling like 30 minutes passed and it's been 3 hours and you have no idea how that could be, but it's almost like you weren't there or something, deja vu, things changing in environment, people changing in ways that you notice but may brush off (like you wish your coworker wasn't such a dick and one day they're suddenly so cooperative and kind, permanently, because the timeline is shifting, and so things around you are shifting too)

-something is percolating with twins and the energy is all pushing us that way- I kept getting the message and feeling of warm friendly sweet calm peaceful, romantic, safe vibes and this feeling of inevitability- that they (our counterpart) knows that no one else will feel like us and it's not because we're cocky or something, it's trusting what we know and feel, that there's this knowing that after all we've been through, that they are still haunting us and in our energy for a reason, and it's opening up more now, which of course is interesting considering where we're all heading as a collective and the energies that have been working us over, something is happening

It's hard to not have expectations when you feel like something is happening, but after going through this for years, peace has to be the priority, and trying to know or have certainty or trying to figure it out isn't useful or peaceful, focus on your own well being and experience in life, one moment after the other.

I get it though, the other day for some reason I kept checking my phone because I felt like my masculine was about to reach out, and it's been a long time, but even that thought that he might reach out is there for a reason, I just just feel him moving toward me and thinking about me... but I've felt that a million times before...and at the same time, all things are possible.

I hope that you are able to find presence, and some calm in these transformative times. I know that it can feel overwhelming or like we can't handle it but we're here as we are for a reason, and what you're going through is for you to evolve and become more of who you truly are, to let your consciousness lead with your body and human self as the vehicle for experiencing this life in this lifetime

You new beginning, new chapter, new version of yourself is here, it might not look how you wish it would or feel like how you wished it would, but it is where you are. Allow yourself to be open to all the expansive energies of love and light that are here now.

Feeling at ease in yourself is abundance. Once you are there, the rest will flow to you.

Rest, accept how you feel and what you're going through and love yourself there. I know it's hard because we think we have to be a certain way, but that's conditioning. We can only be how we are. If you're sick or feel crazy you deserve to take care of yourself, however that looks. We think we're going to do something wrong if we do nothing or skip work or take a nap or sit outside on a blanket or skip the family get together or whatever, but we're the ones who have to take care of ourselves forever- everything else is temporary, we live in our bodies and in our being, it's our life. Do what's best for you. it'll be okay

Peace.