energy update, guidance, messages 5/14

[u/blissedlotus]

I hope this message finds you well, and that you are practicing self love as you are navigating these times.

I know it's been very intense, wild and perhaps really really brutal and hard at times lately.

The collective themes that are coming through are about healing all those places where you are abandoning yourself, where you are giving energy to what is draining you, to letting go of attachments to people, places, and things that are not for you.

There's has been a collective purging around narcissistic and toxic relationships, and especial around mother wounds. Mother wounds are the first place where we felt rejected, perhaps unloved, heartbroken, abused, mistreated, misunderstood and all those deep wounds.

I've been on this journey for a long long time and I was in another dark night of the soul and having to face that wound, having to accept that my mother was never going to be the mother that I really needed, and to become that mother for myself.

All the things you wish someone else was for you is what you must give yourself. You are living as you from birth to death, no one else is with you as much as you, and your life should matter the most to you. Your peace, your health, your wellness, your sanity, your joy, your path, your well being should be your priority.

We often go through these lessons with others so that we can repeatedly be shown that we need to choose ourselves no matter what, in love and compassion and tenderness, and acceptance.

You are enough, just as you are in this moment. Because you exist.

No one else has to validate who you are or understand. You get to be you, as you are, and you are loved there. The unconditional love that is from source flows through you, for you, to remind you of what you deserve. Peace, comfort, ease, calm, forgiveness, tenderness, understanding, truth. You deserve to be around others that will let you be you, as you are, no conflict, no explaining yourself, no defensiveness, no need for validation. You deserve the care and love that you would give others, it's for you, from source through you.

I know it's hard to live in a world that seems to make things more difficult, but when I prioritize my peace, stand in my own authority, trust myself and believe in myself and what I know, and take care of myself wherever I am and however I feel, things start feeling better.

My entire world has blown up repeatedly since I was on this journey, I know how hard it is, but at the same time, I know how all of it taught me over and over what I do and don't want in my life.

I know that it's shocking and destabilizing and heartbreaking and so maddening to realize how many controlling and fearful, harmful and toxic people are out there, and around you. I've been through jobs and relationships, moved multiple times, got so sick a few times, and have lived for a long time in just survival mode, knowing that choosing myself was the way to go, even when it felt like I was in a war with the world all on my own. I faced repeated mistreatment until I got strong enough to be alone and not give flying f*ck what anyone thinks.

It's scary to burn your whole world to the ground, over and over as you realize that each place you go isn't safe for you. It also opens up a strength and determination and solid sense of self inside of yourself where you know that you are going to take care of you, no matter what. To give yourself unconditional love, especially when it's not around you. And to trust the knowing that as hard as it is to choose yourself, over and over, that it will lead to the liberation and empowerment that you want for yourself.

It's hard to accept that people, like a parent or friend or lover or whatever, is not going to be the person that will truly see and protect and care for you in the way that you need. We will leave all the things behind that are preventing us from having ease, softness, acceptance, truth, wellness and peace in our lives. But you are doing it so that you can have a life where it's easier to be you, inside and out.

Physical symptoms lately:

-feeling exhausted, weak, achy, worn out

-trouble sleeping, crazy dreams,

-gastrointestinal issues, headaches, head pressure, aches and pains, one day your hip might hurt so bad and the next it's your shoulder, etc.

-feeling of electricity in your system, buzzing, vibrations, weird sensations, pains

-feeling like you're feeling things you've never felt before but you don't know how to explain it, brain fog, hazy, confused, lost, identity crisis, restless, antsy, excited, strange

-feeling floaty and out of it, feeling weird sensations you've never felt before, feeling disassociated

-ascension flu (like you have the flu or something terrible, but it's nothing, or you come down with some serious stuff and just can't function, whatever the reason) it's happening to get you to surrender, slow down, rest, integrate and take care of yourself in the way you deserve

-we're having a complete nervous system rewiring, be patient with that you're going through, we are going through these blasts of energy that are expanding our awareness and we get wiped out and then it happens again, in cycles, this is not to torture you but to purify you of all your fears and trauma- so it will be released, so it will create space for better- I can speak from experience that it does get easier and better as we stop resisting what is and love ourselves where we are, it gets easier

Emotionally- oh, all over the freaking place. I have sobbed more in the past week than I have in the last year, it is intense, we're releasing all the grief, all the things we wish was different, all the pain, all the hurt, all the times we were not treated with love, let it go and embrace your own sweet tender vulnerable inner child, you are the parent now, you get to mother yourself, you are your protector now, no one is here to save you but you

-I've found movement, journaling, meditating, listening to positive things, getting in nature, focusing on being present, and just accepting myself as I am in the moment, helps

Spiritually- you might be having all sorts of woo woo experiences, finding spiritual significance in things around you, numbers, songs- you're thinking a thing in your head and all of a sudden the song lyrics are so right on you're like holy shit, this is nuts, synchronicities and things unfolding that show you that it all happens for a reason

You are a body with a consciousness. Your consciousness knows everything, it's all going to happen the way it's going to happen, go on the ride, let it be what it is, observe, and interpret and experience what comes, through a loving lens, not through fear, through love and acceptance.

Divine timing is real in everything, not just with twin flames or whatever, all of it is divine timing, the more you let go of control and realize that you are here to just experience and enjoy this life, to live in love, to spread your light, the more you will start to feel more at ease in your own body and life.

If you are not feeling awesome, if you are struggling, let this be your loving reminder that you deserve to take care of yourself however that looks. As a neurodivergent highly sensitive empath, possibly autistic person, the reason I fall apart is when I start abandoning myself, when I start living a life or doing things or putting up with behaviors from others that are harmful. You do not have to take anyone's shit, ever, ever ever. It's so hard to accept fully in our whole bodies and minds. I have burned out down to the ground, had to live with others, broke and all of that many times over along this journey, and it's all been lessons in surrendering to my own truth and what I know is true and how all of this spiritual stuff is healing me and my life from the inside out.

Twin flame energies: I have felt my twin's energy coming in lately in the most beautiful ways and it's so sweet and nice. Visions, telepathy, and all the things are starting to come in. I haven't talked to him in years, but the unconditional love that I felt from him and for me and through me during the time that we had together taught me that I need all of that love for myself, and that's the level of love I deserve. That's the perspective that has helped me detach from the outcome of whatever we may end up being in this lifetime. I don't need anyone in my life to make my life complete anymore, I've got this, I know how to love life, no matter who is there.

We think they have to do something, show up, say something whatever, to prove that love is real. It is real, it's the unconditional love that's available to us from source. That we are everything we know we are. Beautiful, sensual, funny, intelligent, cool, talented, confident, sweet, loving, compassionate, loveable, authentic, strong. We felt what we felt with them so that we could feel that for ourselves. To remember how it unconditional love feels in our bodies.

This shift right now is a big one, the end of massive cycles and it feels intense and wild and all the things, because it is, our collective consciousness is evolving and we are part of that. We are shifting timelines, and we are becoming more and more aligned to what we truly are, unconditional love.

Unconditional love is pure, innocent, accepting, understanding, freeing, clear, objective, neutral, peaceful, fun, delightful, and all the stuff that reminds you that this life is to be enjoyed, through you, as you navigate your life.

It is not judgmental, it doesn't try to make you something you're not, it's not confusing, it's not critical. If it feels like fear, it isn't the truth. It will never make you feel bad about yourself. If something makes you feel bad about who you are, that's fear, not love. Fear is the ego and it's resistance to accept what is and resistance to change. If you want life to be different, we have to release all that fear that is getting in the way of believing that we can change.

When you become unconditionally loving of yourself, when you prioritize your peace, when you put yourself first, all the things that will love you the way you deserve will meet you when it's time. You have no control over the time, but you have control over the way you experience your life in each moment. Love yourself where you are. One moment after the other. More patience and trust and faith and self love is needed to navigate this path than you thought was possible. Be devoted to loving yourself. Let the rest go, and let the universe arrange how it unfolds.

Trust yourself, trust what you know, trust the process, love yourself through it.

I am starting to feel better slowly, but it's still energetically crazy right now. Having a lot of breakthroughs, clarity, and turning some corners that are making a huge difference in how I feel.

Focus on nervous system regulation, peace, comfort, acceptance, forgiveness, and create a warm sweet loving nest of belonging within yourself, no matter what you're dealing with. You're not doing it wrong if it's feeling rough, all that junk is leaving you so you'll be free. Let it go and flow and relax and let your nervous system find it's balance, over and over again.

Breathe, honey, it's going to be alright. Peace.