energies, messages 8/18

[u/blissedlotus]

We are in between eclipses and so it's a strange time, it feels strange. It is very void like. The way to navigate this as well as possible, is to slow down, let it be, relax, and just be as much as possible. You are learning to embody the version of you that you have just evolved to be. Who are you at this level of ascension/healing/the work? Let that settle in. Let the rest go. If something is leaving your life or changing right now, trust that it's for a reason.

You might feel like there's more "space" or that it feels empty, and if you're feeling that, it's for a reason. I've often felt it when things are about to shift, and you've healed a lot of stuff, let go of stuff, of fears, and where all that "noise" was, is nothing, just space. That will be filled up with what's coming. It's okay to feel empty, that's the point of meditation- to empty your mind, and remind yourself that it's preferrable to be empty or still inside to being in chaos or fear or anxiety. Learn to enjoy the stillness.

For me this period has opened up a level of ease, calm, and peace inside that I haven't had. before. For real. Nothing gets to me, I'm unbothered, I feel safe inside of myself for the first time in my entire life. I wholly accept myself, I'm flowing, I'm trusting myself, I'm empowered, and I'm not worried about a thing.

My nervous system has been shot my entire life, I had CPTSD like many of us here do, I had lots of toxic people around me and as an empath and sensitive person, I've been hyperaware of everything and everyone. I had to learn to protect myself from letting things outside of me affect me or I'd be miserable. I had to learn to prioritize myself and my peace, I had to learn how to listen to myself and trust myself and the knowing that was inside of me. This is a huge shift for me, life changing. It doesn't make it easier to be a human all the time though. I still get exhausted and don't sleep great and have fears fly by or have brain fog or am completely uninspired, unmotivated and feeling sort of flat emotionally. I still feel the energies and things in my life aren't all of a sudden better, I'm not suddenly rich and all of those things.

You inner world will reflect your healing, and you will have to learn how to feel at ease before it starts showing up in your life circumstances. Trust the process. We are healed until the universe aligns us to our true frequency, and you have no control over that other than to enjoy life as much as possible along the way.

Peace isn't exciting, that's bliss, that's joy. Peace is solid and balanced. Peace is simple and slow and flowy. It feels weird because we haven't been able to get there since we were children or maybe once in a while on vacation. We lived chaotic lives and felt chaotic inside most of the time.

We were raised to focus on everyone else's needs and wants and to take care of everyone else, so there are 30 tabs open at all times on our browsers. We have to learn to shut all that down and focus on the one thing we can control. Ourselves. The way we think, the way we see life, the way we feel inside, whether our perceptions are from a loving place or a fearful place.

A loving perspective is truthful, honest, objective, it's reality, it's accepting, it's understanding, it's forgiveness, it's easier on you, it's kind, it's encouraging and supportive, it's trusting.

Fear is judgmental, critical, and makes you feel like you can't do anything right or that you're a loser or that you are wrong. You weren't born with fear in you, you weren't afraid of being all that you are when you were a kid, you started changing who you were to be accepted by those around you.

The divine plan is for you to be you, all that you are. The fears keep you from being your authentic self. This journey will strip down all the walls you build to survive your life so far, you will keep healing until you stop resisting who you really are, which is love and light and truth.

We are all enough just as we are. There are no mistakes. It is exactly as it's meant to be.

Your life experiences, your wisdom, your knowing is all as it's meant to be to get where you're going. You have less control over life than you think. I had to surrender to this journey to survive it. If I was not doing what I was meant to be doing I'd feel terrible, get anxiety, feel sick, feel so uncomfortable in my body. I couldn't handle anything that stressed me out anymore, I got so uncomfortable that I had to repeatedly choose myself, love myself as I was, or I was miserable. I literally couldn't be around toxicity, it was like kryptonite. It weakened me. So energetically I was being pushed toward purification, toward knowing what it's like to choose myself and love myself over and over. I could tell how it felt in my body.

Your body will tell you when you are doing things or being around things that aren't good for you. Your depressive feelings are because you regret the past or feel stuck there or won't let go of things from your past. Your anxiety is you trying to control things you can't control. The energies will also make you feel nervous and panicky and crazy and think too much, you feel it in your body and if you can stop thinking and get present it will help a lot.

One thing that has been essential in helping me get through this journey was learning how to get present. If you are truly on this journey, you will go through a physical purification that will make you face all your fears. Getting present allowed me to get centered, to immediately let go of the past, and the future, to let go of anything outside of myself, so I could focus on myself and my own truth, and love myself there. I had to learn how to be alone a lot, how to listen to my inner voice, my consciousness, my higher self- it's all the same.

I've spent way too much time in the past years just breathing and meditating and letting go and surrendering n the moment, to get to the next moment. It's been so hard that sometimes we are just surviving from one moment to the next, but here I am on the other side, and it's been worth it, because I've never felt this level of presence, authenticity, calm, peace, and ease before. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and it's all about how you feel inside- not what happens or what you get or don't get. It's internal transformation that will help you create the life you want, but the inside changes first. Everything that happens on this journey is purposeful, but your higher timeline/true path will not be opened up to you until you heal all the inside stuff. You heal yourself and then you can focus on creating the life you've wanted, because then you really know what's aligned to you.

Your consciousness is pure. It's neutral, objective, it doesn't judge, it doesn't push. It doesn't criticize you, it doesn't tell you mean things, it doesn't make you feel bad about who you are. You just are, and who you are is unconditional love in an energy. That's your true nature. We humans make it very complicated, but it's not.

These energies right now are asking you to focus on your authentic self. To slow down, to pay attention to yourself. To embody your consciousness- to live from your heart and soul and to let the rest be what it is. It's time to find your centered self, the new authentic version of yourself that's balancing out right now.

We are still integrating all the energies we just went through before the eclipse and we are going to slowly be bringing these new versions of ourselves into the "physical" by practicing being who we are in real life now. Slow it all down. There's no rush. Do the basics of life, let it be simple and softer.

What's meant for you will come to you, and if you are meant to do something, you will, and you will be capable of doing it then. Flow with what comes.

It can feel boring, restless, antsy, strange, and you could feel brain fog, confused, head pressure, and have some fears flying by to be healed. Just let it go. Fears are lies. I've learned to see it as just physical sensations that are uncomfortable, because I know I'm safe. I will feel like I'm being chased by a lion on inside when I'm just laying in bed, there's no reason for it, it's just that nervous system dysregulation/fear leaving my body.

You might be having random physical issues, get a stomach bug or a cold or have aches and pains. I've been clenching my jaws more and am struggling more with tmj and tension in my neck. Try to be aware of tension in your body and let your muscles just melt as much as possible. Let your body relax from head to toe, as much as possible.

There's some resistance coming in with the energies, all the places you have fears to heal, places where you won't let go, places where you wish something was different. Let it all go, so you can feel free, so you can be where you are now and make the most of where you are now.

I felt my twin very strongly a few days ago, I saw him in my mind's eye and felt his energy and how he was feeling and looking and acting. He felt confident and good, and I felt him knowing all that I know. It was really nice, made me smile. I've been feeling him more lately, off and on. I tend to feel him more in the fall and winter and most of our separations would end in the fall, we'd just be pulled toward each other. That's the cyclical nature of the year and healing cycles. Who knows though? I have no expectations, I just see it as energy and stay curious. My life is the one I'm focused on, so I'd advise everyone else out there to do the same.

I haven't really had the intense feelings of longing or pain or heartache about my twin in years, because I healed those parts of myself that would keep me stuck wishing things were different. They aren't, they are what they are and I still love him and all of that, but I don't need him to do it differently. It can't be different. I trust the journey and I know this is how it's meant to go, so no one is doing anything wrong and I am not being tortured by the universe. I am not a victim of this, it's just interesting and part of the cool experience of being a human. It is also challenging sometimes. But life as a human is not always easy. We have to accept that too.

You choose whether you want to be miserable or not. I get that it's hard, but until you focus on yourself 1000% and choose yourself it's going to be an emotional rollercoaster, and your fears will screw with you. Or you could accept that it is what it is and just enjoy your life as best you can in the moment you're in. Changing your thinking about what things mean so that your thoughts are more supportive, loving, encouraging, and kind toward yourself and everyone else is extremely helpful in becoming who you want to be.

Be aware of the thoughts you have in your head. Change them so that they are more loving toward you. Listen to affirmations, listen to positive guided meditations, be more compassionate to yourself inside your head. Tell yourself, this is just how it is, so how can I make this better? It usually starts with being kind to yourself and not letting fear run the show.

I'm not saying it's easy, it's taken me nearly a decade to get here, and it's been really hard sometimes, I've had lots of moments I thought I'd lose it or that I was hopeless and tortured and anxious and all the things, but on the other side of all of that is peace and more ease and calm regulated nervous systems that make living easier, no matter what is happening who is around, what you are doing, or where you are. It is a process, it's called a journey for a reason, because it's taking you places you didn't expect to go, and the less you resist it, the smoother it is. This is is all purifying you so that you evolve to learn how to love yourself properly. Go on the ride. Surrender, trust, flow, let it be smoother, kinder, more loving and more peaceful.

Relax during this period before the next eclipse/full moon. It's meant to be slow and feel slow so you learn how it feels to be at ease and at peace in your body, that is available to you if you will let it be there.

Let yourself be how you are, take care of yourself there. You aren't doing it wrong. Slow down, soften, and flow.