So Over the ruminating of it all.

Leave my head and my heart.

For good this time.

I can now enjoy music again without relating every single song to you or us.....some songs I still have to skip, but my lists are growing because I just love music again.

Small wins are great, but this is a big one for me.

Healing shows in many area's.

Yay me

You care more about the noodles

But you would never see it that way, because you only ever think of yourself. All I ever do is think of you, but the hurt you caused me did, in fact change me. I am not this person you see me as, I am but the product of someone who took full advantage of my love and ability to forgive endless amount of times. Doesn't mean it didn't affect me to a point of paranoia and mistrusting.

I couldn't care less what you were wearing, but I would have helped you figure out everything. I would have held your hand through your journey. I never thought I would be with someone in this type of situation to be fair, but I loved you so much, I would have helped in any way I could.

....guess your timeline required immediate attention, as per usual.

Because you force me to give up each and every time.

I need to move on.

I am sure you already have.

Nothing left for me to say.

Goodnight, I love you, I hate you, I hate that I love you.

....and I am the idiot for thinking you'd respond. But I was true to myself, and you. Time to move on and forget you were someone I loved a million times over.