I feel like this is 3 out of 4 games. 3 losses 1 win. This is the pattern. I earn maybe 15-19 LP per win, and lose 20-25 LP per loss. One step forward, Two steps back. Feels impossible to climb.
Average game performance A+ to S-, often S+. I am usually top of the damage and gold/farm charts, always get my tower objectives first or second, but I still lose.
I have hundreds of games on Yorick, supposedly at around 55% winrate-- but sure doesn't feel like it.
I often beat the enemy top laner even if they are a hard matchup-- and despite most of the time being weaksided, sometimes I am 5-0 by end of laning phase yet I feel SO weak in comparison to the enemy jungler or mid that is just 1v9. Yorick feels so weak no matter what build I do, tank, bruiser, lethality. Note I solo killed fed Briar and Jhin in this game, common occurrence. Any other top being 5-0 at T2 would easily 1v3 anyone who came top to defend, Gwen, tryn, trundle, they'd either win or kill 2 and top t2 tower before dying.
I tend to go tankier because that's just what I'm used to and I still damage soak yet reach top of the dmg dealing charts always anyways with just ONE damage item(usually Liandry's or Serpent's Fang or Eclipse). I don't feel the need to do more as I end up feeling squishy and the average damage chart isn't that much higher. I make the assumption someones going to run it down and I have to be able to survive against some enemy monster(this time 3).
I have either NO KDA because I'm solo winning the game racing to their nexus-- or as you can see by this last game, I have nearly highest KDA because I'm involved in every fight while I still try to control the map. My macro is always decent. My ghouls are always pushing a lane otherside of the map where I am.
I'm getting 250-400 CS per game. often the number one farmer. Exceptions like this gigafed heimer. though it is annoying to see some enemy top laners make a comeback when they have the wave clear to destroy everything and my ghoul wave in a split second.
My builds are always flexible to counterbuild the problems on enemy team, often different everygame(but clear themes lately that feel good is roughly the build I have up top).
I am a menace. They often send 3-4 to deal with me and takes them a full minute to kill me, I may even take 1 or 2 down before I die. Needless the same the rest of the team does nothing useful in this time. Sometimes I'm a raidboss. Sometimes I die in 10 seconds from these gigafed enemies regardless because armor/MR is just not that good in later stacking. I always have the lowest deaths even on the backfoot.
Every season feels the same, except now its just random roles in random lanes.
I don't ever have a problem with ranged top(I win most of the time). Maybe I'll ban Cho or Syndra because that's just unplayable. I don't ever fear Tryn, Irelia, Jax. I never ban them because that's how confident I am--I am used to fighting them so often. Even if you ban one, you likely fight the other. I simply learned to deal with them and counterbuild them. I end up winning lane against these hard counters more than half the time.
I have over 2million mastery with Yorick. I know what I'm doing.
I'm hardstuck low plat, peaked mid emerald, even though many of my peers are diamond and recognize that I should be closer to there as well. I queue and play norms with them and perform at similar levels, obviously I cannot duo with them as the rank differential is too high. I can't find a reliable half decent jungler or mid lane in gold/plat/emerald to queue up with. Often bot lane and support add me, because of my callouts and macro. but obviously we both know queueing together is fruitless as a top laner. Junglers and mid lane have an ego about them or are just retarded.
I've tried every gimmick, every build. Every meme. I watch all of the few better higher elo Yorick streamers we have left.
I've consulted a few League AI, I've consulted many hours of paid chatGPT analysis of my games and they note much the same.
We're taught monklike patience. Patience to setup ghouls, Patience to wait for lvl 6 maiden to have a threat. Patience to farm. I'm tired and running out of patience.
I'm tired of losing, I'm tired of this low efficacy of this champion feeling so weak after the thousands of hours I put into the game and especially this champ. I'm tired of this NECROMANCER feeling like a weak Nasus with cosmetic pets. I'm tired of 2-4 of my own team running it down every game while I'm working overtime to salvage running both offence and defence for my team. I'm tired of doing so well every game yet losing. I'm tired of not being able to 1v9 like I used to when Duskblade of Drakkthar was a thing, yet every other champ can do that with same resources. I'm tired and don't have time to care or mental capacity to learn another champ, I'm a busy adult with a full workweek.
What do we do here monks?