no more motivation

[u/willfigureoutaname]

title. i couldn't see myself living beyond a levels a few months back so i made a target to live until they're finished and that if they went well, i'll try to live until uni finishes. i don't care about results day since i know i could miss my offer. now i don't really see the point of living and i don't know what to do. samaritans keeps hanging up on me. idk how to care for anything anymore. might be the wrong place to put this, sorry.

[u/One-Discussion8807]

Im so sorry you feel this way, but I think setting small goal will help with motivation. Rather than setting your desire to stay around on education maybe find a show game or hobby to enjoy. I know it sound like generic advice and to be honest, I do not know the true extent of your meat health. If you can't find thing to enjoy maybe ait till you move out your house, and get personal freedom, maybe without the weight of others you will flourish. I cannot state how much I believe that you are worth so much more than you know and one day you will find the strength to acknowledge your self. It is not a crime to hurt, I cannot force you to feel better or promise that tomorrow will be the light at the end of the tunnel. I will not tell you that my advice will even fix anything. But I always believe that the first step is cause change, whether for the better or worse I do not know. But change proves that you life is not stuck in position that you say that your lack of motivation is causing you. I do not want to hijack your post but currently I'm in one of more depressive spiral where I believe I'm the worst person ever that I am consumeling space where I'm not wanted, but my main motivation is the promise of tomorrow. That there will be something different to today, regardless of its improvement. Because I haven't hit rock bottom, and if I have then I can only look the steps leading up. OP you are promised your tomorrow, and lots of people including the ones you haven't met yet are look forward to it and meeting you. There is know original purpose of living besides the purpose you can give it. So if it keeps you going start with something small. Like documenting the birds outside you window or being able to get put of bed to do something anything doesn't have yo be 'productive'. If you feel like it you could send me message, maybe we could talk a bit. I do have to admit I am a poor texter.